The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-13

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Previously...

I looked at the photos again. I felt malicious. I didn't know why! .. yousif stood next to me and stared at them as well ..

Yousif; you don't like them?I stared at him as he was staring at the stupid photos!

I stared at him as he was staring at the stupid photos!

Ruba; no

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I left the room. And again, I was lost, it was very dark .. I walked a few steps with my hands on both sides making sure I don't bump into anything .. I heard him leave the room ..

Yousif; *shouts* RUBA?
Ruba; kanyy
Yousif; allah yhadaach bs!

He was scared for me, which was very cute! He turned on the lights ..

Yousif; lahadaraja you're jealous?
Ruba; Me?! jealous?! Hah-hum- (some sort of 6naza laughter) no!
Yousif; hehe, contradiction is cute!
Ruba; ugh! would you shut up and drive me to an amazing breakfast? I'm starving!
Yousif; ok ..

As much as I hated the idea of the photos hanging. I hated that I might be hanged someday! But the good part is that he used film, so that I won't be photoshoped or something .. any way, we drove off to a hotel, akhaf agoul el-esim yi6la3 da3aya ;p ,, ok I'll say it :p Crowne Plaza .. we had the buffet ,, and it was simply amazing .. I was tabbing the napkin against my lips ..

Ruba; emm emm emm! Latheeeth! Kramk allah
Yousif; 3alaich bil 3afya ..
Ruba; what are you doing for the weekend?
Yousif; umm ,, madryy wallah ,, elrabi3 biro7oon a cruise around..
Ruba; allah sounds like fun
Yousif; eeh, 3ad lal7een ma Qarart arou7 wala ma arou7 ..
Ruba; laiishh!? Rou777 ambaih 7adda wanasa! Lw ana minnik 7ad ommy arou7!
Yousif; yeah maybe I might.
Ruba; mhmm
Yousif; saraina?
Ruba; saraina..

He dropped me off at my uni, it was weekend that day ,, I went back home, stayed in my room 3ashan astaw3ib shilly 9ar! And wonder why the pictures bothered me! and wonder why I felt safe in his arms. And wonder why I even let him take photos of me, I could've said no! but I didn't! why!? .. but most of all .. I didn't know why I had to call him!!..

Yousif; alo?
Ruba; hi
Yousif; ahlain?
Ruba; radait elbait?
Yousif; eh, bakhith aghrathy w arou7 elshalaih ..
Ruba; mhmm ,, have fun ..
Yousif; enshallah ,, entay wi9altay?
Ruba; eeh ..
Yousif; any plans?
Ruba; la wallah .. bitrou7 the cruise?
Yousif; eeh, my friends hnak na6reenyy
Ruba; ah ok,, ok go have fun!

I hung up. I'm so stupid! Laish dagait 3alaiihh!??! Few seconds later ..

From Moron;
I'll miss you;* ,, if you need anything text me;*

To Moron;
Enshallah;*

This isn't good! I feel like I'm falling for him. I let him control me. I find it really hard to tell him no! .. any way .. I had to call both rinad and basma to tell them what happened ..

Basma; *gaassppp* khibla entaayyy!!?? 9iiij maynoona!!

Rinad; khoush khoouushh!! Ashwa film not memory card!

That’s what they told me! ,, maybe it was a bad idea. But there's something that tells me enna yousif wouldn't do anything bad. He's not that evil, madryy .. only time will tell.

DAYS LATER;

*Moron Calling*

Ruba; alo?
Yousif; yah hala
Ruba; hala feek ..
Yousif; shlounich shakhbarich?
Ruba; good, you?
Yousif; el7imdillah .. listen .. emshay ni6la3
Ruba; ok wain?
Yousif; nitmasha 3al ba7ar!?
Ruba; ok meta?
Yousif; el7een!
Ruba; NOW?!
Yousif; eeh eeh hahah

It was 7 am! This dude is such a morning person <3>


Ruba; enta shimga3dik hal 7aza?
Yousif; a7ib elba7ar el9ib7


Ahh <3>


Ruba; I see .. enzain yousif?
Yousif; hala?
Ruba; la…


I was interrupted by .. guess who!? Guess who was walking by with a girl in his shloulders?! Guess!!!! YEP! S3OOD =) when I finally start living my life! He shows up! O laaaa! He shows up with a girl!! Yousif; kamlay? Yousif noticed that I was staring at something far away, so he turned around and saw him. Them I mean! Then he tunred again to face me ..


Yousif; shnu ya3ny?! O khair ya 6air!
Ruba; ma..madryy ..


Nazalt rasy! O I could tell that yousif was very upset o masik nafsah! .. s3ood walked past us, he eyed me with a smirk. I ignored and looked at yousif ..


Ruba; not like I care!


I said that as tears were forming in my eyes. But hiding them from yousif ..


Ruba; I got someone better now! Right?
Yousif; *chuckles* yeah ..
Ruba; yousif ..
Yousif; 3younah?
Ruba; I'm yours


What did I just say?


Yousif; shnu?
Ruba; I'm yours. All yours. Yours only.
Yousif; you're mine?
Ruba; yes
Yousif; o ana killy lich.


I rested my head on his shoulder as the tear found it's way out of my eye, and dropped on his shirt. S3ood is now completely satisfied that I cheated. Which I didn't! but he got over me so fast, so why can't I? right? So I thought the best thing to do, is be with yousif! ,, I was falling for him, he's crazy about me, makes a perfect match! .. After a few moments of silence ..


Yousif; shfeech 7abeebty?


I'm now 7abeebtah <3


Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; shfeech?
Ruba; aby elkilma elthanya!
Yousif; *whispers* 7abeebty!

Aahh <3!!!!


Ruba; mafeeny shay as long as you're here!
Yousif; ruba?
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; 7abeebty?
Ruba; 3youn ruba?
Yousif; it7ibeenyy?
Ruba; eeh
Yousif; akeed?
Ruba; akeedaiin!
Yousif; bs ana amout feech ,, shil 7al?
Ruba; *giggles*
Yousif; fidait'ha;*
Ruba; esmilla 3alaik 7abeeby


Awal marra agoul "7abeeby" and mean it! With yousif though ..


Yousif; 7abeebich?
Ruba; min 9ij!
Yousif; wayyy!
Ruba; yousif?
Yousif; 3youn ahala!
Ruba; ma ra7 itkhaleenyy?
Yousif; la2! Ma 3aash min ekhaleech!
Ruba; enzain tathiQ feny yousif?
Yousif; akeed athiQ feech! Laish ma athiQ feech?
Ruba; etha shiftny akalim rifeejik ,, ra7 itshik feenyy?
Yousif; la ruba ana a3arfich 3adil. Ra7 aghaar akeed! Bs ma ra7 ashik fech
Ruba; ashwa


He put his arms around me, and sort of hugged me tight. I felt .. what's the right word? … Home! I felt like right there is where I belong, and where I'll stay for the rest of my life. I know I've hurt him, but he has forgiven me. he's a good man.


Ruba; yousif?
Yousif; 3younah?
Ruba; shayil eb galbik shay?
Yousif; … la2
Ruba; yousif ana asfa I really felt sorry! 9iij 9ij! Ya3ny ldarajat enna I would do anything so the past would be erased! ..


he simply kissed my forehead ..

Yousif; *whispers* khala9, mu entay el7een malty?
Ruba; eeh
Yousif; that's all I need


I dug my head deeper. And felt like crying, madry laish .. I shed a few tears ,, and yousif noticed ..


Yousif; hey heeyy! Shnu hathaaa! Tabcheeen ruba?!


He released his arms, and looked at his shirt! ..


Yousif; you're not getting away with this, you're gonna pay for the laundry


He joked trying to make me smile, which worked..I smiled..


Yousif; ashouf! Wa 7alaat elwayh o ohwa mibtesim;*
Ruba; hehe *shy*
Yousif; ruba!!
Ruba; hm?
Yousif; A7IBICH!


Ahhh <3


Ruba; enzain ..


His eyes popped out .. then I giggled ..


Ruba; ehehe, haman ana..


I found it hard to tell him "a7ibik" somehow,,it needs time..


LATER THAT DAY;


Rinad called me ..


Rinad; alo!
Ruba; ahlan!
Rinad; rwaib! Aku gathering ib baitna! Yallah emshay o bring the purple sweater you have ..
Ruba; ha?! Mnu biyee?
Rinad; everybody from uni, except for the guys ;(
Ruba; hahaha, ok what time?
Rinad; umm,, 5, 6 hal 7aza!
Ruba; ok, I'll be there ..
Rinad; don't forget the purple sweater!!!
Ruba; enzain ..


When she called me it was already 4;30 ,, so I took a shower and dressed up. Libast dark skinny jeans with a short sleeve patterned blue shirt. Grey cross bag, grey flats, and good to go. Ooooppss! Almost forgot the purple sweater she wanted. I called yousif as I was driving ..

Ruba; alo 7ayaty tara ana baroou7 bait rinad
Yousif; ok, have fun, shil 6ary?
Ruba; gathering, chithy girl's 3aba6..
Yousif; ahaa, 7arakaat (remember 7ara7aat :p? always.be? :p)
Ruba; hehe ,, yallah 7ayatyy I'll talk to you lama arid elbait ok?
Yousif; allah wiyach, mwah
Ruba; mwah enta ;p
Yousif; madry laish 7asait'ha ehana ;p
Ruba; hahahah .. no no! wallah Qa9dy shareef :p
Yousif; hahaha,,ok ashwa ;p
Ruba; yallah 7abeeby bye;*
Yousif; bye;*


RINAD'S HOUSE;


It was a bit crowded. I found my way on a couch with basma, rinad maskeena she was so busy talking to the maids and telling them what to do, I didn't even know the reason for the gathering ,, but I just wanted to have fun .. I told basma everything! Aahhh I was falling in love. After a while .. I saw "the girl" remember her? S3ood's gf?! Yeah HER! I went closer to rinad ..


Ruba; 3izamteeha?


I pointed with my eye on "the girl"


Rinad; huh .. eehh ..
Ruba; why would you?
Rinad; aren't you like over s3ood, and don't care any more!
Ruba; embala! Bs laish ta3zimeenha!!!
Rinad; madryy ruba, it's 3adyy


She said that while she was busy arranging some forks and shit. I was sort of upset! Shnu hatha? Laish ta3zimha? Ok 7atta lw I'm over s3ood, which I am! Laish ta3zimha?! I hate it when friends don't understand why I'm angry! I sat next to basma again, and rested my chin on the palm of my hand,


Basma; shfech?
Ruba; rinad e3zimat hathy


I eyed "her" ,, basma looked at her, then back at me ..

Basma; 7ilfay?
Ruba; wallah!
Basma; 3ady bil 6agaag! You don't care about s3ood, don't you?
Ruba; ok I don't care about him! Bs laiish ta3zimhaa! She knows well shnu 9aar!
Basma; 3adyy rwaib, don't mind it
Ruba; wai3!


Bainy o bain nafsy I thought what rinad did was weird! Ya3ny seriously? Laish ta3zimha?! Ugh! it was dinner time a while after that, we ate dinner. I eyed the girl wayiid! Kil shway akhizha ashoufha shetsawyy,, she's always giggling and texting "somebody" uugghhh! It bothered meeeee!!!

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-12

Previously...

I stayed silent, he seemed angry, o 9ara7a kint khayfa! .. then he just walked away! Dropped his cigar on the floor. And walked away! ..

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DAYS LATER;

Ahh! I felt bad for the longest time. I miss s3ood. I miss yousif. I feel angry towards s3ood. I feel sympathetic towards yousif! .. sometimes I would text yousif saying sorry, but he never replied. It drove me nuts. But I never had the urge to call. And s3ood! There wouldn't be a day that passes by without thinking about him! ..

(I heard this song once on the radio, it couldn't help buts stick in my head, here goes…
7abeeby el-awalany 9a3b ef youm yirga3ly tany
Bs mahma kan naseena ma eb ninsaash
Da el-fora2 adarak na9eebak
Laih ya alby elly yiseebak yib2a 6oul 3omry 7abeebak bs laih?!
Momkin ansa esmy, ansa elnas, ansa a3eesh
Ba awal marra a7ib..ma ib titniseesh

This is my actual first time to like an Egyptian song! I hope you liked it;*)

Truth be told. I don't blame yousif. I did him wrong. And I deserve what's happening to me ..

IN COLLEGE;

Basma ana I were sitting at the café, she was focused on something to do with studying .. and I was eating a fruit salad ..

Basma; if q to the sixth power equals to the square roof of p!? waii3 shnu hathaa!!

She tends to think out loud, I don't mind. I actually enjoy it .. basma couldn't "function" any more, she threw her hands up, and gave up ..

Basma; I give up! Hawant maby atkharaj! Ok?!! Bashteghiil zabaala!! Okayyy?!*angry*
Ruba; haha! Basoooom chill! Ask mbarak, he's helpful and friendly ..

Mbarak is this friendly nerd, he seems to help everyone around, he's Mr.Perfect ..

Basma; waiih maly khelg! B3dain b3dain ..
Ruba; oki doki

She stole my fork and started to eat my fruit salad

(Again, they're always joking, non of the conversation below is seious)

Ruba; ya 7mara!
Basma; I'm dying here!
Ruba; oh yeah!
Basma; wayyy 9ij I'm so stressed out! I hate uni!
Ruba; ma 3alaih, kilha cham sina..
Basma; humph! Ma 3alaina .. shlouniich ma3a shesma?
Ruba; what?
Basma; e7im?
Ruba; who?

I really had no one at that time..

Basma; yousif?
Ruba; ugh siktaayy! Ever since the "chili's" day we haven't spoken..

Of course I told them about it. I promised not to keep a secret;*

Basma; oh .. can I be frank?
Ruba; sure..
Basma; madryy laish a7is yousiif is … *sar7ana 3alam thany thinking* .. what's the right word?

Amazing? Maskeen? Mathloom?

Ruba; you tell me..
Basma; yeah!! Mathloom! ,, I feel like he's a good guy who doesn't act like it! But why doesn't he act like a good guy? Laish chithy ya3ny?
Ruba; madryy ..

I put my elbow on the table and started thinking …

Basma; howb! La itro7een b3eed! What are you thinking about?
Ruba; the feelings that I'm feeling … are … strange!
Basma; what are they?
Ruba; I remember we used to call each other daily. Musta7eel emir youm ma7ad emkalim elthany..it was like he was like .. a human diary! You know what I mean!? I told him everything! And I was his human diary too .. I kind of miss him
Basma; aww .. is he aware of that?
Ruba; no ..
Basma; what are you waiting for? *eyes popped out*
Ruba; la fashlaaa

I turned my head to the other direction showing that I'm so against the idea .. I felt basma steal my mobile from my pocket ..

Ruba; ya 7maaraaaaaa
Basma; shesma!?
Ruba; basoooom! Fashlaaa
Basma; what's his name?!
Ruba; moron!
Basma; what? Hahahahahahhaahah! You seriously hate the guy!
Ruba; laaa I don't! I ..

Like him? Madryy what I feel towards him. But it's definitely not hate ;) .. good thing basma didn't pay attention when I said "I .. "

Basma; kahooo, I'll text him .. *vocalizing while typing* II MIIISSSS YOOUUU!
Ruba; mnu gaa9 3alaich gayiiil lich 9outiich 7ilw!

She handed me the phone while ..

Basma; you're gonna thank me one day for this!
Ruba; ugh! bsaaiimm! Besides .. he never replied on my messeges, so I won't feel embarrassed not like he's going to reply ..

I said as I rested, since I was sitting on the edge of my seet; fighting with bsaaiim elkhebla!

*MSG RINGTONE*

Basma + Ruba; *GAASSPPP*

We stuck to each other's shoulders with the mobile in the middle, secretly hoping it's from yousif! And guess what!?? It was!!!

From Moron;
I've heard that before

I looked at basma with sad eyes ..

Ruba; look what you did!
Basma; 3a6eenyy 3a6eenyyy ana a3arf atfaham ma3ah!
Ruba; basooom ;(
Basma; what's the worst thing that could happen?

Not like he's my bf, the worst thing happened already, not like he's going to leave me?! we're not even together..

Ruba; ok go ahead!

I was a little excited, honestly .. basma grabbed my phone, thought for a sec ..

Basma; *says while typing* I mean it this time

From Moron;
Why should I believe you?

Basma; waaiihh tara hatha dalloouuu33 ;p
Ruba; chub 3ad!
Basma; oowwbb! Ma tirthaaiin 3alaaiihh?

EEHH MA ARTHAAA! ;p

Ruba; laa! Bs shnu daloou3?! Chub chub kitbaay kitbaayy
Basma; hahaa! Ma tirthain 3alaih! Kaak yal 9aida!

I hit her on her shoulder

Ruba; ma7ad 9aida ghairiich! Chub!
Basma; enzain enzain! *singing* ma tirthaa 3alaaiihh! 3ashaww ;p
Ruba; *gives the look* eb tiktibeen wala shloun?!
Basma; shloun!
Ruba; bsaaaiiiiiimmmm!!!
Basma; *ib kil borood* 3youb bsaim?
Ruba; slaima it9ikiich yallah kitbay!
Basma; enzain enzaiin!;p

To Moron;
If I was gonna continue lying, I wouldn't have told you I lied! Now would I? ;)

Ruba; 7mara! It souds a whole lot worse when you say it!
Basma; correction!! Write it*
Ruba; say it, write it, same thing!
Basma; laaaaaaa22!
Ruba; ok ok! You're right I'm wrong! You win, I lose!
Basma; ya 7ilwiich winti makhthatny 3ala gad 3aglyy!
Ruba; hahahah ..

From Moron;
I don't know ..

To Moron;
Fyi .. I'm not ruba, I'm her friend, elyoum et7al6imat 3ala rasyy she's like "I miss yousif" and she was too embarrassed to tell you. Fa I figured I should do that :D!

As I read the msg before she sends it, I gasped a very long gasp! I was literally "akhmi6" the mobile from basma. O we looked like 9 year old's! and she eventually won and clicked "send"!! aaahhhh;O! I covered my face with my hand! As if everybody knew what I just did!

Ruba; ya 7maaaraaaaa!!
Basma; you'll thank me one day!
Ruba; bsaaiim!;(

She was laughing, honestly, I was happy she did it, but I was a bit anxious. Lemme rephrase that! I WAS ANXIOUS WAYIID! .. my mobile didn't make a sound after that msg! I don't know what happened!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS MAN?! After a while rinad came out of the lecture, and we chatted a bit at the café, of course I told her everything! ..

Rinad; maybe he IS mentally ill?!
Basma; hahah
Ruba; Noo;/! Akeed 9ar shay! Shil salfa? I'm kind of worried..
Basma; oh yeah I forgot to mention tara ruba "ma tirtha 3alaih"! *wink*
Ruba; ya 7maaara wallah maybe something happened to him!

I said that shway dala3! Because I was really frightened! .. any way .. we talked and talked. Actually, they did. I just listened and wodered of what's happening to him at that moment! I drove back home, and was dressing up for my nap. Ensida7t, 7a6ait mobiley on the sidebed table..

*MSG RINGTONE*

Ok! I hope it's from yousif! Yep you heard right! I HOPE IT'S FROM YOUSIF!

From Moron;
Is this ruba? Or her friend?

To Moron;
Ruba

Seconds later …

*Moron Calling* …

Goosebumps, butterflies in my tummy, my heart was racing, everything all at the same time! What is it? What's happening to me?!

Ruba; … alo?
Yousif; ahlan ..
Ruba; …….
Yousif; …….

Embarrassing wouldn't cut it! Awkward wouldn't cut it! Ma2adryyy! I felt like I wanted to die just to NOT be in that situation! It took a few second for him to speak up ..

Yousif; is it true?

I knew right away what he was after .. "do you really miss me?"

Ruba; *clears throat* y..yeah ..
Yousif; *sigh*
Ruba; shfeek?

Then he went on and on of all things that I did wrong! We blah blah blah'ed a lot .. until he asked a question that made me freeze. He was confused, bs mu kithry ana ..

Yousif; what now?

What now? WHAT NOW?! Really?! What now?

Ruba; I don't know …
Yousif; shnu elly baina?

Shnu elly baina?!

Ruba; ma2adryy ..
Yousif; shnu lazim ensawyy?

SHNU LAZIM ENSAWYY!

Ruba; ma2adryy
Yousif; *sigh* ,, mashyy ,, khala9 ana akhaleech el7een ..

How long for?

Ruba; mhmm
Yousif; yallah bye
Ruba; bye

Madry shloun gilt "bye"! aahhh! I couldn't nap! Killa min his last words "khala9 ana akhaleech el7een" I didn't know what meant …



















UNTIL…




























I WAS FINALLY RELIEVED THE NEXT DAY….


























From Moron;
Morning ..

Aaaaaaahhhh!!!

To Moron;
Morning to you too

From Moron;
Are you busy today?

To Moron;
Umm,,no,,why?

From Moron;
Well, I miss you as well. And I'd like to see you?

WAAYYYYY;*

To Moron;
Ok .. where?

From Moron;
Friday's

S3ood's fave restaurant

To Moron;
Umm ,, ishrayik ghairah?

From Moron;
Ok .. wain? You pick

To Moron;
Wasabi

From Moron;
Sure, 7?

To Moron;
Ok

The talking was kind of cold. I don't blame him, he has all the right to be cold .. I wore a girly navy blue dress, it was baggy at the top, but was a little tight at the bottom .. not so tight though, just tighter than baggy (you get it right?;*)

AT WASABI;

I got in, picked a table; yousif didn't arrive yet .. it took him 10 minutes to arrive, he was wearing a blue and orange tshirt, with jeans. He had his wallet and mobile in hand. And I couldn't my eyes to zoom in into his wrist watch which was burberry. He has a great taste..

Yousif; *clears throat* ahlan

He wasn't smilling! Elnafsiyaa tharba 3al 3alyy!! (Emthagil nafsah)

Ruba; hey ..
Yousif; excuse me .. *calling out for a waiter* .. we want the menu please

Polite ..

Ruba; ehh?
Yousif; eeh .. *receives menu* thank you..

And he was flipping through the menu searching for something to eat, while I was just staring at him ..

Yousif; have you decided?

He said that without even looking at me. he was too busy picking what he was going to have..

Ruba; la2..

I held the menu and searched .. we ordered .. while we were waiting ,, yousif was kind of busy with his mobile .. I waited for a few minutes. Atlafat, al3ab eb my nails, checking on my look with the mini mirror I had in my purse. Still busy! ..

Ruba; e7iimm

Still busy!

Ruba; when are you gonna be done?
Yousif; hmm?
Ruba; from your mobile?
Yousif; eh wait

That's what I've been doing for the last century!!

Ruba; ok

I said in an upset tone! Ya3ny enta taby itshofny 3ashan you check on your phone and completely ignore me? .. then he finally put his mobile on the table, and looked at me while his hand was placed on his chin.

Yousif; ehh?
Ruba; eehh
Yousif; shlounich?
Ruba; zaina
Yousif; shakhbarich?
Ruba; zaina
Yousif; good.
Ruba; enta shlounik?
Yousif; zain
Ruba; shakhbarik?
Yousif; zain

Ok el-convo was copy-paste!! Wai3! It was kind of awkward

Yousif; laish itQaldeen?

He joked trying to break the ice

Ruba; madryy ;p

He smiled! FINALLY! Ishda3waa yubaa gaa6 elthegiiil ;p!? he has a beautiful smile, Hollywood smile <3 his teeth were white, and each tooth was long in length, all at the same level, if you see them you might think he had sharpened them. But he didn't, they're natural!

Ruba; can I tell you something?
Yousif; sure ..
Ruba; awal ,, youm we used to talk ,, you have no idea how much that was the highlight of my day. It would always make me feel better. But yet I felt guilty ,, you really made it a whole lot better for me! wallah! And I'm so sorry I lied to you, I promise you it will never happen again!
Yousif; the past is in the past .. let's just leave it there?

He said that with a one sided smile .. 7araaam! <33

Ruba; *smiles* ok ..

Seconds later we were back to "normal" , you may not know what I mean by "normal". Definition; when yousif tells me about his friends, and gets all mad like the way he was when the situation happened, and then apologizes that he was angry while I had nothing to do with it. Normal when he would tell a joke and laugh at himself. Normal when he would chuckle on any funny voice that I pronounce. Normal that he stares at me with a smile when I talk. Normal that he clenches his teeth everytime he spots a guy who's staring at me. normal that he would text me while we're actually talking to each other face to face. That's his "Normal"! .. we had a lot to cover since we haven't spoken for a long time. It was 10;10 ,, I just realized I almost spent three hours in the same place, with the same person, and the smile never vanished from my face <3 ..

Ruba; *gasp* ambaih yousif it's 10!
Yousif; 3adyy
Ruba; la la! Khalood nou3a e7atyy,,

I got up, and almost left before I heard him ..

Yousif; ta3alay!! Awa9lich elcar!
Ruba; ok

I said with the widest smile!

Yousif; yallah ..

He grabbed his wallet and mobile quickly .. he walked me to my car, opened the door for me as I entered. And rested his elbows on my window opening,, I had to tease!!

Ruba; excuse me sir. Your elbows are bothering my car
Yousif; hahah .. mashyy

He removed his elbows, as I drove a few inches forward ..

Ruba; bye ..
Yousif; bye

When I gone off to bed that night. I was surprisingly happy, yet confused and shocked. Happy because he has finally talked to me, confused because I don't know why he did, and I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, shocked because if I were in his shoes I wouldn't listen to me (ruba) ..!

NEXT MORNING;

*msg ringtone*

I reached my mobile with one eye closer and the other open, I just woke up and couldn't help but reach for my mobile with secret hopes that it was from yousif..

From Moron;
Morning

To Moron;
Morning

From Moron;
3asa ma ga3adtich?

It was 6:00 am SHARP!!!

To Moron;
La, killa agoum hal 7aza ana

Yeah right!

From Moron;
I like that..have you eaten breakfast?

To Moron;
No

From Moron;
Emshay enraygich, I have a surprise for you ;)

To Moron;
What is it?

From Moron;
Can't tell you. That's why it's called a "surprise"!

To Moron;
Ok

I washed up, and prayed fayir since I was ages late! Jumped in my fresh yellow juicy training! Such a morning outfit! Pony tail, and didn't grab a purse! Finall touches here and there, and texted yousif ..

To Moron;
Wain?

From Moron;
Meet me at you uni, I'll drive you to the place

Wala mara rikabt with yousif the same car! Chinna it's fashla o too soon? .. my reply didn't intdicate any of what I said ..

To Moron;
Ok now barou7 ..

I drove my Range Rover, parked at my uni. And texted him …

To Moron;
I'm there ..

5 minutes later, he parked on the right side of my car .. and waved for me to come to his care! This was kinda hard! ..I froze, khift of what might happen .. but I got out of my car, and enetered his. Lemme tell you! The scent!! Itsayiii7 eldinya o ma feeha! It was a mix of lots of things. I loved it until yousif lit a cigar! Bad habbit! He wasn't driving, he just sat there ,, enhaling the cigar ..

Ruba; so wain binrou7?
Yousif; agoul lich surprise itgoleen wain *teases*
Ruba; ummm..

We were parked there for about 5 minutes or even more .. without saying a word ..

Ruba; are we going there any time soon?
Yousif; lama akhali9 zigara ..
Ruba; ok ..

But he took one after the other, so we wouldn't really finish ..

Ruba; enzain can't you smoke and drive at the same time?
Yousif; ma feech 9abir!?
Ruba; honestly, no!

Yousif was a bit … what's the right word? .. rude? Aggressive? Something in between those two .. a few minutes later he finally drove off ..and I got anxious .. I was looking around trying to find a trace of what we were going, but nothing. Streets are streets ya3ny how can you tell? … he parked in front of this HUGE building, and I couldn't guess, coz there was nothing written except the name of the man that owns the building. And it's a name I've never heard before, the first name yeah sure, it was common. But the last name was a mystery ..

Yousif; yallah ..

He got out of the car, and opened the door for me. he's very moody. One minute he would be rude and cold, the next he's a gentleman!!?

Ruba; thanks ..

I got out of the car as he held my hand and lead me to the elevator .. up to the 7th floor .. ok! I was mu khayfa!!! Zain ma sawait'ha 3ala rou7yy!

Yousif; fahamtay wain?
Ruba; la2?!

Unfortunately there weren't a lot of people when we left the elevator, but a Philippine maid had passed by us .. and seemed to greet yousif ..

Philippine; hi sir. I haven't seen you in long time
Yousif; yeah, I've been busy .. plus I wasn't really in the mood of coming here!

Question, where is HERE?!

Philippine; ohhh!

She inappropriately put her hand on his shoulder with sad eyes that say "I miss you" ..

Yousif; excuse me Linda …

HOLD UP!! Linda? He knows her name?!

Yousif; … I have a girl with me, ok?

She gave me this stare! 6ala3atny min foug o ta7at as I rolled my eyes and gave her my back! 3aiib shloun it6ali3ny cihthy? .. yousif just grabbed my hand, and took me into "Some place" ..

Ruba; yousif where are we?

He was busy looking for something .. lemme describe the place for you, dark, dark, dark, and dark! There were a few lights here and there. And by the silence you could tell that it was empty! ..

Ruba; yousif!

I grabbed my phone and used the light of it .. yousif was right in front of me ..

Ruba; yuma!
Yousif; shfech khayfa?
Ruba; la2!!

7ad ommy mayta khouf!

Yousif; go over there ..
Ruba; reminder; I can't SEE anything, what makes you think I can see where your hand is pointing at.
Yousif; oh, with time your eyes will adjust to the dark

Seriously!? Shil salfa?!!! BAGHAAITT AMOUUUT!!

Yousif; come I'll take you ..

He grabbed my wrist, to a place that … well .. just mysterious! .. he sat me on a chair .. or a bench, it had no back.

Yousif; ha? Fahamtay wain?
Ruba; no!

He opened the lights with a remote he had. I figured he was looking for THAT a while ago .. the lights weren't much though, shwaya bs .. and I still didn't get it!

Ruba; what is it?
Yousif; it's a studio .. my studio!

I looked around, and then everything made sence ..

Ruba; ohhhh!
Yousif; yes ;p .. would you mind if I take a few pictures?

Why would he wanna take pictures?!

Ruba; what for?
Yousif; so I can frame them *chuckles*
Ruba; ok but why?
Yousif; you have a perfect face..perfect tones..the space between your two eye brows are perfect. your eye lashes ,, are thick and curly ,, your lips ..

I tunred my heard the second he said "lips"!! ..

Yousif; look at me ..

Mabyyyyyyy! I'm scared! .. but I looked at him …

Yousif; are perfect pink, you don't need lipstick..

I wasn't making any eye contact! I was scared to death!

Yousif; and most of all! .. your jaw!! .. I love that jaw!

Next thing I know he held it!!!???!!! WHAT THE HELL?!

Ruba; yousif!!
Yousif; hmm?

He seemed to look at my jaw with discreet scrutiny! ..

Ruba; can we skip this and do to the shooting?

I didn't want to shoot, just anything to keep him away from my jaw ..! .. he went a few steps back.. and held his camera

Ruba; you never told me you were a photographer..
Yousif; I'm not. It's like my side hobby kind of thing ..
Ruba; oh..

He was inserting a film ..

Yousif; yeah my dad got me this studio as a gift for my graduation ..
Ruba; that's nice ..
Yousif; sit up straight, Don't try to pose, I'll talk to you, and I'll shoot your reactions ..

Weird. Very very weird..

Ruba; ok! ..

He started shooting ..

Yousif; how was your day..
Ruba; *Smiles* good
Yousif; you can't say good it didn't even start yet *jokes*
Ruba; *giggles* that's right ..
Yousif; la itkhafeen binraygich after the shooting ..
Ruba; yeah please, my stomach maskeen
Yousif; etnakteen b3d? ;p
Ruba; haha
Yousif; oooh sorry I forgot to tell you, tara the studio hasn't been used in ages, fa when you see rats don't be surprised..
Ruba; *shocked* Whaaattt!??!!
Yousif; hahahaha, that was a joke, I just wanted the scared shocked look ..
Ruba; ywaiisiiiiiiiffff *dala3* khara3tny wallah baghait anii6 *puppy eyes*
Yousif; this is going so well you're making all the right emotions ;p
Ruba; aren't you kind of using me here?
Yousif; well .. yes!
Ruba; haha, aby e6egiik!
Yousif; haha .. go ahead ..
Ruba; hehe *shy* I was just kidding ..

Then we were silent, and all I heard was the shutter .. I played with my nails a bit, stared at the place, shutter, shutter, shutter .. why is he doing this any way!?

Yousif; ruba?
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; do you still love s3ood?

He slapped me again for the third time! I FROZE!

Yousif; hmm?
Ruba; I can't do this ..

I got off the chair, and honestly didn't know where I was headed, I just wanted to leave. But he held my arm, his arms were toned, stong, and manly. Which I couldn't really escape ..

Yousif; sit down, I'll change the question ..

I sat again..

Yousif; *clears throat* do you love me?

I just stared at another black spot. I didn't know what to say ..

Yousif; perfect!
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; I wanted that reaction! .. I know you don't love me..

He looked up at me with a fake smile .. it was very awkward! ..

Yousif; I'll set the timer. And we'll shoot together ok?

I've never done anything like this before. It was very weird yet thrilling.

Ruba; ok

He set the timer, walked up to me and stood behind me .. I was sitting on the chair, he was a few inches on the back.. he weirdly whispered in my ear ..

Yousif; if you rest your head on my chest it will make a great shot ..
Ruba; umm .. I suppose I can do that ..

As I did that, he place both hands on my shoulders .. I just smiled and waited for the shutter! ..

*Chik* <-- 9out el-shutter :p

Yousif; ok, emshay en7amith'hum
Ruba; you only took on photo of us ..
Yousif; you want more?
Ruba; madryy .. you took like a hundered photos of me!?
Yousif; ok

He set the timer again .. and ran to me and told me to stand up, when I did, he kicked the chair on to the ground. And asked me to wrap my arms around his abs, or waist, whatever you wanna call it ;p! and act like I'm crying ..?! well! I didn't really want to do that. But I had no time to think,,so I did was I was told, and he placed his hand on my head and pulled it towards his shoulder .. as if he's trying to "comfort me" .. I thought it was nice but inappropriate. But I liked it. I honestly didn't care! ..

*Chik*

You see after the shooting, the flash stops then it gets really really dark for a few seconds. In those few seconds ,, I stared at his direction, and when the lights were on, he was staring at my direction as well,, We kept staring at each other .. it got awkward ..

Ruba; ayyy the flash e3awiir el3aiin!
Yousif; eeh, maykhalif, it'll go after a few minutes.. emshay en7amith'hum ..
Ruba; okay .. eehh! Which reminds me! why do you use film? Why not memory cards?! Aren't they easier?
Yousif; they are. But film is much better in results, plus I don't like my photos to be in a computer screen. I like them enlarged and framed.

Impressive

Ruba; I see

We got into this red weird looking room .. as he did the business. I was looking at photos that we hanging by a thread. Lemme tell you THEY WERE GOOD! Not good! AMAZING!

Ruba; wow yousif! This is very impressive!
Yousif; haha, I sure appreciate that..

He seemed busy, so I just took another look at the photos .. we stayed there for a while, it got kind of boring..

Yousif; done .. you can see them later ..
Ruba; ok ..
Yousif; come here, let me show you the mini gallery I have ..
Ruba; ok ..

He took me by the hand, and led me to the "mini gallery" .. I saw many beautiful photos, enlarged and framed. But something caught my eyes. Pictures of him,,with girls one girl at each photo!! I nimbled towards the photos!! .. I looked closely, the poses were all showing that he's been with then. Or maybe just acting?! I don't know! .. 4 photos, with 4 different girls ..

Ruba; umm ,, yousif? Who are these?
Yousif; former girlfriends ..
Ruba; why do you keep their pictures hanged?
Yousif; I don't know..they're too good to be in the dumpster ..

I looked at the photos again. I felt malicious. I didn't know why! .. yousif stoon next to me and stared at them as well ..

Yousif; you don't like them?

I stared at him as he was staring at the stupid photos!

Ruba; no

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This is very long, 3ashan ta2akhart 3alaikom;* ,, sorry eh?(A)

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-11

Previously...

Yousif; ok nevermind
Ruba; ……..
Yousif; I'm sorry

I blinked a lot, I didn't want to tear up.

Ruba; i..it's ok .. I better go now

I got up, as I heard yousif ..

Yousif; allah ma3ach

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This was harder than I thought! .. I went and sat with rinad, basma, and yasmeena. They were talking and talking. But I was kind of blanked. Killa sar7aana, killa madryy 3an eldinya!

Rinad; *whispers* entay ta3alay! Taw mesa3a raga3na lich jidam okhooch! But I didn't know why?
Ruba; haaa? ..

At first I really didn't understand what she was saying, but then I remembered the "lujain" cover up story..

Ruba; ohhh!! Yeah I was just checking on my facebook
Rinad; 3ayal laish itrag3een?
Ruba; it was some dude's picture
Rinad; dude? *eyes popped out* SPILL!!

Sharagiiii3!! Shagoouuuull!

Ruba; umm .. s3ood! Yeah! .. s3ood!

Saying his name is the hardest thing. My heart skips a beat every time I do.

Rinad; oh 7ayatyyyy
Ruba; yeah. I removed him
Rinad; zain itsaween wallah
Ruba; yeah ..

S3ood, if you only knew! How hard it is for me to pretend I forgot you, to pretend I hate you. To pretend I don't care! ,, ever since we broke up, I've never said "a7ibik" to any one else. I only say "me too" when yousif says he loves me! And I said "I think I love you too" once! Only once. Plus when I say it in English is different than it is Arabic. galby ma e6awi3ny agoul "a7ibik" 7ag shakh9 ghairik enta! Aakh if you only knew!

LATER;

Yasmeena, 9ali7 and I were watching a movie, the girls were walking the dog. Khalood was meeting "her" I supposed. 9ali7 likes yasmeen. It's so obvious, so I gave them privacy, I know how much I needed it when I was in his shoes ..

Ruba; waii3 filimkom sakheef! Ana barou7 atmasha
9ali7; hahah,,allah ma3ach

Yasmeena was too into the movie to reply .. I actually liked the movie, but I wanted them to .. well .. have a memory they would remember when they're older. And think "I remember I watched a movie with a girl/boy I liked. All alone" that would be nice. I was wearing my light skinny jeans and an over-sized pullover. And nikey shoes. I sat on a porch, and rolled my hair as the wind was blowing it away .. the view of the sea always makes me feel calm and peaceful. The view was amazing. And I don't know why I had to tell yousif of the beauty that's before me .. I called him.

Yousif; ahlaan!
Ruba; hey .. look out your window ..

I heard voices of him getting up, and moving the window covering ..

Yousif; there's a tree blocking!
Ruba; ohh! Damn!

With yousif, I don't care if he thinks I love swearing. I don't care if he thinks I'm impolite. I don't care what he thinks of me!

Yousif; why?
Ruba; the sea looks amazingly incredible!
Yousif; where you at?
Ruba; I don't know, some bench I found and sat on …
Yousif; aha

I just held the phone near my ear. And heard him breathe. We weren't talking. I just liked the view and wanted to share it with someone who would care .. I heard a few doors slap .. but didn't ask! .. after a while ..

Yousif; like this bench?

He was right behind me holding his phone with a wide smile.

Ruba; *gasp* YINNYYY!
Yousif; haha, let's just say, I know how to follow my heart ..

I hit him softly on his shoulder as he sat down ..

Yousif; isn't it a little bit cold out here?
Ruba; I like feeling cold
Yousif; I don't!
Ruba; ok
Yousif; whoa! Hahaha! Chithy yidgiroon?
Ruba; yeah!
Yousif; haha! Are you okay?

No! I'm confused of what I feel towards you

Ruba; yeah ..
Yousif; ………

I was sick of it! The faking, the pet naming, the fake dala3! I don't love yousif, but I respect him as a person, feel sorry for, and feel needy towards, coz he knows exactly what to do to cheer me up! But I don't love him! How is that!?

Ruba; I'm sorry
Yousif; no worries
Ruba; it's just .. I don't know ..
Yousif; can't find the right words?

I just looked at him. With one look he knew I'm lost.

Yousif; it's ok

He pulled me closer to him, and leaned his head on mine. I didn't know why I liked it. I just liked it.

Yousif; ruba?
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; why did you come back to me? since you thought I'm mentally ill and should be ashamed of myself?

He just slapped me again!

Yousif; hmm?
Ruba; madryy yousif. Sometimes .. things don't have to make sence, but that doesn't mean they don't mean anything to us
Yousif; and by "us" you mean "you"?
Ruba; yeah
Yousif; so you're saying I mean something to you?
Ruba; well yeah
Yousif; ishkethir?
Ruba; a lot!
Yousif; ya bakhtyy

The only song that came into my head at that time, was "oops I did it again"! ..

Ruba; hehe

Ok, maybe he does mean something to me, just not "a lot" .. I find myself still in love with s3ood and can't just forget about him. But yousif! Aahhh yousif!! He's Mr.Right! Sood is Pince Charming! …

Yousif; pst! Tara entaay wayid tisri7een *teases*
Ruba; hehe

I leaned my head on his shoulder. I didn't why I did that. I just needed a shoulder to lean on. Logically, and literally. And yousif is a strong man that can handle it. I was resting my eyes, the sound of the sea waves, the gulls, the sound of his breath on my head, made a great combination that take you to another world.

Yousif; *whispers* nimtay?
Ruba; hmm?

I was kind of too hypnotized to realize what he just said .. he chuckled in a low voice ..

Yousif; 7abeebty you can't sleep now.
Ruba; I'm not sleeping, I'm just closing my eyes..

I kept them shut ..

Yousif; it7ibeeny?
Ruba; mhmm

I heard a smile on his face. (it's a figure of speech, coz you can't really "hear" a smile! You get what I mean right?;*) I wanted to stay like this forever. It felt so nice. I felt numb. I wasn't really worried about what would happen tomorrow! I was just settled in the shoulder of a man who cares for me. despite the face that it's one sided. I just felt important once again..

Yousif; how long d..
Ruba; *interrupts* sh sh! I'm enjoying this..

He zipped it. We stayed like that for about 10 minutes ..

Ruba; I haven't felt like this since ..

S3ood! That's why I quickly got up, stood to face yousif..

Ruba; thank you, sorry, I have to go, I don't want khalid to worry
Yousif; … alright …

I walked away! And my heart burnt on yousif! I hate what I'm doing to him! .. I went back to the chalet, I entered my room, and threw myself on my soft bed. I just laid there .. minutes later …

From Moron;
I'm sorry if I did something that bothered you;*

To Moron;
7ayaty it's not you. I'm going through a few things, I just need time to settle down ..

From Moron;
Take all the time you need. But I'll miss you;*

I just wanted to feel guilt-free happiness. I needed to fix myself. I admit I was broken! S3ood broke me! but yousif! Is like band aid! I know I'm using for while, and then I'll eventually throw it away. That's what band aids are for, temporary comfort. And then your skin just attaches and you don't need the band aid! But yousif was a very good band aid. He doesn't deserve throwing him away! .. so I figured I should take some time to think of what I was doing. And yousif approved, he felt something was wrong with me, I appreciate him (:

DAYS LATER;

We only text, rarely even. He gave me space, he gave me time… I've never kept a secret from neither rinad nor basma. This secret creeped inside of me! I wanted to let it out. I held it for too long, I hated having to lie to my friends! .. I told them, they were disappointed a little bit at the beginning, but then they were understanding, like always <3 .. .. I felt better that I don't have to lie any more. But yousif, yousif was also another problem to me. I felt guity, I wanted to tell him, I just didn't know how he would react. I was a bit frightened ..

To Moron;
Meet me eb chili's elba7ar ,, 7pm

From Moron;
I'll be there

Truth be told, I was anxious. Libast dress baij, o it had a golden belt attached to it, 3al rokba, brown cardigan, brown heels, (not a fan of heels, but i think it would look cute with the dress ;p) .. my hair, I put a few pins and I let them do their magic .. I drove my range rover .. when I arrived, I saw yousif sitting there, his elbows were on the table, while he was "e6ig a9ab3a" looking a bit worried. I entered completely ignoring the waiter that was asking me where I want to be seated. And sat on the table yousif was at.

Yousif; ahlan!
Ruba; hehe, hi..
Yousif; so..?
Ruba; so ..

We ordered, the talking was pretty normal. I was waiting for the nerve to spill. But it never seemed to come. every time I see how happy he was to see me. I realize I'm about to cut him.

AFTER WE WERE DONE EATING;

Ruba; kramk allah
Yousif; 3alaich bil 3afya ..
Ruba; walk me to my car?
Yousif; sure ..

As we were leaving ..

Ruba; or maybe just walk?!
Yousif; even better ..

(You see fe mukan 9oub chili's ellyy it's like a bridge, bs it's not :p it's for fishing madryy shnu ;p yeah! They were walking hnaak. Ma7ad kan mawjood (6) Mwahah ;p)

Ruba; umm ..
Yousif; what ;p?
Ruba; yousif?
Yousif; 3youn yousif?

I looked down! Ahh! I'm about to destroy all of this!

Yousif; gouly elly ib kha6rich!
Ruba; umm .. yousif you don't really know the whole story ..

He didn't seem to care much as he lit a cigar..

Yousif; what's the whole story?

He exhaled the smoke on the other direction .. I was looking at him with I don't know? Maybe puppy eyes? Maybe had a worried face? Honetly I didn't know what I looked like, I was just not wanting what's going to happen to happen!

Ruba; my story with s3ood.

His grip tightened on the cigar..

Yousif; what about it?
Ruba; well .. you're gonna hate me for saying this, but I'll say it any way, coz I can't lie any more!

He faced me entirely. And kept holding the cigar..

Ruba; you see ..! I left s3ood, because he didn't trust me, I was planning on going back to him after a while, I wanted him to learn something. But then I found out that he's moved on. He was already with someone else .. and .. then I don't know .. well .. you were my ticket out of this.
Yousif; your ticket out!?

He looked pretty angry, he was clenching his teeth.

Ruba; I know yousif! I'm so sorry! But I felt guilty the whole time! And holding this as a secret burned me alive. At first I didn't know you, I thought you deserve someone treating you with dishonesty ,, but then I got to know you better, which made me feel so bad that I was lying to you ..

Yousif's cigar was burning, he never breathed it in ever since I said "s3ood". It's not only the cigar that was burning ..

Yousif; is that supposed to make me feel any better?!
Ruba; I ..
Yousif; *interrupts* ok!

What?

Ruba; …
Yousif; I get it!

I stayed silent, he seemed angry, o 9ara7a kint khayfa! .. then he just walked away! Dropped his cigar on the floor. And walked away! ..

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Sorry this is a little short, but I'm going through "things" o bil yaalah 3ala ma kitabt this, just for you guys;*

I also think enna hal post has a good length, madry a7is lama e9er VERY LONG e9er boring, tell me what you guys think, 3ashan I make it easy and fun for you;*

Heppy Valentine's Day;*

I just wanted to wish you guys a Happy Valentine's Day..
I hope the person you share it with is worth it ..
I hope the person you prepared a gift to..
Prepared something special for you..
I hope you don't spend it with tears..
I hope it becomes a day that will remain for years..
I hope it's not one sided..
I hope the person you give a gift to..
Gives you sweet tender words in return..
I hope with time you will learn..
That Valentine's Day..is a day like no other..
You won't forgot who brought you gifts
And you won't forget who you gave gifts to..
I wish you the best of luck
I wish this special day doesn't suck
I hope you don't spend the day
watching "that person" share his valentine with your best friend
I hope "that person" realizes that YOU are the person who will be there at the end
I hope "that person" appreciates you in every single way
I hope "that person" is the fist person that tells you..

"HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY"


Love you all;**


P.S. don't kiss anybody ;p save it for your future hubby;* ;p

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-10

Awal shay..

I'm so happy this is my first two-digit part:D!
Happy First-two-digit-post-part blog :D!
Lol, I just want to be happy for any reason ;p
I consider this something worth celebrating for ;p
I couldn't have done it without your motivation;**
Thank you;*

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Days have past. O ana 3ala hal 7ala, I fake that I love yousif, he believes me somehow. I see him whenever he wants us to meet. He really enjoys it. And the only thing i do is listen and give small comments. I never really talked to him about me, or how I feel. Yousif fell for me, he fell deeply. I felt like such an evil person because I was using him to get over s3ood! Yousif was right, if I looked closely,, I would've found a very good person. He's very good with his family. They always come first. He's a very good student. He's a good person, he just handles things the wrong way sometimes, like they way he wanted me. wara6nyy! Ta3abnyy, athanyyy!! .. after a while I got used to yousif, I didn't love him, but I got used to him, I had to listen to his voice daily, and still I haven't told basma nor rinad. One day .. we were on the phone, kint ana minsad7a o I'm about to sleep..my lids were getting heavier by the second

Yousif; 3araftay? .. fa ana ma asta7mil chithyy! Enarfizony, fa git lah yi6la3 barra
Ruba; eeh zain itsawyy feeh!
Yousif; eeh! Wallah! Ebii6 elchabd! Ruba wallah lw itshofeena widdich itshigeen wayha!
Ruba; hahaha ..
Yousif; haha
Ruba; wayyyy I'm so sleepy *yawn*
Yousif; akhaleech itnameen?
Ruba; la la, tell me a story ..
Yousif; umm,, ok! Kan fe wa7idd .. e7ib wa7da enzain?
Ruba; ok
Yousif; bs 7alaw?
Ruba; hahaha, ya 7maaar *dala3*
Yousif; haha, la la, 9ij 9ij ;p khal agoul lich Qi9aa ..
Ruba; yallah..
Yousif; kan fe wa7da 7ilwa esimha warda
Ruba; wai3 ballah hatha esim?
Yousif; osh 7ilw! Ya3jibny! Mu mawthoo3naaa! Sim3aayy!
Ruba; enzain yallah..
Yousif; enzain? Hathy warda, li9bayaan mayteen 3alaiha! Kilhom yaboonha! Bs ehya ma itlageehom wayh, ef balha bs wa7id tabeeh, o ohwa elwa7eed elly ma yabeeha .. o she was dying to be with him .. lain eksarat kha6ra .. chan ekalimhaa bs chithyy .. b3dain 7abhaa .. o youm 7abha .. 9ara7ha .. o gal laha enna e7ibha ... itghayirat 3alaih, 9arat mitkabra, o 9arat ma itlageeh wayh
Ruba; wee
Yousif; eeh, o b3dain she dumped him
Ruba; oh!
Yousif; b3dain elwalad ta7asaf ennah shifaQ 3alaiha
Ruba; eh wallah .. enzain?
Yousif; shnu enzain? Bs khali9at elQi9a ;p .. 7alaw?;p
Ruba; oh. Maskeen
Yousif; yep
Ruba; where did you hear that story?
Yousif; I didn't hear it
Ruba; ha 3ayal?
Yousif; I lived it
Ruba; ohh! 7ayatyyyy

Yes I tell him 7ayatyy and 7abeeby! But I never really mean it

Yousif; …
Ruba; yousif?
Yousif; hmm?
Ruba; mit'thayig?
Yousif; la2 ..
Ruba; embala ..
Yousif; no. I got a better girl now
Ruba; awww
Yousif; haha
Ruba; wayyy! maleeQa hathy tara! Ma tistahliik!

HAAAAAA?!! : ishgilt anaaaaa!!

Yousif; ma 3alaih! .. khala9 akhaleech itnameen?
Ruba; ok ,, *yawn* good night
Yousif; good night 7abeebty .. a7ibich
Ruba; me too

We hung up. And before I went to bed. I thought of what I was doing, I kind of hoped I fall in love with him, because I don't want to break his heart. He's already been through some drama!

NEXT DAY;

Just another regular day at college, got back, ate lunch alone, as usual, nothing new. Until khalid came running down stairs, he took a coulpe of breaths ..

Khalid; ruba!
Ruba; shfeek *shocked*
Khalid; mafeny shay! Ta3abt men eldaray!
Ruba; wayyy khara3tnyy! Shfeek? Ishtaby?
Khalid; emshay elshalaih!
Ruba; wai3 maby!
Khalid; laiish?! Elyoum khamees!

I'm afraid I might run into s3ood. He's mostly always there!

Ruba; madry khalood maly khelg!
Khalid; yallah 3ad! Remember last time? You had lots of fun! With 9aloo7 o your friends..

Well, I did have fun. But the last day was a disaster. Maybe this time will be different.

Ruba; hmm ,, ok
Khalid; yallah, I called 9aloo7, he's packing, yallah lady!
Ruba; tadryy ennik 7mar?
Khalid; yes! Now go pack

Wayyyy :p! .. I called my friends, they said they're coming, I also invited yasmeena, she's adorable;* I was a little anxious for some reason. I packed and put my bag in khalood's car. I was sitting in the passenger seat waiting for him to come. he was on the phone as he came towards the car .. he got in, sat down ..

Khalid; eh ehh .. ma 3alaih .. adryy .. enzain .. mu el7eeenn!!!! Enzain enzain *low voice* a7ibich!
Ruba; ahahhahahaha!
Khalid; osh! *shocked*

He pointed on the phone meaning he's still on the phone with "Her" :p

Ruba; enzain enzain .. tell her I say hi ;p
Khalid; eeh eehh .. mashy .. yallah bye! *ends call* ana a3almiich
Ruba; hahaha!

We picked 9ali7 up. And drove, I sent a text to yousif I'm going to the chalet. He didn't reply! Weirdly! Any way, When we got to the chalet house, it was nearly dusk. We were the first ones to arrive. Khalid and I entered, tunred the lights on, and unpacked. Khalid will stay with 9ali7, and the rest of us upstairs. I ran upstairs to my room. Unpacked ..

*Msg ringtone*

Yaaay! I hope it's from yousif!
































HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!???!!!!!! WHAT DID I JUST HOPE FOR!??? RUBAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!! PLEEEEAAASEEEE!! DON'T LOVE HIIIIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





























I reached my mobile, and yes, it was from yousif..

From Moron;
Ana wi9alt elshalaih, how about you?

To Moron;
Yep, I just finished unpacking

From Moron;
Binshoufich elyoum?

To Moron;
We'll see

Rinad entered my room right at that moment. I threw my phone on the bed quickly.

Rinad; as usual queen rinad brought baskin robbins!
Ruba; allaaah! Ugh! I wanna eat it NOW!
Rinad; laa 7araam let's wait for basoom!
Ruba; oh yeah, ok ok!

Basma came out of no where

Basma; sima3t esmy *death stare*
Rinad + Ruba; Hahahaha
Basma; haha, 9ij shfekom?
Ruba; we were waiting for you and yasmeena to come 3ashan we eat ice cream

Yasmeena was just standing there, makeena a7is'ha she's thinking "these girls are freaks" ..

Basma; yallah emshaw! ..
Ruba; down stairs?
Rinad; yeaah!

We ran downstairs, called the guys, and gathered around in the living room..

Basma; hey! Let's en7i6 il-cd that ana sawaitah!
Rinad; etha ta7aichay 3adil en7i6a enshallah!
ALL; HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
Basma; ya shagooouull!!

I got up, got the cd out of the cd album we had. And tunred it on. I'll Be by Edwin McCain! Ugh! amazing song, so romantic!

Ruba; waayyyyyyy! Baseeeeeee7!
Rinad; la y6ee7 ni9ich bs!
Ruba; enzain!
Khalid; aku fakha?
Ruba; madryy wallah khalood, chayik elthalaja

He opened the fridge, and the expression that filled his face seemed to say that the fridge was empty ..

Khalid; 9aloo7?
9ali7; hala?
Khalid; emsh ma3ay eljam3iya, elthalaja fathya

Yep I was right ,, even if there was food, we'd throw it, coz it's been a long time!

9ali7; ok..

Khalid grabbed his keys,,

Khalid; der balkom ha?
Ruba; don't worry about us;*
Khalid; yallah ma3a elsalama

As soon as khalid and 9ali7 left, basma started jumping!

Basma; yaaaay! Hahahahah

We all looked at her with curiosity to know the reason for her insane happiness!

Rinad; shfeech yal khibla?
Basma; I feel happy!
Rinad; we can see that, why?
Basma; because they left us alone! We're all ALONE!!
Rinad; yeah, and..?
Basma; wai3 isn't anybody feeling this excitement?

We all shook heads :p

Basma; oh *mindaga*

Then we all bursted laughing! ,, I side hugged her. She looks cute o ehya mindagra!

Basma; wallah ruba a7san minkom!

She stuck her tongue out like a 9 year old!

Rinad; hahaha,,two words for you … YAHIL!
Basma; that's one word genius!
Rinad; I know! I wanted you to call me a genius!
Basma; a7ad galich ennich ma it3arfeen itrag3een!
ALL; HAHAHAHA
Rinad; emshaww nitmashaaa
Yasmeen; oh yeah let's! waayy rinad your puppy is so cute!!
Rinad; aww, thanks! Please call me ranood! La it9eeren 3ad wayid rasmiyaaa ;p tara ana maku ayan minnyy ana
Basma; clearly
Rinad; *hits basma*
Yasmeen; I see what you mean ;p
Rinad + basma; Hahahah!

We ran outside, with nikey. We walked a few steps farther..then I suddenly remembered ..

Ruba; *Gasp* the stereo is on!
Basma; 3ady shnu ya3ny?
Ruba; madryy, akhaf 9outa 3aly fashla, I'll trun it off o I'll come back ok?
Rinad; rwaib ma lah da3yy, bil 6agaag
Ruba; 3ady we're not that far
Rinad; ok yallah mu itnameen ;p
Ruba; enzain ;p

I went to the chalet house, like I predicted the stereo was on. And the most amazing song was on! I had to stay and listen, To Make You Feel My Love By Kris Allen (YOU HAVE TO HEAR IT;**) .. I sat on the sofa, and looked around as I was enjoying the amazing song, the lights were low, not out. Low. And for some reason I remembered the note I wrote. I kept it in the freezer I recalled. I opened the freezer and had a look at it. Just the way I left it. I remember how happy I was at that time, I was so close to tears when I read it. When you know what I wrote in the note,,you'll know why! ..

*msg ringtone*

From Moron;
Wainich? I saw your friends and you're not with them?!

Ugh! I turned the stereo off, and wrote a text as I was leaving the chalet house..

To Moron;
I just went back to do something, please yousif don't show your face while I'm with my friends. Aste7yy! Plus basma's cousin ma3ana 9gheera ma abeeha to get the wrong idea

From Moron;
Tamreen amer;*

To Moron;
;*

I walked faster. I reached them ..

Basma; awww! RUBA! MY LOVE! I miss you!
Ruba; me too William shakepeare!
Yasmeen + Rinad; Hahaha
Basma; hatha yizaayyy? *puppy eyes* I don't miss you enzain?

I saw yousif from afar, my eyes landed on his! It moved me, it definitley gave me the chills. for some reason. Tana7t

Basma; hey! Tara ana 6angart!
Ruba; haa..? wha..? eehh! Hahah! 7abeebty hach bosa! Wala itbawzenn;*

And I kissed her on her rosy cheek! O ehya kind of 7aywana itfakhatly khadha! ;p

We walked past him and his friends, he looked at me for about two seconds. He knew I didn't want him to stare at me with my friend. Good thing rinad didn't notice him, she's the only one who knows what he looks like! .. I received a text a few seconds later ..

From Moron;
Ya 7ilwiiiich wallahh;;*

To Moron;
;$

From;
3ishtaw ;p?

To Moron;
Eh lazim aste7yy ;p

From Moron;
Yallah 7abeebty mu ita2ikhirain ha? Mabeech barra ib an9aa9 el-liyaly!

To Moron;
La itkhaf I'm with my brother and my cousin

From Moron;
Your cousin cham 3omrah b3d?

To Moron;
16

From Moron;
Ashwa!

S3OOD SAID THE SAME THING ;'(! .. I'm really confused! There are times when I completely forget him, and other times I just can't get him out of my mind. Did he forget me? does he think of me when I think of him? Wayyy! S3ood I miss you!! ..

LATER THAT NIGHT;

It was bedtime, rinad was texting salim telling him goodnight, while I just lied on my bed, thinking! I was so confused about the way I feel towards both s3ood and yousif. S3ood doesn't want me any more. Or so I concluded, while yousif, truly loves me, and wants me more than anything in the world. He would do whatever to please me. but I don't feel the same way towards him! Ugh! I wanted to kill myself back then!!

NEXT DAY;

Rinad was jumping up and down her bed and screaming! I woke up feeling surprised and overwhelmed ..

Ruba; shfeech?
Rinad; aahhhh rwaaiiibbb!!!! Guess who called me today and said they like salim?
Ruba; madryy! Mnu?
Rinad; my mom!!!
Ruba; oh?

She sat down on my bed

Rinad; my mom is never impressed of the guys that propose! Salim didn't even propose and she likes hiiim!!!!!! She's like "ana youm shiftah gilt hatha abeeh 7ag binty"
Ruba; woow!

That is impressive!

Rinad; ugh!

She lied down!

Rinad; this is going perfectly!
Ruba; lucky your mom likes him

She got back up

Rinad; I know right!? Ambaaihh! Wayyy wayyy this love is taking all of my energy;*
Ruba; aww! Ranoood is in lovveee!*jokes*
Rinad; well! I AM!!!! I love saliiiiiiim!!! Waayyyyy!
Ruba; ahahah,! Enzain ana badiish el7amaam aQassiil ok?
Rinad; eeh eeh. Ana barou7 az3ij basoom o agoul laha ;p
Ruba; yeah ok
Rinad; ruba? *serious tone*
Ruba; hala?
Rinad; do you think he loves me?
Ruba; no
Rinad; oh *disappointed*
Ruba; I think he's crazy about you! He loves you more than himself!! seriously ranood you ask me this question?! salim MAJNOONICH ;p
Rinad; yaaaaaaaaayy *hysterically happy*
Ruba; I'm so happy for you

And I gave her a few kisses. Entered the bathroom as she was screaming all the way to basma's room! Khalid will kill rinad I tell you!

And as usual, they were all gathered down stairs having breakfast. Basma was laughing her guts out, I didn't know why. But I liked the view of that. I smiled all the way down the stairs ..

Khalid; ta3alay ta3alay gi3day ..
Ruba; enshallah ..

Basma kanat gam itgoul salfa it'tha7iik .. I laughed a little. I laugh more often, more than before, when I knew about THE GIRL. Yousif did ease it up for me a bit. My mobile was in my back pocket ,,

*msg ringtone*

From Moron;
Morning ;D

To Moron;
Morning ;D

From Moron;
Ishbitsaween elyoum?

To Moron;
Madryy

From Moron;
Aby ashoufich? Eseer?

To Moron;
I'll see, la 9ar chance I'll text you ok?;*

From Moron;
Ok;*,,fidait elly katib bosa wallah! Ya zeenha minich;**

To Moron;
Hehe;$

Khalid was looking at me, maybe he suspected something ..

Ruba; wayyyyy lujain wouldn't stop texting me! she's always asking about physics! Ya3nyy it's weekend, doesn't she live her life?
Basma; hahahaha ,, who's ..?

Rinad enQizat'ha

Basma; eehh, hathyy maleeQa! I didn't even give her my number killa chithy!
Ruba; way 7athiich *puppy eyes*

Khalid looked somewhat relieved.

9ali7; tara ana yay ma3akom el-shalaih 3ashan a6ib elba7ar
Khalid; eh 7ata ana
Ruba; 6ibaw min masik'kom?
Yasmeen; *whispers into basma's ear* khan rou7 nig3ad 3al ba7ar like last time
Basma; eh yallah,,ranood rwaib, nig3ad 3al ba7ar like last time? O we check out the … (she was about to say guys, but she noticed that khalid and 9ali7 are still here) .. beautiful gulls :D
Ruba; yeah sure

The boys ran out side took their shirts off and dove. They're clearly in love with the sea, I've never seen any one so attached to it, all of us were giggling on the way they ran to the sea .. we got out of the chalet from the sliding door and sat on the sand,,

Ruba; ayeeb juice or something?
Basma; ummm,,tabeen 3a9eeer yasmeena?
Yameen; la I'm fine
Basma; tara yasmeen shway mista7ya minkom ;p
Ruba; haha, way 7ayaty laish we're like a familyy!!
Yasmeen; hehe ;$
Ruba; I'm guessing that's a yes. Barou7 ayeeb juice ..

I didn't find a "drinkable" juice in the fridge! Ya3nyy khalood yab groceries o ma yab juice?! Ugh! I had to buy some juice, from a café mu lazim co-op. I walked all the way to the café! I remembered that place, I remember where s3ood was sitting, I remember the sale's man! He wasn't smiling any more. <\3 .. I bought like a dozen. And as I was paying ,, yousif came out of no where ..

Yousif; t2 t2! May9eer!! Ana ra7 adfa3!
Ruba; *gasp* wayyy enta yinnyyy! *shocked*

He chuckled as he was reaching for his back pocket .. I put my hand on my waist and disagreed

Ruba; yallah 3ad yousif! I will pay
Yousif; la2 ana
Ruba; la2 ana
Yousif; la2 ana!!
Ruba; la2 ana!
Yousif; la2 entaa!
Ruba; la2 enta! *GAAAAAASP* Loook what you made me saaayyy! Ywaisiiiif!!

That was the first time I pet named him, he had the widest smile on his face. I may not have mentioned, bs truth be told, yousif is HANDSOME! He is really handsome! Very masculine, he's a guy I would be attracted to if I weren't in love with s3ood!

Yousif; haha

And he handed the money to the sale's man, the same sale's man. And the same smile came on his face! <\3 .. I had to say goodbye to yousif ..

Ruba; ok, so ana barja3 7ag my friends ..
Yousif; sit for five minutes ..
Ruba; ummm

Five minutes will never hurt any one ..

Ruba; ok

We sat on a table way at the back ..

Yousif; eehh ruba ..?
Ruba; eeh yousif ;p

We just kept staring. I wonder what's going through yousif's head, does he miss the girl he told me about earlier? I felt like he's still damaged somewhat ..

Yousif; shetfakreen feeh?
Ruba; taby el9ij wala achathib? *jokes*
Yousif; el9ij akeed
Ruba; do you still love her?

He knew exactly who I was talking about, he stared at his mug .. I waited for a couple of seconds, he still didn't answer ..

Ruba; …….
Yousif; no
Ruba; oh …

That took a while!!

Yousif; but I miss her every now and then
Ruba; I see
Yousif; why the question?
Ruba; just wondering
Yousif; mhmm ..

Awkward silence .. his face lightened up after a few seconds ..

Yousif; eeh! How's everything?

Finally ta7achaa!

Ruba; it's good, it's good!
Yousif; mhmm,, well since we're talking about the past .. you haven't told me of what happened with you and s3ood

I felt like he just slapped me. when I stop thinking about him for a moment, something reminds me of him!..

Yousif; hmm?

I didn't say a word. I froze.

Yousif; ok nevermind
Ruba; ……..
Yousif; I'm sorry

I blinked a lot, I didn't want to tear up.

Ruba; i..it's ok .. I better go now

I got up, as I heard yousif ..

Yousif; allah ma3ach

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Now this is VERY LONG! 9a7? ;D