I feel like expressing myself;**

Hey guys,,,I just felt like expressing myself and saying the things on my mind.

-Have you seen Emma Watson's new look? I LOVE!!! 9aa7 she looks hot? Hehehe, This is what I think! I seriously love her new hair cut! ,, Short hair is usually unattractive ,, But Emma's hair looks hot!!

-I noticed this thing, when I pospone prayers, or sometime skip them :$! ,, I become really lazy with everything else! Ya3ny for example, the past week I was so lazy with prayer istighfir allah! O I noticed I barely did any revision for school! o bil yaalla 3ala ma sawait my homeworks! I SHOULD CONCENTRATE!!

-I miss J(Always.Be;*);**! Wallah I miss her so much;*! I hope you reply to my emails;*!!

-Mothers have special ways to lift your mood! My mom is amazing!!! When I speak to her it always makes everything better!! Allah y6awiiil 3omirha lyyy o ya7fith'haa enshallah! The same to all of your parents you guys;**

-So I've been sad for the longest time, I finally made peace with everything. Okay I'm not as happy as I was before ... But at least I'm happy again, I finally got the ability to laugh my heart out again! ,, But it is so weird that when I really laugh my heart out I cry! I really really cry!! I don't know why:S! Do any of you guys go through the same thing? I used to have that when I was in KG but then it disappeared! A few months ago it resurfaced. Is there any medical reason for that? It's really weird!!

-You guys I'm sorry I know I haven't been reading your stories or your updates, I barely have the time wallah .. Just know I love you, o enshallah once I get the chance I'll catch up and read! I read a few tawa, o enshallah I'm continue.

Unbelievable-4

Every weekend was another fairytale ,, He would always take us out and make the best out of each and every weekend.

Until one weekend, he was amazingly disappeared! He was nowhere to be found. I asked khalty and Jawa, But neither of them knew where he was. I called him several times, but no answer. I stayed up late waiting for a phone call, But the phone didn't ring any bells…

I finally gave up and put my head on the pillow, My eyes were watering and I was about to cry! .. But I was distracted by an annoying voice of ticking! I tried to ignore it, But it went on continuously, I got up and tried to trace that sound to shut it up.

Hey! Was it coming out of the window? ,,, OH yeah!!

And who was throwing rocks at my window? ,,,, Mohamed!! My prince charming. I thought this kind of thing only happens in movies, But no. It happened with me.

I opened the window and waved at him ,,

Jana; Wainiiik;(?
Mohamed; Asif ya nithar 3ainy ,, Ma gidart ayii
Jana; Well you could have called!
Mohamed; Ma 3alaih jannity, ElWalda it3ibat. O ma gidart!
Jana; *gasp* Salamat'haaa! Shfeeha?
Mohamed; it3ibat, wadait'ha elmistashfa, o lamma ghafat o naamat yet lich!
Jana; La m7amad 7aram, rid laha! Yimkin ti97a o ma itlageek, ra7 itkhaf! La la rid laha!
Mohamed; Afaaa! El7een ana 6aag darb itgouleen ly rid laha!
Jana; Ma 3alaih 7amoody! El-Weekends yayeen!
Mohamed; Enzain nizlay limeeny!
Jana; Heheh, enshallah!
Mohamed; Fidait elmo6ee3a!

I blushed, But he wouldn't notice that from afar ; ) …

I went down in my pajamas,,left from the kitchen door, He was standing there, waiting …

I threw my arms around him, and he had already carried me and circled me! It felt so good. I felt like I was on the top of the world.

Mohamed; Fee shay lazim agoul lich eyah...

"Yuma, his serious tone emkhari3ny! akeed fe shay!"

Jana; Shnu?
Mohamed; ElYim3a e7na emsafreen!

"That's three days from now ;'("

Jana; Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa2!!
Mohamed; Ma 3alaih 7ayaty! Bs 3 weeks!
Jana; 3 weeeeksss!!! Ya3ny 21 days! Ya3ny 504 hrs!

I know that a failure like me shouldn't be smart. But I am. I mean to fail because I wanted my parents to suffer just like I did.

Mohamed; Ra7 adig 3alaich kiil youuum! o ma ra7 akhaleech wala thanyaaa!
Jana; Maby maby 7amood mabyyy!!

I started crying la sho3ooriyan!

Mohamed; Jannityyyy! La tabcheeeeen!
Jana; Ehe22 ehe222
Mohamed; T2!

I looked up at him with my eyes drowned with tears,, He had his head down,

Jana; *sniff* 6alli3ny!

He looked up, and his eyes were filled with tears as well..

Jana; *gaaspp* khalaa9 khala9 mabyy bachyaa!

I quickly wiped my tears, and then wiped his.

Jana; 3ayal bachir o 3ogba o elly 3ogba bag3ad ib bait khalty o enta ta3aal!
Mohamed; Ma yabeelha 7achy! A9lan ana kint baQ9ibich tig3ideen! Lazim ashba3 minnich! ,, a9lan ma yinshibi3 minnich! Bs shasawyy Qa9bin 3anny!
Jana; La mu Qa9bin 3annik! Mu laazim itrou7!!
Mohamed; La jannity, I have to, It's for my mom's treatment!
Jana; Oh! 7abeebty allah yshafeeha enshallah;*!
Mohamed; *Sigh* enshallah!

We said good night, But we talked the whole night through over the phone..

Those three days were magical as well. The first day we went bungie jumping in sha'ab park, of course I scremed my lungs out. The second day we wet jet skiing .. And the third day, we went to the Sheraton hotel for a lovely dinner.

I joined Mohamed and his mother in the airport. Of course khalty and Jawa had to come, 3ashan I don't look like "the girlfiend" ,, I promised Mohamed not to cry. I didn't cry! ,, Only when he left did I start crying silently.

He did call me everyday ,, I realized I loved him more than I thought I did when he was gone.

Was I really in love?

Could a 13 year old be in love?

After a week and a half .. Auntie wanted to travel to the same country ,, They suggested I join them! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? OF COURSE I WANTED TO GO! I just had to tell my parents and hope they agree.

Jana; Yuma?

She was busy reading the newspaper, And dad was watching a black & white movie.

Mother; Hmmm?
Jana; Yuma basafir ma3a khaty, biro7oon el-cheek
Mother; Maku
Jana; Yuma laish?
Mother; La yibtay darajaaat taly itsafreen!

I ran to my room so angry my breath was hot!

Luckily for me, we had a lot of tests that week, I did very very well.

Jana; Yuma shoufay darajaty!

She took my papers from my hand and looked at them..

Mother; 19 out of 20 bil math, 20 out of 20 bil science, 10 out of 10 bil english,,Very good Jana. Laish ma ityebeen chihty min awal?

I smiled, I loved hearing her saying nice things about me..

Jana; Etha khalaiteeny asaafir ma3a khaltyy,,killa bayeeb chithy!
Mother; Ahaaa, el7een fahaamtt!
Jana; Hehehe,
Mother; Khala9 okay, bitro7een! Bs haaa?!! Taw3ideeny ittimeen chithy!
Jana; Enshallah yuma! wa3ad;**!

I kissed her forehead, and quickly went to my room to pack my bags.

I called Jawa as I was packing and told her the good news!

Jawa; Hiyaaaaaaaaa! Wih! Ma baghat khaltyyy! 3ad mu tinsain shay tara bachir safratna!
Jana; Eeh la la many nasya!

My clothes were all summery! Little did I know that Czech was a cold country! I didn't even bother to ask Jawa.

My parents dropped me off at the airport, of course lazim lecture about being careful and not talking to strangers, my mommy almost cried, but she didn't.

You'll get to know about what happened in Czech next post ;)

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I miss all of you guys! Wallah ma ra7 akhalli9 but I miss you so muuuch;**

I miss the old days:(

El7een abchyyy:(

(E7im 3ayartyyy(A):p)

LOVE YOU ;**

Unbelievable-3

Jana; Haman ana
Mohamed; 9IIJJ?
Jana; 6a3 hathaaa:p! Masra3 ma 7abaitik! La la! En6iir 3alay shway;p!
Mohamed; Oh

Ana ishgilt tawa el7imdillah w elshekhir;s

Jana; Hehhe, shaklik ma it7ib elQashmara.
Mohamed; La embala ;p
Jana; Hehehe

We chatted a bit. He talked to me about his school,,bogaa lah shway o yitkharraj. He talked to me about his mom, And when I asked about his father 3a9ab o gaal he doesn't know him and that he doesn't have a father.

Jana; Enzain khala9 la it3a9ib 7abeeby. Ana barou7 anaam shway o e2athin elfayir akhaf yig3ad oboi eshoufny.
Mohamed; Ya 7alaat 7abeeby bilsanich.
Jana; Hehehe! Yallah 3aad tara aste7y!
Mohamed; 7alat'hom elly yisti7oun.
Jana; Waayyy m7amad;$!
Mohamed; Jana agoul lich shay?
Jana; Goul
Mohamed; Ma itshoufeeny bil hada?
Jana; Haa?
Mohamed; Kil youm ana aye lich bil hadda! Ma shifteeny? Motor aswad?
Jana; HATHA ENTAAAAAAAAAAAAA:O?
Mohamed; Eeeh!
Jana; Ay shaaaaaaaayyy!
Mohamed; Wallah el3atheem:p! Ya3ny lw mnu ana shloun ba3arf!

I have noticed this car parked at my school's parking lot, It was always there, and I could tell that someone was in it. Bs l2anha kaanat emghayima fa I couldn't really tell.

I hung up on him. And for the first time I saw Mohamed like that. I actually liked him. I noticed I was smiling almost the whole phone call. Which made my cheeks hurt. I slept smiling that night.

I called Mohamed daily, Once my parents were asleep I'd sneak and call him. I had a pager back then (Ayaam elbiyaajir xD) He sent me the code of prayer every time el-mo2athin e2athir, And he's send me the love code when he wanted to talk to me.

Mohamed; Jana laish ma tiyeen bait khaltyyy:(?
Jana; Ma adryy 7ayaty! Min ziman 3anhom!
Mohamed; Enzain ta3alay! Ya rabby ya3ny walaht 3alaich, o ana saakit agoul el7een itrou7 el7een itrou7 bs shaklich em6awla!
Jana; Khala9 next weekend arou7
Mohamed; Akheeran!
Jana; Hehehe

I packed my bags that weekend and went to my auntie' house. Mohamed was there when I entered, with his mom of course.

They all greeted me, Mohamed's eyes were stuck on me all the time, I liked it.

Khalty; Yallah badlaw 7amadeen bi6ali3naa
Jana; *whispers to Mohamed* 9ij?
Mohamed; Eeh;)! Bs mu 7ag'hom ,, 7aggich entay;*

I guess I was blushing,,

Mohamed; Wayhiich 9aar a7maar fidaitaaaaaaah!
Jana; Ambaih 9iij!
Mohamed; Eeh! ish7alaatah 3alaich!

I got up and left, I couldn't handle it. I told Jawa everything, 6ab3an 3a9ibat enny ma git laha earlier.

Jawa; Mabyy a7acheeech a9lan! El7een ana emthab6atkoommm! Itgomeeeen o itdigeeen 3alaih o ma itgoleen lyyyyyyyyyy?
Jana; Jawoooon I'm soorryyyy wallah I didn't get the chance to tell you! Baitkom killa mashghooul!
Jawa; Hatha mo 3ithir!

I got up and kissed her all over her face.

Jawa; Enzain enzain enzaaiin khala9 saama7tiich!
Jana; YAAY
Jawa; akhyas facial! Wai3 sa3abeelich
Jana; Hehehehehhehehe

We sat on her bed and I told her every little dirty detail. Khalty suddenly entered.

Khalty; Ma baddaltaw:O!
Jawa; Weee! Yuma kaa kaa el7een!
Khalty; Yallah khal9ooona m7amad naa6irna ta7at bil sayara!
Jawa; Okay enshallah yuma thuwaany ma ra7 en6awil!

Khalty left the room.

Jawa; Heheh! Shiftaaay shloun khathatna elsuwalif nisaina inbadiil!
Jana; Eeeh! HEhehe
Jawa; Listen I want you to dress pretty tonight! Shnu yayba?
Jana; Pair of jeans
Jawa; Shnu jeans?!! Maku jeans! I'll give you one of my dresses.
Jana; Waiii3 jawoon tara ma7ib!
Jawa; Bit7ibeen! Daam ennich it7ibeen M7amad bit7ibeen!
Jana; Hey I don't love him yet!!
Jawa; Yeah yeah whatever! ElMuhimm enna you have to dress nice.

She opened her closet and asked me which dress I'd like. I chose a yellow summerish one. It was really nice. She also gave me slippers that went with it and she did my make up and hair.

Khalty; Allah allah! Shal zaaaiin!
Jawa; Eeeh yumaaa! Bint ekhtiich mu ay shay shoufay ish7alaaat'ha!
Khalty; Yum minkom elthintain ma yindara ishwaraakom:p!
Jana; Heheh, khalty wala shay 9adgeeny;$
Khalty; Eeh binshouf;p!

The night was amazing. M7amad wadaana wajhat ba7ar. It was amazing because it was at night, a full-moon night, The reflection of the moon light on the beach took my breath away. Jawoon stalled khalty and Mohamed's mother. Mohamed and I were walking together and talking.

Mohamed; Ishrayich bs bil mokaan?
Jana; Eyaniiiiiiiin!

Mohamed said nothing. He seemed to be drifted away thinking about something else...

Jana; M7amad?
Mohamed; Hmm? Hala?
Jana; Feek shay?
Mohamed; Emmm ,, La2
Jana; La2 feek! Goulyy
Mohamed; Emm ,, Madryy janna ,, sa3aat afakkir ,, Entay it7ibeeny? o akhaaf min el-ejaaba! L2ana allah 3aalim ana eshkithir a7ibich!

He called me Janna.

جنة

Jana; M7amad. Ana ma2ady tara! Bs ana a7is a7ibik!
Mohamed; Shloun ya3ny?
Jana; Ya3ny ma2aadryy,, killa afakkir feek o killa an6ir ommy o oboi enaamoun 3ashan akalmik! o lamma ashouf aflaam ma9riya atkhayilik enta elba6al o ana elba6ala ,, o kil ma athakirik abtesim, hatha killa shnu ya3ny? Ya3nyy a7ibik 9a7?
Mohamed; Allaho a3lam:D

He suddenly cheered up.

Jana; Laish shaag elwayh;p?
Mohamed; Hahaha! 7asbaly bs ana elly chithy; :)
Jana; Hehehe;$
Mohamed; Jana 3ady a6lib minnich 6alab?
Jana; Enta taamir.

(I know enna this is weird or a 13 year old, bs trust me you'd give her more than 13. Life tought her lots of things;*)

Mohamed; 3ady alimich?

I showed my answer in my action, I got closer to him and put one arm around him. He then hugged me and tighened me really hard.

It was the most amazing night of my life..

Unbelievable-2

I dialed, It rang half a tone and he picked it up.

Mohamed; Jana?
Jana; Aloo?

Mohamed; Jana?
Jana; Eeeh Jana. Shfeek enhibalt:p?
Mohamed; Emm,, Uhh,, Shlounichh shounich?
Jana; Zaina.
Mohamed; El7imdillah.

*awkward silence*

Mohamed; Ana mu em9addig ennich daaga!

I hung up on him.

Jawa; HEYY!! Shfeeech? Laish sadaaiteeeeh:?
Jana; Mu em9addig 3ala allah! Shnu hatha mabeeeh!;/
Jawa; Waaii3 janoon! Malaat 3alaich enzain? Li9bay eyaniiin o e7ibiich! 7addich ghabiyaa!
Jana; Ifffff! Tara mu gha9ib akalmaah!
Jawa; Enzain enzain! Bs wallah 7asafa 3al for9a!
Jana; 3ayal haach entay kalmeeeh!
Jawa; 6a3 hathy! Ohwa e7ibich entay ma e7ibnyyy!

I was a bit upset. Ya3ny kaify I decide what to do! Jawa ishtabyy! It's my decision to make.

I spent weeks at my cousins' house. I then decided to go back home. I'll talk about myself, to make your picture clearer.

I'm the only child, I was so pampered, I had everything I had ever wanted. I was the cutest among my family. I had wide eyes, thick eye lashes. Tiny lips that were so luscious. I have light skin tones, As for my hair, It was always cut short, But still cute. I started plucking my eye brows ever since I turned 13. I know it was too soon, I didn't even have to. But I felt like I wanted to. Because I always wanted to look so good. I wanted to grow up. I wanted to look like models, I wanted to look like Daleeda.

My parents were used to my leaving. They wouldn't welcome me back. It was only normal for me to be gone for months. It's like they didn't even care.

I was unpacking and I found the piece of paper that had Mohamed's number. I was sure Jawoon had put it in my bag. Uggghh ;/!!

I heard my parents fighting, I locked my door, Put on my headphones and increased the volume to maximum.

It was 2 am when I turned my stereo off, and just after brushing my teeth and wearing my pj, I had this crazy idea. I wanted to call Mohamed. So I did. I went to the living room, grabbed the phone and went to my room..

It rang a tone and a half

Mohamed; Aloo?
Jana; Heyy
Mohamed; Jana?

Hatha ma yit3allam?;///

Jana; Eeh eeh jana! Tara thiba7tny!
Mohamed; Enzain haddy a39aabiich ;p
Jana; *fake giggle*
Mohamed; Jana?
Jana; Hmm?
Mohamed; Bagoul lich shay bs mu tiz3ileen.
Jana; Goul
Mohamed; Bas ma tiz3ileen!
Jana; Ma az3al! Goul..
Mohamed; a7ibich..

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I know the post is short. Sorry about that. Bs hatha elly gidart 3alaih.

P.S. As for people who are english speakers, I'll try to make a translation after the post is done. How do you like that? Should I?

Tell me what you think and I'll do it;*

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So min awal ma 6ala3 twitter o elnaas it7iin 3alay! "Saway twitter", "Sign up for twitter" I never really liked the idea enna anyone can find me o chithyy!!

SOOOO! I made a twitter account for you guys:D! They don't know about this mwahahah(6)! So I guess you can find me my name is The Truth. o tara 7addyy meeeeeeeeeee7 because this is my first time:p

Lool, o I don't know if this is helpful but I chose "TheTruthThirtee" to be the URL. I hope to find you guys there;**

Madryy laish sawaitaah:p LOOL!

Love you;**

Unbelievable-1

This story is non-fiction. It happened to a very dear person to me, When she told me all of this I was so amazed that I told her I want to write her story in my blog. So she said it's okay, I will make somethings up just to make it more creative ;p I will be in one of the scenes which will be fun I guess ;p

It will be written from the first-person point of view,,

P.S sorry for not replying to your comments, I've been really busy;**

Here goes;**

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When I got F's D's ,, My parents would be so mad and they would scream at me until they lost their voices. I hated being in such situations, so my best escape was my cousin.

So the day I get my report cards were always the same, I get yelled at, I pack my bags, And off I go to my auntie's house.

My name is Jana this thing started when I was only 13 years old. My cousin Jawa is just about my age. She was my best friend, We did everything together.

When I went for sleep overs at Jawa's ,, They mostly always had gatherings ,, Among them was my auntie's dear friend. She had a son that she kept dragging with her. His name was Muhamed. We speak sometimes and play together. But everything started to change when Jawa spoke to me about him.

Jawa; Agoul janoon! Ma laa7athtay M7amad killa ekhiiziiichhh?
Jana; Hahahah! Shakuuuu:p!
Jawa; Wallah el3atheeem! A9lan tadreen ohwa killa edig 3alaina egoul Jana mawjooda 3indikom? O lamma engoul lah eeh yig3aad e7iin e7iin 3ala ommah 3ashan ityeebah hnyy!
Jana; Nice prank jawoon;)
Jawa; Wallah I'm seriooouuuss! O etha mu em9adgatnyy rou7ayy si2lay ommy!

I kept silent. Was it true?

Jawa; Hey la itfakreen wayiid! Li9baay e7ibiich!
Jana; Enzain o shasawee lah ya3ny?
Jawa; Agoul lich e7ibich! E7ibich 9iij mu kharabee6!
Jana; Laa wallah?! O how can you tell?
Jawa; killa ekhiziich o killa esouliflyy 3anniich! O killa ewadeech elbaqaala o ma ywadeena!

That part is true. I was the only one allowed to enter his car. Car eh? Means he's too old for me! I was 13 and he was 16 going on 17! His mama let him drive because he was the only child and his father was in jail. Yes. I said jail! What for? Yeah, He used to sell alcohol and drugs!! But none of that really mattered to me! I was 13 what do you expect!?

I kept thinking about it during dinner. Every time I looked at him I found him staring at me. Could this really be? Could he really be in love with me? Truly!??

I gave him a soft smile. I liked that idea.

Li9bay tishagag! Ma 9adag enny ebtisamt lah! He suddenly threw his hands up.

Mohamed; SHIBAA3T!
Om Mohamed; Wee ghobra! Shouf 9a7niik fathyyyy:O!
Mohamed; Yuma wallah shibaa3tt!

I giggled behind my teeth.

Mohamed; Jawoon ta3alay shway bakalmich!

Jawa looked at me, grabbed my hand underneath the table, squeezed it a bit and left.

Om Mohamed; Wildy estakhaf el7imdillah wil shekir!

All of us giggled.

When we were done with dinner. I was having my fruit salad and watching my favorite show. Jawa suddenly came in.

Jawa; ta3lay darryy yal 7aywaana!
Jana; What? Shfeech?
Jawa; ta3alay ta3alay el7een agoul lich!

I ran to her room, she pulled me in and locked the door. She rested her back against the door, took a deep breath, then had the largest grin ever!

Jana; shfeeeech?
Jawa; M7AMAAAAAAD!
Jana; Shfeeeh?
Jawa; 3a6anyyy raQamhom o gaal lyyy a36eech eyaah! He wants to talk to you TONIGHT!!!
Jana; Heheheheh! Ambaih 7ilfayyy:p!?
Jawa; Wallah el3atheem shfeech killa 7asbalich achathib! 7atta ka raQmah!

She took out a piece of paper out of her back pocket.

You see I was the type that didn't mind talking to boys. I was in a mixed school and I talked to boys before Mohamed. Not like it was my first time or anything.

Jawa arranged the whole thing. She waited until her parents were asleep and then we'd go to the living room and call Mohamed.

(They didn't have mobiles at that time, they were too young for that. We're talking about 1993 or something like that)

Jawa; *whispering* Yallah yallah diggay! Khasmsa khamsaa ..

I dialed, It rang half a tone and he picked it up.

Mohamed; Jana?
Jana; Aloo?

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Cliffhanger(A)! Mwahhahaha(6)! What will happen ya rabyyyyyyyyyyyy:p??

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-36 (FINALE)

Hey guys!
Suuupp? I miss you guys a lot;**

So I was thinking lately, o I decided to make a private blog about me. I seriously need a lot of help o I'd really like to share my story with you guys. The reason it's going to be private is because I'm afraid someone I know personally will read this. And to tell you the truth I've never told anyone about this. So please hush ;p Heheh! A7ibkoooom wayyyiiiid okaayy? Emwaafqeeen? .. coool;**! So please write your emails if you want to be added to the new blog coming up enshallah! I'll try to post as much as possible enshallah.

J: 7ayaty I'll add you 3ashan if you want to read you just log in o tigrain okay? love yo;*

And here goes the finale..






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So I told him most of what happened.

S3ood; *angry tone* Yal 7aywaaaan ya yousiif wallaaah la awareeek!
Ruba; S3ood 7aya...E7im,, S3ood please chill! Khala9 I told him what I think o shaklah he's gonna give it up!
S3ood; Laa2! Ana awareeehhh!
Ruba; s3ood there's no nee..

He hung up!!

I kept running in circles wondering what might happen, or what might be happening at that moment! Rinad tried to calm me down but there was no use. I called both S3ood and Yousif. None of them answered me! I was so sure that something was going on!

I suddenly heard a man screaming my name!

"Rubaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"

Ruba; *gasp* bismillah!
Rinad; You stay here! Don't move an inch! Ana barou7 ashouf!
Ruba; Ranood please goulilyyyy!
Rinad; ra7 agoul lich 7abeeebtyy khally mobilich yammich!
Ruba; Sure!

She went downstairs as I tried to calm myself down. I sat on the bed but I was shaking like hell! I heard a couple of screams but I couldn't make up the words!,, I was so anxious so I went downstairs just to know! I looked out the sliding door, and there they were.

Rinad was standing there unaware of what she should do.
S3ood clingling to Yousif's collar.

I had to step up!

Ruba; Heyy heyy! ish9aaayiir?
S3ood; Ruba stay out of this! Malich sheghil!
Ruba; Excuse me?
Yousif; S3ood here thinks I touched you!
S3ood; I don't think! I know!
Youif; You know I wouldn't do that!

Hold it. Yousif showed his other face.
The face I thought existed but hoped that it didn't.
His first face I knew.

Ruba; Yousif what are you saying?
Yousif; No miss Ruba! What are you saying?

I got confused. I really didn't know what to say! I couldn't believe my eyes! I just walked off! S3ood ran after me and held my shoulder to face him!

S3ood; Ruba khala9. Let's not suffer. Let's put it out there. I still love you, and I still love you. The past few months were the worst months of my life! ,, I held this so long. But I just want to ask you. And whatever your answer might be. I'll accept it. I just never want to think in the future "what if..?" or "why didn't I..?" I never want to feel regret ever again. So ,, Ruba ,, Don't you want us to go back to where we were mithly ana? Wala bs ana elly lal7een a7ibiich o abeech?

I kept silent. I looked deeply into his eyes. Never did I find eyes that are as honest as his. 3younyy ghourigat! ,, Not because I was sad or confused. I was happy. No scratch that! I was over the moon happy! A smile slowly creeped to my face, It got wider and wider until my teeth showed.

S3ood; YES YES YES!!!

He put both his hands on his face and was thanking god over and over again!

He went over to Yousif,,

S3ood; I'm ashamed to say you were once a friend of mine. And I'm ashamed to say I doubted Ruba to have something with you. Go home Yousif. 3asa elgidar ma yijma3na.
Yousif; I'm not sorry.
S3ood; I don't want your apologie. Just leave.

Yousif looked so angry, But he decided I wasn't worth the fight. Coz he knows very well I'm never giving him what he wants. So he simply walked away and drove off.

S3ood came by again to walk with me,

S3ood; So?

I reached for his hand. It's been so long!! It felt so good. He tightened his grip like he always did, he held it to his chest then kissed it.

Ruba; I missed you so much! You won't believe it.
S3ood; Ana I missed you akthar 9adgeenyy! Kil youm kil youm ad3yyy allah yridiich lyy o ewa3eech min yousif elwa6yy!
Ruba; S3ood 3ady you promise me something?
S3ood; Anything.
Ruba; Promise me, that we'll pretend that Yousif never came to our lives. And that he never existed. And that you'll trust me and never doubt my love for you.
S3ood; I promise.





















































4 Years later:


I had just finished my hair-do. Rinad picked me up from the salon.

Rinad; OMG you loooook stunniiiiinnnggg!!
Ruba; OMG I need thaaaat 7addyyy!
Rinad; OMG 3allagnaa 3ala OMG;p
Ruba; *laughs her heart out* ,, ambaih ranood! I'm so so nervous!
Rinad; 7abeebtyy don't be! Remember my wedding? I was as nervous as you are, But it turned out just fine!
Ruba; Yeah, You were so adorable! Remember the tissues under your armpits? xD
Rinad; Waaah xD! Okay let's not mention that:p
Ruba; Heheheh!
Rinad; Oooh we're here. And so is my friend!

You see Rinad's friend is an expert on light make-up. It's light, Not like those "I know you know I painted my face with make up" kind of make up. And not like "I put light make up because this isn't a big occasion" Helloooooo? It is a HUUUGE occasion it's my weddinngg! So she has the kind of make up that is in between. I went to my hotel room, we booked like 4 rooms at Marrioutt, But there was only one for me and S3ood. We got the best suite! Any way I wore my tshirt and pants. Salwa (Rinad's friend) worked her magic on my face, I looked in the mirror and I looked beautiful! I then took off my clothes and put on the wedding dress I got from Italy. And I put on the shoe S3oodyy got me when he came back from the US finishing his masters. Those years were really tough on me. But gladly he proposed the minute he came back to Kuwait! ,, Rinad was there with me the whole time, since you know,,,I don't have a mom nor a sister by my side. She lit bokhoor for me and walked me downstairs. I went into the ballroom, Everybody was cheering and yibibiing:p

I sat on the kousha, people came to kiss me and have photos with me. All that time I was smiling and simply waiting for S3ood to come by. For I know that would be the best part of the wedding. I didn't care for anything else.

He came by after words. My eyes were on him the whole time during the zaffa. He came along with all the guys. My dad and brother were there and they looked very very happy for me. Father realized that he doesn't need a wife to make him happy. He decided that Khalid and I are the only people who can make him happy under all circumstances! Khalid got married to the girls he loved. 6ab3an after a long struggle 3ala ma aqna3tah enny em6awlah! Ma ritha ella laiman dara enna elly abeeh yadris barra o bageelah wayid 3ala eltakharoj! His wife is amazing and we're like best friends!

S3ood came over, kissed my forehead, held my jaw and looked deeply into my eyes.

S3ood; A7IBICH!

Nazzalt rassyy, I was sooo shy!

Ruba; Wana akthar!
S3ood; Wallah ana akthar!
Ruba; Hehehe..

He sat down, And then you know what happens ;p I don't want to bore you with all the dancing and all the blah blah blah ;p!

MOST IMPORTANTLY! I married the man I love.

And yes, we did live happily ever after with 3 beautiful children. I wished for mom and Dana to be there with me through all my happy moments. But I'm sure they were in a place that is much better!

Yousif's name never crossed our tongue's ever since that day. And it will stay that way forever. Everyday my love for S3ood grows, And everyday I realize how stupid I was to let him go. Everyday he thanks me for being me. Everyday he prays he dies before me;*




THE END.

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I'm so sorryyyy :(!

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I spent most of my time thinking about him. I simply couldn't understand why we were apart. Uggghh! What the hell was I thinking? I wanted to end this remorseful thoughts so I called Yousif.

Yousif; Hala bil zain!
Ruba; Hala feek, Listen are you busy?
Yousif; Afthaalich
Ruba; I feel … out of place … I don't know,,I feel a lot of things, can you pick me up? Let's go somewhere!
Yousif; Sure, 10 minutes.
Ruba; I'll get ready

I wore my white tank with a grey sweater, black pants, and my nikey sneakers. I was sure we're just gonna cruise around. I had to come up with an excuse to leave, so I told them a friend of mine is picking me up because she doesn't like our chalet. 7abil elchithb eg9eer, but what else could I possibly do?

To Moron;
E9fi6 b3eed cause my cousin is here.

From Moron;
Sure;)

He called me saying he has arrived; I walked to his car and got in.

Yousif; Ugh I've missed you!
Ruba; yeah ,,, I missed you too..
Yousif; So where do you wanna go?
Ruba; I don't know ,, anywhere
Yousif; I know an amazing sea view, ishrayich?
Ruba; Okay

He drove really far, resorts, camps, and all the people slowly disappeared. We were at some place barely recognizable.

Ruba; Oh it's empty ;p
Yousif; Yeah baby, it's just you and me in this world

I gave a soft smile. I suddenly noticed his key chains,, It was the one I bought him, and the one I bought her!! Whyyy was her key chain there???

80% decreasing …..75%....70%

I didn't have the courage to ask,

Yousif; We're here.

He got some sort of blanket for us, and we sat near the soil. He laid back on his elbows, while I laid on my hands straightened up. The sound of the waves took me far away.

Yousif; 7ayaty?
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; look at me
Ruba; yeah?

I looked at him, and this time he looked different. He looked to serious.

Ruba; shfeek?
Yousif; how long have we been together?
Ruba; I honestly don't know
Yousif; How could you not know?
Ruba; I don't know
Yousif; You didn't count?
Ruba; No
Yousif; Why not?
Ruba; I don't know!!

I was in a position where I didn't know how to act after seeing Basma's key chain, and I didn't know how I felt about it.

Yousif; what's wrong roro?
Ruba; I don't know

3youny ghourigat o ma gidart atkallam. He put one arm around me. I needed that. But maybe not from him.

Ruba; Yousif do you really love me?
Yousif; Of course 7ayatyyyy :! Why such a question?
Ruba; I don't know! You really do?
Yousif; Amoooooooooouut feech a9lan!

I suddenly forgot about Basma's key chain.

Ruba; so do I!
Yousif; And ,,, to prove my love. I'll give you a great wonderful kiss you'll never forget;p!
Ruba; *blushing* thanks for the offer, But I'll pass ;p
Yousif; Come on! My lips are irresistable;p

*Awkwarddddd*

I gave him my cheek, he held my jaw and turned my face to face his.

Yousif; *serious tone* You know that's not what I want!
Ruba; Well you know what I DON'T want ;p
Yousif; Hahaha. Fine. I'll take your offer.

He kissed my cheek, a kiss after another, then he started kissing me weird kisses. His hands were running all over me. He moved his hand underneath my sweater.

Ruba; Yousif
Yousif; Emm?

He moved to my neck, It started to hurt and I felt this wasn't right!

Ruba; Yousiif!
Yousif; Emmmmm?

He took his hands off, but put them underneath my blouse!

Ruba; YOUSIIFFF!!!

I got up! I couldn't believe what just happened!

Yousif; Okay okay fine it's too soon!
Ruba; It's not!! It never has a right time!!
Yousif; ya3nyy never?
Ruba; What do you expect? Am I that kind of girl?
Yousif; Well it's hard to tell *chuckles*
Ruba; Whaaattt? Take me back! Ridnyyy! El7eeen el7een!

I got in the car and couldn't believe how low he could be! It took about 10 minutes for him to hop in!

Yousif; I ..
Ruba; *interrupts* Not a word!

He gave out a strong exhale; he was pretty angry. He sped to 260!

We arrived, I got out and looked at him. He opened the window..

Ruba; If this what you want from me then we're over!

He nodded and drove off.

I went to our chalet and cried my heart out on Rinad's chest. I told her everything after I cooled down. She was in shock and raged.

Rinad; You are nowhere to be near that bastard!!! You hear?
Ruba; Yeah! Min 9ijiiich entayyy?

...

Ruba; should I tell s3ood?
Rinad; Don't give him details! bs tell him 3ashan e3ariiif mistawaaa yousif!
Ruba; I'll call him!

I dialed his number.

S3ood; *shocked tone* Aloo?
Ruba; Hi *tears*

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I move slowly towards the table, I sat down as he was finishing his club sandwich.

S3ood; 3aash min shaafich,,
Ruba; 3aashat ayamik

*awkward silence*

S3ood; so have you decided?
Ruba; Decided what?
S3ood; Enna shnu raa7 itsawoon?
Ruba; Emmm,,I don't know s3o..I don't know. I'm in a position where I don't know who to trust, And I don't know what to do..I'm sorry if this seems like I don't trust you ,, bs I seriously don't know what to think..
S3ood; Hmmm ,, Well ,, I can do you one favor if you like,,
Ruba; which is?
S3ood; ayeeb lich 9warich min Yousif.

To think of it, It wasn't such a bad idea! Why not? Ya3ny ohwa mu mitsifeed minhom 3ashan ma ya36eeny eyaahom. So I thought it was a good idea.

Ruba; Okay, bs how?
S3ood; Ma 3alaich,,Entay goulay eeh o elbajy 3alay ana.
Ruba; Okay, that would be nice thanks.

He gave me one of his cute-innocent-angel-smiles! Aaakkkhhh they still affected me. I turned my head in order not to fall for him once again.

I was lost in my own world of thinking until my phone buzzed underneath me. I kept my mobile in my backpocket so I got up and looked at the called ID.

Incoming Call
Moron

I was shocked. I didn't know if it was happy-shocked, or disappointed-shocked.

Ruba; Excuse me.

S3ood simply nodded with displeasure, like he knew it was Yousif.

Ruba; Aloo
Yousif; Ahlaaaaaaaan!
Ruba; Heey ..
Yousif; entay wainich?
Ruba; huh?
Yousif; your mobile is always switched off.
Ruba; shaku;s! Enta elly your mobile was switched off! I kept calling you bs kaan emsakkar.
Yousif; Wth? Tara el-service bil shalaih mu shaay!
Ruba; You're bil shalaih?
Yousif; Eeh 7abeebty bil resort elly yamkom
Ruba; ahaaa..
Yousif; Yimkin ayii elyoum
Ruba; Yimkiinn?
Yousif; yeah 7abeebty elrabii3 bisawoon samra fa ma2adryy ..
Ruba; Ahaa..

I looked back through the cafe windows. I saw s3ood getting up and about to leave.

Ruba; Yousif I'll call you later enshallah, buh-bye

I hung up and rushed to the cafe.

Ruba; You're going?
S3ood; eeh 7abee.. Eeeh I have to be somewhere..

I had a tiny frown, I didn't want him to leave x3

S3ood; If you're worried about the photos don't. I'll get them o ra7 a36eech eyaahom beedich!

If he only knew....

Ruba; okay
S3ood; smile okay?
Ruba; okay

Akh!!

He went his own way, I kept my eye on him until he turned to look at me..He had a "such a waste" smile. Right then I knew ,, that he was truly sad for me.

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7abaybyyyy I know you want to kill meee(A)!... Ma 3alaiih ma 3alaaiih sam7oonyy wallah a7ibkooom;** I've been so busyyyyy! Ka now enshallah I'll reply to all of your comments..o enshallah I try posting more often;***

Love ya;**

Contact me on: Gracias-baby@hotmail

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I recieved a msg a few minutes later. It was from S3ood. Saying:

"I'll be there"

I wondered about Yousif. Why was his mobile still swithced off?

Ruba; *yelling* Mnu bil shalaaiih?
Rinad; Anaaaaa ;D
9ali7; Me 6ooooooooooo

What about Jasim? Oh yeah. He's probably out with 7awoor having fun ;p

Ruba; Ranood can I talk to you for a minute?
Rinad; Sure.
Ruba; Emshay eldar.
Rinad; Aaaah! Shay sirryy haaa :p?
Ruba; Hehehe. Eeeh ;p
Rinad; a3arf suwalfiich ;p

We got upstairs and went to our room. Rinad closed the door as I sat on the chairs at the balcony..

Rinad; Speak up

So I told her everything.

Rinad; *gasp* does that mean...?
Ruba; I don't know..
Rinad; Well who are you gonna trust? Yousif? Or S3ood!!?

What a tough question that was. I honestly couldn't decide. I've know and loved s3ood for more than a year. I truly loved him. But Yousif I had so many doubts. And the way we knew each other wasn't very pretty. But I did love him and I did trust him. But who's lying and who's telling the truth? (I hate it when I'm in that position =) Don't you all?;*)

Rinad; ha?
Ruba; I don't know ranood! I meann.. I trust both of them. As much as s3ood's words made sence, I want it to be a lie. I don't know...
Rinad; hmmm
Ruba; I'm also kind of nervous to see him tonight.
Rinad; You shouldn't be! He's the one who should be nervous because he's not sure of what you're going to do.
Ruba; Hmmmm ...
Rinad; Ok, here's the deal.

Rinad got up and got a notebook and a pen.

Rinad; Put likes and dislikes about both S3ood and Yousif. o when you're done, kitbay ishkethir you trust them %

Having to remember my likes about S3ood was really easy. But remembering the dislikes was the hardest. Not to mention the pain I felt while I wrote the things I like about him.

(ishraykooooom awareekom el-list:p? Interested? .... do I hear a "yes"? YES!! ,, Yaaay baktib(A)..Hehe;*)

S3ood;-

Likes:
1-Sweet
2-Funny
3-Sensitive
4-Loved me like hell
5-My fisrt love
6-He woke me up for uni everyday
7-So romantic
8-Jealousy
9-Not afraid of tears
10-Smart
11-His family always comes first
12-Likes to travel (one of my favorite things:p)
13-Thought of me seriously
14-Buys me things when I'm sad
15-We share same hobbies.
16-....

And the list of likes went on and on and on ... But when it came to the dislikes,,I only found o n e.

Dislikes:
1-Doesn't trust me

And as for Yousif...

Yousif;-

Likes:
1-Boyish
2-Hot
3-Attractive
4-He's always then when needed
5-He has a lot of interesting hobbies
6-He took me to places I've never been before
7-....

I couldn't think of any anymore..

Dislikes:
1-Knew a lot of girls
2-Never told me about Basma from the beginning
3-His mobile is switched off
4-He took me from S3ood
5-He smokes like a maniac
6-...

It went on 'til 17 points..I gave S3ood 90% Trust. And Yousif 80% ...

Rinad was pretty shocked from my paper, And I don't blame her, because I mainly complain about s3ood after the breakup and say nice things about Yousif. Maybe deep down ,, It wasn't pure.

Rinad; You have serious issues I tell ya ;p
Ruba; I know:(! Enzaiin ranood please tell me shasawyyyy :(
Rinad; Just go rou7ay shofeeh like you said you would, O see what he's going to sayyy ..
Ruba; You think so?
Rinad; I know so!
Ruba; Hmm ..
Rinad; Dress good:!
Ruba; of course I will ;O
Rinad; Ahaaaaa *wink wink*
Ruba; Hehehe, chubay chubay :p
Rinad; Yallah ana banaggyyyyy el-outfit =D
Ruba; K, sure..

She went through my/our closet as I 9afi7ing bil majala ;p (Tara most of my story bil english may9eer chithyy ana ma arthaa:p My mother language laziiiiim a36eeha 7ag'ha:p!..)

Chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan :p (<--xD) Ekhtaarat lyy a cute pink top and some old tiny jeans that fit me just right. Ruba; mu chinna too tight?
Rinad; No ma'am, It'th thekthyyyy and I like it on you! it'th tho thekthyy truth meee my betht friend
Ruba; Heheheh!

I love the way Rinad always manages to make me giggle in hard times. Scratch that. Timth;p

So I wore what she picked up for me, She also applied some eyeliner, mascara, cute cherry lipbalm, and shwayaaaat blush;p

Rinad; Now the secret..
Ruba; What secret?
Rinad; THE PERFUME IS THE SECRET!
Ruba; Hehehe! Ranooodd xD
Rinad; Wallah seriously! Shimmay hathyy ma itdawiiikh!

I smelt the scent and it was pretty amazing, It was her perfume so she let me add a touch from her;*

I looked at my wriset watch and it was 12. It was time for me to go.. I kissed Rinad by the door, and walked the whole way to the cafe, And there he was...

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His words kept repeating in my head. I didn't know if I wanted it to make sense or not..

"Entay 7asbalich Yousif e7ibich 9iij? Tadreen enna he has done this with millions of girls? ... Lemme guess .. khathach elyakht. O wadaach Cotton Candy Land. o wadaach his studio. Oh! And he told you that you're the only one he cared about because he framed the shot where he was looking at you. And he used film just to make you believe that your photos are safe."

His words made me wonder. How would S3ood know all of this? Shloun kan ra7 yadryy?!

My ringing tone always found away to distract my thinking. I looked at the called ID. There was none. But I knew the number very well. It was a number I could never forgot. It was tattood on my heart. S3ood.

Ruba; What do you want?
S3ood; Where are you?
Ruba; What do you want from me?
S3ood; Agoulich where are you?
Ruba; Why do you care? Rou7 7ag 7abeeebtiik elly mayta feek khal tinfe3ik!

Maybe I got a little off-track.

S3ood; Mnu?
Ruba; 7abeebtik!
S3ood; Ay 7abeeba?

I couldn't remember her name. But I remember the girl very well.

Ruba; hatheech! Elly tamshyy ma3aha 3al ba7ar!
S3ood; OHH!

I WANTED TO HIT HIM!

Ruba; ifff
S3ood; el3ilmich elkhaa9..Hathy mu 7abeebtyy!
Ruba; Well I don't care! What do you want?
S3ood; Goulilyy wainich!?
Ruba; malik sheghil feeny s3ood. khala9 elly baina entaha. laish tiyii faj2a o you expect me to believe every word you say?
S3ood; Chik! Offaaiihh 3alaich OFFAAIIH! El7een ana khayif 3alaich o a7ateeech o tig3ideen itsam3eeny kalaam yijraa777?!! Rubaa! Ana lal7een a7ibiich!! Enti tifhimeen? Hathyy elly itgoleen 3anhaa she's my lab partner o ettifaqt ma3aha enna etbi6 chabdich 3ashan itrideelyy!!

I froze. I didn't know what to say. I hung up. I drove even faster. HIS WORDS. Aaakhh. They were replaying in my head. I wanted to go back. I wanted to be surrounded with support. I needed my friends around me. Bil ghala6 I took the wrong U-turn. A car crashed mine from behind. I got out and screamed at the stupid driver. Sayartyy ta3awaraat. And because of all the stress and all the confusion ,, I didn't realize that I broke a finger. I felt the pain but I didn't mind it. So any way I drove back and cried on Rinad's chest. Then went to the hospital and had them examine my finger.

When I got back to the chalet that night. I texted S3ood. Saying:
"If what you said was true..Meet me at the cafe @ 12pm tonight"

New story coming up;**

Hey guys!
I know enna I'm a bad blogger o ma apaawiist ella from time to time. o adry enna my posts are short (A)! And just to let you know..The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat is ending. o ana 7addy mista3yila 3ala this new story that's coming up. Fa ra7 akhalli9 The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat chii ay kalam ;$! 3ashan abdy bil new one.

The new story is a story of a close dear person to me. Fa it's non-fiction! 7ADHAA 3AJEEBAA! Trust you won't regret reading it. 7adha khayaaliya! Enshallah I'll try to post today aw tomorrow part 32. o it'll probably end like 35 or something close to that.

The new story will be titled "Adry ti7ibnyy" Enshallah. o if you have any ideas for the title help me out;**

Mwaaaaahh I love you all o 7addyy I miss each and everyone of you;*****

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Ya ba3dyyyyy kilkoomm! I miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooo muuchhhh;**! Guys wallah I'm so sorry min ziman mu empawsta. I haven't had the time to write. So sorry 7abaaybyyyy entaayyy;**! I'll try writing b3d zyaada li3younkooom;***

Guys yousif o s3ood kind of have the same color. So I'm going to change s3ood's color 3ashan e9eer difference;*

ooo ooo there's something else I would like to share (A)! .. Aby as2al what's your favorite show this rmithaan? Personally...I LOVE LOVE Sahir ellail! Akhaaaiiiihhh! 7addaaa eyaniiin o 3ajeeb! I loved seeing the old kuwait. Love it. What about you guys(A)?
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I woke up having a headache. I tried to get up but my head was way too heavy. I couldn't understand anything. I was in a different place. I laid down for a few minutes then had the strength to get up. I was in the living room. It was about dawn. I couldn't help but remember S3ood. And just when I did,,I remembered the weird dream I had last night. I dreamt of him. He held me in his arms and he was taking me somewhere. Somewhere safe. I sat up straight and fixed my hair. I found a little note on the coffee table. It read:

"Meet me in the café when you wake up. Tharoory.
Yours forever"

I figured it was yousify. I got up, washed up, dressed up, and got out. I wasn't dressed up girly. I was wearing my tight jeans, tank top, and a blue shirt on it. I kept the whole thing open. I also wore my Nikey sneakers. I had my hair in a ponytail.

So anyway,,I walked to the café. I walked in only to find the staff setting it. There was only one customer. He was perfectly staring out the window. His face was printed in my memory. I couldn't forget one feature. It was S3ood. The only person I didn't want to see, And would be lucky if I did.

I walked out, I didn't want to be alone with him in there. I waited a few moments outside. Then decided to call Yousify. His mobile was switched off! SWITCHED OFF!? I figured I should wait a lil.

The best voice in this whole wide world; Laish wagfa barra?

I turned around, and he stood perfectly near the door.

Ruba; I'm waiting for someone.

I tried not to look at him. But I just had to.

S3ood; Waiting for the one who left you the note?
Ruba; Uhh ,, Eeeh!?
S3ood; I left the note Ruba.

Akhaaiih esmy 3ala elsaanaah!

Ruba; Huh? Shaku?
S3ood; I'll explain everything. Bs mayseer enta7acha hnyy barra. Dishay dakhil entanaaqash.

What about Yousify? His mobile was switched off how was I supposed to tell him?

Ruba; ok..

How could I ever say no to him ;/

We sat. There was an awkward silence at first. He kept staring at me, And I kept staring at the floor.

Ruba; Ummm,,So?
S3ood; Where were you last night?
Ruba; Bil shalaih ma3a my friends.
S3ood; 7asafa you call them friends!

Huh? What does he mean? ;s

S3ood; What's the last thing you remember from last night?
Ruba; Umm .. I was walking, then I lost balance, then I guess I blacked out. B3dain I woke up today finding myself in the living room. So I guess … someone carried me there.
S3ood; Someone like who? … Yousif?

I nodded in silence.

S3ood; Shoufay ruba. Ana taam saakit for a long long time. But it's time you hear the truth.

What truuthh? THE TRUUTHH? Ay truth?!!

S3ood; Bs awal shay ma tathkireen wala shay min last night?
Ruba; Ummm
S3ood; Try to remember.
Ruba; Oh yeah! I remember lying on the floor and calling out someone. I don't remember who ,, Emm ,, maybe Idk.
S3ood; what else?
Ruba; Emm,, I remember being carried carefully. I also remember crying.
S3ood; Bs?
Ruba; Eehh ,, laish?

Why would he ask me of such thing?

S3ood; Ana bagoul lich kil shay 9ar ams. Because I was there.

Yumaa!!!

Ruba; okay.

I was beyond shocked on what he said!! I couldn't believe it.

Ruba; You know what s3ood? I don't believe you! You're just jealous for some reason I don't know why! Laish chithyy itsawyy feenyy? You break my heart, and then I move on and find this perfect person o hamman taby itkhariib bainaa? You're so selfish s3ood. Do you ever think of others?!! Ambaih ana mu gadra a9adiig!

I walked out leaving him behind. I got into my car trying to shake it off and I sped away.

Ma3qoola?
Ma3qoola chithyy egoul 3an yousify?
Ma3qoola egoul enna yousifyy mittifiq ma3a basma eshawrboony monawim?
Ma3qoola he's that low?
Ma3qoola egoul enna yousify 7a6ny ib sayarty?
Ma3qoola enna ka nib yakhithny somewhere allaho a3lam wain?
Ma3qoola enna s3ood was el-ba6al o anqathny from the evil one?
Ma3qoola my dream was reality?
Ma3qoola enna S3ood was the one that carried me?
Ma3qoola s3ood is the prince?
Ma3qoola basma is the evil friend?
Ma3qoola yousif is the theif?
Could all of this be true?
I could never know the truth!
Bs why would Yousif take me?
And where would he take me?
MA3QOOLA!?

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Long tiiiiiiiiimmeee! Ambaih you guys I miss each and everyone of you!
Bs tadrooon shnuuuu?

ANA 7ADDDDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ZA3LAANAAA!

Tadroon laish?

Always.Be tadreen laish? Ha?

L2ana always.be she won't be around any more ;(! Because I'll miss her like hell! Because I can't imagine blogger without her!

Love you always.be o I hope you come back;'*


Here goes ya 7ilween;**

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(Ruba. Persona.)

I went down stairs with Rinad. Basma was sitting on the white sofa, She looked nervous a bit. She didn't know what to do with her hands. I rolled my eyes. I don't know why I thought she looked stupid! What the hell happened to me? She was my best friend, I shouldn't say this about her. So Anyways .. we both sat next to her, Rinad excused herself after a few moments of awkwardness.

*Awkward Silence*

Basma; ... I came here to apologize!

Oh yeah? Let's hear it!!

Basma; I know you're upset. And you should be! Elly sawaitah feech mu shwaya! o I know best friends shouldn't be like that.

I kept quiet. She was right. What the hell was I supposed to say? ..

Basma; o Ana aw3idich Ruba. AW3IDICH! Enny ma asawyy chithy marra thanya. Wala 7atta afakkir asawyy chithy. Ana ghayart raQmy, I want to start fresh. And the first step to that is for you to forgive me. Please do.
Ruba; Ok
Basma; Galbich kibeeer Ruba! Wallah el3atheem asfa! O wallah ana ma astahil ennich itsam7eenyy! Adryy ma sama7teenyy 3ashanyy! Sama7teenyy l2ana entay galbiich kibeer o ma it3arfeen tiz3ileen 3ala elly e3izouniich!

*Awkward silence*

Ruba; Just give it time Basma. Don't expect me to laugh with you straight away.
Basma; Of course, of course. Kil shay ib waktah 7ilw!

Rinad stepped out of no where!

Rinad; you guys making up is just too beautiful ;p! I'm gonna go make some juice ;p
Ruba; Hehe. Orange juice for me.
Rinad; w entay bsaim?
Basma; Emm, Lemon with mint please ;p
Rinad; wallah 7asbalkum ma63am :p!
Basma; Hehehe
Ruba; Heheheh

There was an awkward silence after that.

Basma; I'm gonna go help ranood. Yimkin ma it3arif 7ag 3a9eery.
Ruba; Okay.

I thought I should text yousify meanwhile.

To Moron;
7ayaty Basma & I made up. She promised not to ever do this again. I forgave her. Good idea, eh?

From Moron;
Ya galbyy entay! Wallah ennich kareema. Do what you think is best. Etha shifteeha 9ij mitnadma o 7asrana 3ayal kafuu;**

To Moron;
A7ibik;*

From Moron;
Ana akthar. Shloun el7een?

To Moron;
3adyy :D

From Moron;
LOL! Rou7yy entay! Ra7 agdar ayiii elyoum!

To Moron;
Hiyyaa! Yallah ta3aal! Lamma tou9al dig 3alay!

From Moron;
Min 3younyy;**

To Moron;
Can't wait;***

Basma and Rinad came and sat with me..

Rinad; Haa? Are you done with texting?
Ruba; Heheh ;$! Eeeh ;p
Rinad; good!
Basma; Yallah let's drink our juices instead of just cha3iming each other :p
Rinad; Hehehe;p yeah

*Sip sip sip*:p

Rinad; *gasp*
Ruba; shfeech :?
Rinad; I NEED the bathroooom!
Ruba; Ta2theeer el3a9eer :p
Rinad; La2 yatnyy :p!

*BOTH LAUGHING*

Ruba; Dishay el7amaam dishay la itfashleeenaaa bs :p

Jasim came in shirtless..

Jasim; shfeekom tith7ikoon? .. *looks around, finds rinad* ta3alay ranood shfeech tin7ashain?
Ruba; khalha khalha ;p nil3ab 9aida mu 9aida ;p
Jasim; Eeh goumaw li7goohaaa! Ma tigdiroun 3alaiha haaa? Ana agdaaar!

He started running after Rinad. O maskeena miftashla o ohwa mu fahim elQi9a!

Rinad; Jasim khala9 tikfa ma agdar arkith!
Jasim; Min 9ighrich o killa takhsireen billi3ba
Rinad; Jasiiiiiiiimmm! Bs wallah magdar!
Jasim; 3yayiiiiz!
Rinad; LAA22! Yayatnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :@!

Jasim froze. I had my hand on my mouth. Basma had her hand on her eyes. Then Jasim burst out laughing xD!

Rinad; 7maar 7addik wallah awareeek!

Jasim couldn't even talk. He was laughing so hard. (Ma yisti7yyyyyy:p)

E7na en7arjna. Fa we took off.

Basma; ambaih eljaw 3ajeeeb!
Ruba; Yeah 7adda.

Incoming Call:
Moron

Ruba; ooops.
Basma; shfeech?

I had to lie.

Ruba; Rinad needs your help bil shalaih.
Basma; Huh? Why didn't she tex.. umm .. yeah sure. You coming?
Ruba; La yazlyy eljaw.
Basma; K

I had to call yousify.

Yousif; aloo! 7ubby kany wi9alt.
Ruba; eeh eeh! Ta3aal I can see you.

I waved at him and he came. ;*

Yousif; Akhaaiih ishkithir mishtag lich;*
Ruba; Hehehe;*! Me too ;$

We started walking. But suddenly the world started turning. Could it be? Could my love to Yousif be that strong? That it would make my world spin round? No. It started spinning faster. And I couldn't understand anything.

Yousif; Sh&$^ch? R^ba? Gi^&ay!

I could hardly make up the words. Next thing I know it was all black.

I blacked out. And the last thing I remember was him saying "shfeech ruba gi3day"

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Heyyy;**

Mu wayid 6iweeel, bs el3awath wala el6igee3a :p
LOOOL(A)! 3aib Truuthh! 3AIIIB :P! ElGi6ee3a**
I'm in a good mood today :p

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Yousif; Ishda3wa chithyy? ;p
Ruba; Sorry 7ayatyy moody khayis!
Yousif; Afaa! Laish?
Ruba; Umm ,, Madryy ..
Yousif; shimthaygich 7abeebty goulilyy!

I remember him telling me I shouldn't care if I see s3ood or his .. His .. WELL GF! 7ABEEBTAH! Whatever! So I decided not to tell him coz I didn't want to upset him ..

Ruba; It's a girl's thing ;p
Yousif; Ohhh! okay okay sorry :p
Ruba; Hehe, 3ady ;p

He started talking about his day and such. I just listened, And he understood why I didn't wanna talk.

After a while Rinad entered while I was on the phone with yousify.

Rinad; Bagoul lich shay!
Ruba; Yousify I'll call you back okay?
Yousif; sure
Ruba; Bye;* .. what's up?
Rinad; la it3a9been okay?
Ruba; okay ,, ish9ayir?
Rinad; Basma is here. Now before you say anything .. She has changed trust me. She's so sorry and it was very hard to come here. She came here to apologize. 6aggat darb 3ashanich Ruba.

I have to admit I was upset. But she was my best friend. We were very close. We've been through a lot together.

Rinad; What do you say? ta3alay ta7at ehya ga3da ..
Ruba; okay.

(Now I told 7awoor enna ba7i6 Jasim and..well her :p .. Fa this is a section not seen by Ruba. Omnicieant. The pinkish orange is omnicient. o the default color is Ruba persona.)

Ruba; Where's 9aloo7 and Jasim?
Rinad; Umm ,, 9ali7 rayi7 the store. Bs Jasim ma adry 3annah

Rinad wondered why would Ruba ask about the boys. They didn't know that Jasim was out with his gf.

it3arfoon mnu his gf 9a7?

Hmm ,, didn't I mention it earlier? .. Hmm ok :p It's 7awoor:p Just in case you didn't know:p! LOOL(A)! Bassiiiichh trruuuth el-awadiiim endamjaww xD! Heheheh :p!

So Jasim And 7awoor were walking by the beach ,, Jasim noticed 7awoor chithyy sar7aana bs gam tamshyy ma3ah bs mu gam esoulfoon!

Jasim; Shfeech galby?
7awoor; Emmm ,, Madryy
Jasim; Goulaayy!
7awoor; Mabyy arid England adris (Madryy chinna London 9a7:p? Madryy nasya bs enna UK:p)
Jasim; Maykhalif kilha sina o khala9!
7awoor; Mabyy! Abyy ag3ad wiyak!
Jasim; Hehe, 7abeebtyy may9eer! Yallah enjoy it while you can ;p *wink*
7awoor; chinnik wayid wathiq ib rou7ik :p?
Jasim; Eeh I'm enjoyable 7addyyy :p!
7awoor; 6a3 hathaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :O!! I'll call the airport to book me a ticket to tomorrow!

7awoor grabbed her phone. Bs ishda3wa min 9ijhaa ;p

Jasim; La laa! Khala9 khalaa9! a9eeer 3aajil!
7awoor; 7asbalyy b3d!
Jasim; Heheh! ... 3ad I'm gonna miss you wayid. Bs you're gonna miss me more 9a7?(A)

Jasim killa e6affirhaa! 7awoor ran to the sea and splashed some wated on him!

Jasim; Man I feel fresh now:D! Thanks :D!
7awoor; YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE ANGRY! BE ANGRY :(! Be angry :(
Jasim; HAHAHAHAH! xD! 7awooooraa wallah tha7akteenyy! Ta3alay nisait ana yaayiiib lich shayy!
7awooor; 9iiiij? Shnuu!?
Jasim; Bs ta3alay hal 9oub lazim aghaslah ib may ba7ar!

7awoor was confused. But she believed him. They went near the water. Jasim nizal .. o 7awoor lal7een wagfa

Jasim; Nizlaayy! 3ashan itshofeenaah!
7awoor; okay

7awoor was so excited she wouldn't blink. Little did she know enna Jasim gam esawyy makeeda enna eriish 3alaihaa mayy :p And when he did , 7awoor did a long gasp and threw him in the water. Jasim had a great sence of humor. He would always laugh lw shi9eer enshallah :p

Jasim; Hahahahaha xD
7awoor; Yeah you better laugh mister.

7awoor was walking away just when Jasim got up and grabbed her.

7awoor; LAAAAAAA22! HIDNYYY!! Jasoom wallah wallah I'm sorryyyyyyy! Please la itgi6nyy!

Jasim carried her. o khala9 begi6haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :p ..

Jasim; Ummmmmmmmmmmmm
7awoor; Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez(A)
Jasim; la2 bagi6iiich ;p
7awoor; Jasoom please b3d abrid b3dain amrith b3dain arou7 elmistashfa b3dain amout

(b3eeeed elshaar;** She's just exaggerating okay:p?)

Jasim; OUULLAAAHH! Kil hatha 3ashan bagi66iich bil ba7ar :p? Khala9 hawanna :p

Jasim put her down and she was over the moon ;p

7awoor; You're wet
Jasim; it9adgeen? Madrryy laish 3aad :p! Madryy min mnuuu :p
7awoor; Hhehehee(A)!

Jasim's sticky Tshirt was bothering him. tadroooon ishsawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :p?
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
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7awoor; aste7yyyy!
Jasim; Laish tisti7een? Ana elly fa9ikh my entay:p
7awoor; Jasoooom :!

She hit him slightly on the shoulder. He kept laughing as usual. They walked together until 7awoor reached their chalet. They said goodbye and Jasim went to his chalet.

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I know this is short. Bs a7san min wala shay 9a7(A)? Hehehe

The photo of the dude in white is 9ali7! I don't know about you, bs this is exactly how I imagined him ;p! Chii I was looking around chan a7is hatha 9ali7 ;p

a7ibkom;*****

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I don't want to bore you. Let's just cut to the chase! ..

9ali7 and Jasim were done with what they were doing. We gathered in the living room and decided to go ride the bikes. I wore my blue shorts and my white and yellow striped sweater. At first we were close, then everyone went their own way. So I plugged my iPod o 3isht eljaw. I was speeding a bit so I loved the way the air blew my hair and refreshed me. Forever & Always By Taylor Swift was playing.

And out of the blue.

I see him.

Why did it still hurt?

Why did my heart stop beating?

The whole world was spinning.

My iPod was suddenly silent.

Everything paused.

Everything disappeared.

Only him.

He was very much alive.

He wasn't looking at my direction.

He was busy trying to light a bonfire.

It wasn't dark yet. But the sun was setting. I froze for about 3 minutes. Maybe he noticed something going on, so he looked at me. I didn't believe it! He was looking at me! AT ME! RIGHT AT ME! Right through my eyes. Maybe he felt my pain! Was I in pain? Wasn't I happy with yousif?! I was confused! I shook those thought away. Put on the cap to cover me up. And rid my bike right pass him.

I made a stop at the cafe to swallow what had just happened. I had some warm coffee and just sat there. Thinking. I was distarcted a while later by a text.

From Moron;
Mistansa 7ayatyy? 6amneena;*

It took me 2 minutes to put up a sentece.

To Moron;
Eeh

From Moron;
Feech shay 7abeebty?

(After 2 mins)

To Moron;
No

(After 2 mins)

To Moron;
ta3bana

From Moron;
7abeebtyy mu 3ajbatny! Akeed mafeech shay?

To Moron;
Eeh.

(After 2 mins)

To Moron;
I'm going to bed.

From Moron;
:S!

I ignored his last text. It annoyed me!

I left my bike near the cafe and walked to the chalet. I saw s3ood's group of friends. I wondered where he was. I wanted to see him. And I didn't want to see him. I arrived at the chalet. Rinad and 9ali7 were joking around and eating junk. I told them I was wiped and needed to head to bed. I took a hot shower and let the hot water wash my pain away. I knew tomorrow my muscles will be aching. I knew tomorrow I might see s3ood again. I knew tomorrow I will not forget.

I decided to call yousify. He asked about me after all, o ana digartah shway fa I had to make it up to him.