The guy looked like ,, well how to put it ,, "Gizeez" ,, Ecalade souda, emghayima, loud music, and his attitude was like "I'm so cool" obvoisly trying to get people (girls) to notice him .. And Sarah did.
"Ambaih he's looking at me! Waayy shasawyy! Should I smile? Madryy shasawyyy!!!"
She smiled, a small smile, a smile without showing teeth, but you would notice the smile from afar! ,, she was surprised to see him smile back! But boy did his smile move her! She was over the moon! Let me describe this guy .. He's irresponsable, wants to have fun all the time (like every boy does) ,, he's out, out, all the time! His house is his hotel, he just sleeps there and gets room service. As for his looks. He wasn't special, but he had some certain hotness about him. He was attractive. Maybe it was his tanned skin or slight dance with the music! ..
He then took off his sunglasses, stared at Sarah, and winked!
"Did he WINK? No no! It must be in my head!"
Her driver honked the horn and distracted her thoughts. She got in and all she could think of was him. She wondered what his name is, what's he like, and what he sounds like! She had a crush on him.
She went home, had lunch with her family, then quickly called li6eefa and told her everything.
Li6eefa; wayyy! Thany marra itshofeena ebtasmeelah 3adiil!
Sarah; laa2! Aste7yy abtesim!
(Notice that she's not like "Ana thigeela o maby allageeh wayh. She doesn't want to smile because she's shy)
Li6eefa; Swaira yal 6ag3a (sorry for the language it's part of her character) tibtasmain fahma?
Sarah; not like I'm ever gonna see him ever again ;/!
Li6eefa; well if you ever do! SMILE! Let him see your pearly teeth!
Sarah; ugh enzain enzain ;/ So today is khamees! Khal ni6la3 or something!
Li6eefa agreed. They both asked their parents and they didn't mind. They went out. They had fun. "The guy" couldn't find a way out of her brain! She thought about him constantly!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Taking Chances (A short story)(Part 1 of 3)
Hey guys ;( , I'm sorryy :(! Wallah I have no time! 7atta el7een I tried to sleep but I couldn't :( ,, waray faz3a min 7! My summer khayis khayis khayis :(! Bs at least better than a boring summer! Khayis I mean enna I'm always busy :p ,, khal agoul likom jadwily ok ;p? I wake up at 7 , go to work at 8, come back around 1:30, lunch, shower, nap, ag3ad 3al 4, 2 hours of reading of the major I want enshallah, (it's a secret agoul likom later ;p) ,, elsa3a 8 6al3at el-3a2ila ;p , enrid 3al 11, 12, agra a book until I fall asleep! Great schedule muu ;p? Lool, so my little treat! I'm gonna write a short realistic realistic storyy!! 7ail 7aail realistic! I hope you like it;** ,, it will probably be 2 to 3 posts only, it's probably gonna be that way with my coming storied until I find time to complete The Rhythm of My Heartbeat ;(! Sorryyyy ;( Bs I love you taraa mu tinsoun ok? ;( ;*****
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Sarah, saroona, call her whatever you want. She doesn't care. She was in highschool when she first met him. She was thanya thanawyy (grade 10) ,, at friday's (the day not the restaurant ;p) she would go her grandfather's house, they had a beautiful garden in front of the house, and there was a nagaziya there ;p .. Ehya o her cousin la6oof would jump there .. And sit there when they're tired ..
Lamma et3ibaw eg3idaw o bidaw esoulfoon, and then this escalade drives through, honks the horns, o eshif flasharaat ..
Li6eefa; go home loser!
Sarah; *low voice* shhh heyy entaayy! Malich sheghiil feeh!
Li6eefa; waiih! Ishda3wa sima3nyy!
Sarah took a glimpse, and boy was he hot! He looked too old for her. And he was. He looked 22. While she was only 16! Sarah had zero experience with boys! She knew nothing but to be tikana in front of them.
This guy managed to appear in Sarah's dream last night. She thought he was hot, but never to be expected in a dream.
Khal aw9if likom Sarah. Bint 3adiya 3adiya 3adiya! 3a6aha allah ma 3a6a ghairha! Malami7ha 3adiya, same as every other person. What was she special with? What made her shine? What made her pop? What made her different from all the others? Her brush! She was an amazing artist, she wasn't that good in school, she wasn't that good with fashion, she wasn't that good with .. (Fill in the blanks with anything attractive) she loved to paint!
Weeks gone by:
She was waiting after school, the driver would always be late, and never be on time! He would pick up her brother who's at a different school, then pick her up. So as sarah was waiting, all the kids went back home, and she was the only one left. She got mad, she felt embarrassed from the teacher who was bored to tears waiting for her to basically LEAVE!
Ms.Hellen; Sarah why don't you call your driver?
Sarah called her brother up from her mobile ,, He had no excuse, he made up some, but she knew that,
7amanyy; kaanaa wi9alna wi9alnaa!
Sarah started looking around trying to spot their driver's car .. And guess who she found? Oh yeah! The Escalade! THE escalade ; )
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Sarah, saroona, call her whatever you want. She doesn't care. She was in highschool when she first met him. She was thanya thanawyy (grade 10) ,, at friday's (the day not the restaurant ;p) she would go her grandfather's house, they had a beautiful garden in front of the house, and there was a nagaziya there ;p .. Ehya o her cousin la6oof would jump there .. And sit there when they're tired ..
Lamma et3ibaw eg3idaw o bidaw esoulfoon, and then this escalade drives through, honks the horns, o eshif flasharaat ..
Li6eefa; go home loser!
Sarah; *low voice* shhh heyy entaayy! Malich sheghiil feeh!
Li6eefa; waiih! Ishda3wa sima3nyy!
Sarah took a glimpse, and boy was he hot! He looked too old for her. And he was. He looked 22. While she was only 16! Sarah had zero experience with boys! She knew nothing but to be tikana in front of them.
This guy managed to appear in Sarah's dream last night. She thought he was hot, but never to be expected in a dream.
Khal aw9if likom Sarah. Bint 3adiya 3adiya 3adiya! 3a6aha allah ma 3a6a ghairha! Malami7ha 3adiya, same as every other person. What was she special with? What made her shine? What made her pop? What made her different from all the others? Her brush! She was an amazing artist, she wasn't that good in school, she wasn't that good with fashion, she wasn't that good with .. (Fill in the blanks with anything attractive) she loved to paint!
Weeks gone by:
She was waiting after school, the driver would always be late, and never be on time! He would pick up her brother who's at a different school, then pick her up. So as sarah was waiting, all the kids went back home, and she was the only one left. She got mad, she felt embarrassed from the teacher who was bored to tears waiting for her to basically LEAVE!
Ms.Hellen; Sarah why don't you call your driver?
Sarah called her brother up from her mobile ,, He had no excuse, he made up some, but she knew that,
7amanyy; kaanaa wi9alna wi9alnaa!
Sarah started looking around trying to spot their driver's car .. And guess who she found? Oh yeah! The Escalade! THE escalade ; )
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-25
First of all I wanna say sorry to all of you. I haven't been reading your amazing blogs :(! I never have the time I swear, I thought summer will be a carefree life where there's just free time free time ALL THE TIME! Turns out I really have a lot to do. I have a summer job, I have stupid classes to attend, I have alotta books I have to finish reading at the end of the summer. It's one of those stupid plans where you put a list of books you have to read ;/ Yeah ;/ Cousin's idea, she's like "I'll write you a list of amazing books and if you read them you'll become a new person, Trust me I did it" I was going through a rough time back then, so I thought it was a good idea. It actually is because I am feeling better already. So anyway the point is that I'm sorry, I rarely have the time, so please bear with me, o Enshallah I will read your stories when I can! I'm really dying to know alotta stuff :(! Enshallah I'll get the time, say ameen;*****
This post is a bit short, But it's the best I came up with
Here Goes;;*********
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Previously...
He drove while I stared at him, as he bit his lips trying to think .. I loved how his eyes would quickly move from the side mirror to the rare view mirror, He kept his forcus on driving, And I loved the way he drove! The way he turns the spining wheel,,After the long road we finally made our destination ,,
Tadrooon wain?
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This cute amusement park (Guys! Don't imagine the amusement parks we have ;p! Itkhayilaaww chii Disney Land okay? :P LOOL! Mu ElShi3ib Wala Showbiz looool! Omg I was so sad lamma ehdimaw Showbiz! Kil 6ifooltyy kanaat hnaak! Awaal youm kint 9gheera Showbiz was like "WOW"! LOOL! I used to beg my parents to take me there xD! Omg I still remember the games, there was like this safeena elly it6iil 3al shari3! And we used to play it o en6il 3al shari3 o flirt with the cars out side looool!:P Omg wallah ayaam 7ilwaa! oo oo I remember the game elly they're like circles o yagliboun yagliboun! LOL! The first time la3abt'ha I cried xD! Afashil :P!)
Yousif; You feel like playing?
7asasny enny 8 years old ;p ,, But deep inside, I'd love to play, it was still fun no matter how old you get (Mu 9a7 guys? Wallah ana my mom still like amusement parks, Bs sometimes she gets scared from the games that go really high! Bs wallah elli3ib 7ilw! LOL bagoul salfa g9eera! Marra kinna ib Blackpool eb England, Kil my family ra7aw this boring game o bs ana ma kint aby arkab ,, Wala 7araam my mom it'tha7yy o ma itrou7 wiyahom ,, Chan agoul 7ag ommy "Yuma khal nil3ab hatheech" o ashart 3ala this HUGE death roller coaster! Mommy; "Maynoona? Nawya 3ala 3omrich?" ,, Me; "Yuma allah ykhaleech, Baba gal bachir maku amusement park, Allah ykhaleech allah ykhaleech" ,, Finally eQtan3at o rikabna xD! Youm khala9at elli3ba she was shaking maskeena b3d galbyy! And then eg3idat tad3yyy 3alay! xD! It3arfoon when parents have this "Ad3ryy 3ala" Tone, But really they're praying for you! She was like "Allah yaakhiith ebleeesiiiich!" As I was cracking up! She had some other prayers that sounded like enha tad3yy 3alay bs 9ij kanat tad3eelyy :p LOL! Moms are weird :p But I love her like hell;***! Lol back to the story) ..
Ruba; Eeeh! Allah look at that one!!
I pointed at this roller coaster, but another game caught my eye, and then another, and another! I felt like a kid once again! I felt like I had to much energy to release! I felt the youth, I felt the amazment! Yousif couldn't help but chuckle at my expressions as I moved my eye from one game to another ,,
Yousif; yallah emshay nakhith tickets!
(Chinna maku nithaam tickets any more? :p! Lool! Well I love tickets! A7la min elcards wai3 ;p ,, fa let's just go with tickets this time ;p)
Ruba; eeh yallah ,,
We stood in line, and when it was finally our turn ,,
Ticket Guy; Hello ma'am, sir, How much for the kids?
Yousif and I looked at each other immediately and we looked like we were 2 inches away from bursting out laughing! Who would think "WE" were the ones who wanted to play! xD
Yousif; *Holding laughter* Cham tabeen?
Ruba; Madryy!
Yousif; 100 KD!
Ruba; A hundred? Are you crazy?
Yousif; Yeah! Our kids love to play :p
Ruba; *Holding laughter* Yeah 9a7!
Our Kids? Yousif o ana? Ana o Yousif? 3yaalna e7na? OUR KIDS?
Ticket Guy; Okay sir, There you go, Enjoy your time in Cotton Candy Land (Kaifyyy I just made it up lool :p)
Yousif; Thanks ,, Where to miss?
He said that while I was looking at things with amazment and curiosity ,,
Yousif; Hahahah, yallah binrakbiich wain ma tabeen :p
Ruba; yaasooof la tith7aak 3alay! I can't remember the last time I was at an amusement park!
Yousif; Haha, yallah yallah! Nirkab hathyy?
Ruba; Eeeh eeehh! Eeehh!
Yousif; ok ok ok :p
I slightly hit him on the shoulder, as I stole away the ticket and ran to stay in line ,,
We had a blast we entered all the games, some of the games were dangerous and I kinda chickened out, But yousif would tell me to be brave and challenge myself, So basically, yeah, we entered every game! There was only one game left, One game I couldn't bear! One game I knew I would have nightmares about .. The roller coaster backwards!
Yousif; Roro wallah it's like the roller coster! Just backwards!
Ruba; la la yousif wallah akhaaf! Hatholaak kilhom bil yaaallah 3ala ma eQtana3t! Bs hathyyy no way!!
Yousif; Enzain let's go watch! We'll just watch ..
Ruba; okay ,,
I knew what he was after, And I wasn't falling for that .. Both of us stood there looking at it as it played, while people were screaming and blah blah blah ,, I bit my nails just watching it! And his grin couldn't get wider! ,,
Yousif; yallah dournaa!
Ruba; YOOUUSIIIF! Manyyy rakbaa! Shouf wyoooh elnaaas bas!!
(We do this thing, If we're new to a game, we stand 9oub where the people leave after playing and look at their faces, etha daayikh o chii emtanni7 shway! ya3nyy itkharii3! If they're laughing and joking around then it's safe ;p Mom's idea :p Wallah it works every time ;p )
Yousif; Malich sheghil fil naas! Ohma khawaafeen entay shujaa3a! Entay ba6ala!
Those are the words you say to kids and it might affect them! To me ,, "Shujaa3a" and "Ba6ala" had a stronger effect! It meant the world to me ,, The last time I heard those words, were probably when I was 5 or 6! ,, It's a long time!
Ruba; ...... okay!
Yousif; Yallah, hold my hand!
I took his hand, walked slowly towards the seats, and sat down. He was on my right! I was on the left, The guys locked the safety lock, and made sure it was tight enough! I held the handle with my left hand! And held Yousif's hand tighter with my right hand!
Ruba; I'm scared to death!
Yousif; Look at me!
Looking at him was a bit hard at that position, But I looked. His eye lashes were brown color because of the sun light, also his eyes, I saw the shadow of his eye lashes on his nose, And they looked beautiful!
Yousif; You'll enjoy it!
Ruba; Daam enny ma3ak!
Yousif; Ya ba3adhum! A7ib...
This post is a bit short, But it's the best I came up with
Here Goes;;*********
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Previously...
He drove while I stared at him, as he bit his lips trying to think .. I loved how his eyes would quickly move from the side mirror to the rare view mirror, He kept his forcus on driving, And I loved the way he drove! The way he turns the spining wheel,,After the long road we finally made our destination ,,
Tadrooon wain?
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This cute amusement park (Guys! Don't imagine the amusement parks we have ;p! Itkhayilaaww chii Disney Land okay? :P LOOL! Mu ElShi3ib Wala Showbiz looool! Omg I was so sad lamma ehdimaw Showbiz! Kil 6ifooltyy kanaat hnaak! Awaal youm kint 9gheera Showbiz was like "WOW"! LOOL! I used to beg my parents to take me there xD! Omg I still remember the games, there was like this safeena elly it6iil 3al shari3! And we used to play it o en6il 3al shari3 o flirt with the cars out side looool!:P Omg wallah ayaam 7ilwaa! oo oo I remember the game elly they're like circles o yagliboun yagliboun! LOL! The first time la3abt'ha I cried xD! Afashil :P!)
Yousif; You feel like playing?
7asasny enny 8 years old ;p ,, But deep inside, I'd love to play, it was still fun no matter how old you get (Mu 9a7 guys? Wallah ana my mom still like amusement parks, Bs sometimes she gets scared from the games that go really high! Bs wallah elli3ib 7ilw! LOL bagoul salfa g9eera! Marra kinna ib Blackpool eb England, Kil my family ra7aw this boring game o bs ana ma kint aby arkab ,, Wala 7araam my mom it'tha7yy o ma itrou7 wiyahom ,, Chan agoul 7ag ommy "Yuma khal nil3ab hatheech" o ashart 3ala this HUGE death roller coaster! Mommy; "Maynoona? Nawya 3ala 3omrich?" ,, Me; "Yuma allah ykhaleech, Baba gal bachir maku amusement park, Allah ykhaleech allah ykhaleech" ,, Finally eQtan3at o rikabna xD! Youm khala9at elli3ba she was shaking maskeena b3d galbyy! And then eg3idat tad3yyy 3alay! xD! It3arfoon when parents have this "Ad3ryy 3ala" Tone, But really they're praying for you! She was like "Allah yaakhiith ebleeesiiiich!" As I was cracking up! She had some other prayers that sounded like enha tad3yy 3alay bs 9ij kanat tad3eelyy :p LOL! Moms are weird :p But I love her like hell;***! Lol back to the story) ..
Ruba; Eeeh! Allah look at that one!!
I pointed at this roller coaster, but another game caught my eye, and then another, and another! I felt like a kid once again! I felt like I had to much energy to release! I felt the youth, I felt the amazment! Yousif couldn't help but chuckle at my expressions as I moved my eye from one game to another ,,
Yousif; yallah emshay nakhith tickets!
(Chinna maku nithaam tickets any more? :p! Lool! Well I love tickets! A7la min elcards wai3 ;p ,, fa let's just go with tickets this time ;p)
Ruba; eeh yallah ,,
We stood in line, and when it was finally our turn ,,
Ticket Guy; Hello ma'am, sir, How much for the kids?
Yousif and I looked at each other immediately and we looked like we were 2 inches away from bursting out laughing! Who would think "WE" were the ones who wanted to play! xD
Yousif; *Holding laughter* Cham tabeen?
Ruba; Madryy!
Yousif; 100 KD!
Ruba; A hundred? Are you crazy?
Yousif; Yeah! Our kids love to play :p
Ruba; *Holding laughter* Yeah 9a7!
Our Kids? Yousif o ana? Ana o Yousif? 3yaalna e7na? OUR KIDS?
Ticket Guy; Okay sir, There you go, Enjoy your time in Cotton Candy Land (Kaifyyy I just made it up lool :p)
Yousif; Thanks ,, Where to miss?
He said that while I was looking at things with amazment and curiosity ,,
Yousif; Hahahah, yallah binrakbiich wain ma tabeen :p
Ruba; yaasooof la tith7aak 3alay! I can't remember the last time I was at an amusement park!
Yousif; Haha, yallah yallah! Nirkab hathyy?
Ruba; Eeeh eeehh! Eeehh!
Yousif; ok ok ok :p
I slightly hit him on the shoulder, as I stole away the ticket and ran to stay in line ,,
We had a blast we entered all the games, some of the games were dangerous and I kinda chickened out, But yousif would tell me to be brave and challenge myself, So basically, yeah, we entered every game! There was only one game left, One game I couldn't bear! One game I knew I would have nightmares about .. The roller coaster backwards!
Yousif; Roro wallah it's like the roller coster! Just backwards!
Ruba; la la yousif wallah akhaaf! Hatholaak kilhom bil yaaallah 3ala ma eQtana3t! Bs hathyyy no way!!
Yousif; Enzain let's go watch! We'll just watch ..
Ruba; okay ,,
I knew what he was after, And I wasn't falling for that .. Both of us stood there looking at it as it played, while people were screaming and blah blah blah ,, I bit my nails just watching it! And his grin couldn't get wider! ,,
Yousif; yallah dournaa!
Ruba; YOOUUSIIIF! Manyyy rakbaa! Shouf wyoooh elnaaas bas!!
(We do this thing, If we're new to a game, we stand 9oub where the people leave after playing and look at their faces, etha daayikh o chii emtanni7 shway! ya3nyy itkharii3! If they're laughing and joking around then it's safe ;p Mom's idea :p Wallah it works every time ;p )
Yousif; Malich sheghil fil naas! Ohma khawaafeen entay shujaa3a! Entay ba6ala!
Those are the words you say to kids and it might affect them! To me ,, "Shujaa3a" and "Ba6ala" had a stronger effect! It meant the world to me ,, The last time I heard those words, were probably when I was 5 or 6! ,, It's a long time!
Ruba; ...... okay!
Yousif; Yallah, hold my hand!
I took his hand, walked slowly towards the seats, and sat down. He was on my right! I was on the left, The guys locked the safety lock, and made sure it was tight enough! I held the handle with my left hand! And held Yousif's hand tighter with my right hand!
Ruba; I'm scared to death!
Yousif; Look at me!
Looking at him was a bit hard at that position, But I looked. His eye lashes were brown color because of the sun light, also his eyes, I saw the shadow of his eye lashes on his nose, And they looked beautiful!
Yousif; You'll enjoy it!
Ruba; Daam enny ma3ak!
Yousif; Ya ba3adhum! A7ib...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-24
Yaaaayy! I'm baaack! I was actually done a long time ago, But I was busy with clinics and things ;/ I'm all your noooww! I love you guys soo mcuh! Ambaih I miss you all! This goes out to all of you;***
Eeh, Btw ...
SHUSHU; The "Adding a photo" thingy shakla yazlyy ;p it was gonna be like a one time thing ;p bs shaklah yazlyy, now I know it's your idea ;p But is it okay if I use it too (A)? ;***
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Previously...
I was in the cafe at that time, and guess who came and sat to the table a few steps away? Yep Basma ;/
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She had that look on her face, the ashamed kind of look! Elly tabyy itshoufnyyy o ma tabyy itshoufny (Guys! Hal look waayyiid humiliating! Wayid efashiil! Wayiid pathetic! Ekhaleekom widkom ta96iroounha! It's soo annoying! ) I immidaitly leaned my back the other way so I won't see her! I wasn't ready! I didn't know how to act or what to say if she talked to me ,,To Khalid;
Khalood elyoum bil radda barou7 mishwaar ma3a ranood
Khalood elyoum bil radda barou7 mishwaar ma3a ranood
From Khalid;
Why are you telling me? Tell dad!
Why are you telling me? Tell dad!
To Khalid;
Ugh khalood! You know what I feel towards him! Ana gilt lik allahoma fash'had! I'm not talking to him!
Ugh khalood! You know what I feel towards him! Ana gilt lik allahoma fash'had! I'm not talking to him!
To Moron;
Yeah okay ,, I'll be done with my lectures at 2, I'll meet you at about 3 or something ,,
Yeah okay ,, I'll be done with my lectures at 2, I'll meet you at about 3 or something ,,
From Moron;
Okay babe, Can't wait to make it up to you ;*
Okay babe, Can't wait to make it up to you ;*
To Moron;
;*
;*
Rinad came a few seconds later as I was drinking my morning coffee ,, She looked at me, And then I saw her look behind my shoulder, she saw Basma, and then she was all confused ,, I wasn't ready! Mu waktah ashra7! I got up and walked pass rinad and whispered ,,
Ruba; Long story, I'll tell you later!
She grabbed me softly from my arm ,,
Rinad; Laa2! ish9ayir ruba?
Ruba; Ranod this is a bad time, I'll tell you later!
Ruba; Ranod this is a bad time, I'll tell you later!
+She was going through happy days, And I didn't want to ruin it!
Rinad; La2 ruba! Hathy mu hayna! Basma o Ruba sitting on two different tables!? Ish9ayir!?
Ruba; Ranood please! Wallah I'll tell you later, I have a lecture to not be late for!
Rinad; You promise?
Ruba; Yeah! I promise!
Rinad; Okik sweet cake, Should I discuss it with Basma?
Ruba; Go ahead and give it a shot!
Ruba; Ranood please! Wallah I'll tell you later, I have a lecture to not be late for!
Rinad; You promise?
Ruba; Yeah! I promise!
Rinad; Okik sweet cake, Should I discuss it with Basma?
Ruba; Go ahead and give it a shot!
I knew Basma wouldn't say a word! O I knew enna Basma ma ra7 it2allif 7achyy 3anny! Coz Rinad knows both of us very very well! Etha Basma galat shay bad 3anny ,, Ra7 it6ee7 min 3ain Rinad, And Basma knew this very well too , So I was confident and relaxed about this matter .. I got to my lecture, took notes and participated a bit ..
On my way to the car, just as I was wondering what Yousif had prepared for me, There she was, There she ran ,, Rinad !
Rinad; Rabooooyyyyyyy!
Ruba; Bismillah! Hala?
Ruba; Bismillah! Hala?
She was sort of running after me, so she had to catch her breath ,,
Rinad; You promised!
Ruba; Ohh riight!
Rinad; Listen! I know you gotta run to Yousif! But I really need to know! Min meta e9eer shay bainkom aw ma3a ay a7ad wana madryy!?
Ruba; Ok ok! Tour with me ,, I don't wanna talk about it here!
Rinad; Okay ,,
Ruba; Ohh riight!
Rinad; Listen! I know you gotta run to Yousif! But I really need to know! Min meta e9eer shay bainkom aw ma3a ay a7ad wana madryy!?
Ruba; Ok ok! Tour with me ,, I don't wanna talk about it here!
Rinad; Okay ,,
We got in the car, And I told her everything, with every detail, from where we were at, to how it ended ,, She was surprised and disappointed .. She couldn't believe Basma would do such thing ,,
Ruba; Now ranood I'm not telling you 3ashan ay shay! I'm not telling you she's bad or anything! She did this for me! Mu entay mu elmaQ9ooda! Fa I would totally understand if you would continue being friends with her ..
Rinad; *interrupts* Are you serious? Basma tried to steal your bf and you want me to be friends with her? I'm afraid too myself! What if she does this with all her friends! Laa2! Saloomyy 7aloomy! Akhaaf 3alaina, mu bs ana o 7aloom 7atta entay ruba akhaf 3alaich! 9ij enna we've been friends since forever , actually you were friends with her during high school but I only knew her when we came to uni ,, so madryyy ,,, Still it's sad! I don't know how we're gonna pass this!
Rinad; *interrupts* Are you serious? Basma tried to steal your bf and you want me to be friends with her? I'm afraid too myself! What if she does this with all her friends! Laa2! Saloomyy 7aloomy! Akhaaf 3alaina, mu bs ana o 7aloom 7atta entay ruba akhaf 3alaich! 9ij enna we've been friends since forever , actually you were friends with her during high school but I only knew her when we came to uni ,, so madryyy ,,, Still it's sad! I don't know how we're gonna pass this!
(weird nick name for salim 9aa7? LOOL! Sorryyy :p bear with me :p )
I didn't know what to tell her! She was right, All she said was right ,, It would kill me not to be friends with Basma, we were always close and we always told everything to one another! She was never into talking to guys and dating! She was always like I'm happily single!?! Fa when she hit on Yousifyyyy ana! Why? Why!!?? UGGGHH!
Rinad; 3ady Ruba ,, Should we talk to her?
Ruba; You do that! I can't even look at her!
Rinad; Okay, I'll talk to her, o enshallah she'll change, if not ,,
Ruba; You do that! I can't even look at her!
Rinad; Okay, I'll talk to her, o enshallah she'll change, if not ,,
And both of us went silent after that! ,, I dropped her off a few minutes later,, on her way out ..
Rinad; Hey, what are you doing tonight? After shesma?
Ruba; Nothing ,, You?
Rinad; Emshay shalaih!
Ruba; yours wala ours?
Rinad; kaifich! Yours ab3ad awnas ;p
Ruba; hehee, ok, We'll spend the weekend there, be prepared ha :p? Mu itgoleen ma 3indy malabis heheh :p
Rinad; Hehehe, ok ;p ,, I'll be there at 9 yimkin..
Ruba; K, toodles, Bags of love mwaah;**
Ruba; Nothing ,, You?
Rinad; Emshay shalaih!
Ruba; yours wala ours?
Rinad; kaifich! Yours ab3ad awnas ;p
Ruba; hehee, ok, We'll spend the weekend there, be prepared ha :p? Mu itgoleen ma 3indy malabis heheh :p
Rinad; Hehehe, ok ;p ,, I'll be there at 9 yimkin..
Ruba; K, toodles, Bags of love mwaah;**
we kissed goodbye and waved too .. I went back home, packed my things as fast as possible, I didn't want to see dad, and luckily I didn't ,, I got out And then I drove to the middle of nowhere and parked ,,
To Moron;
Where are we going this time?
Where are we going this time?
From Moron;
Wainich entay? Bamirrich o akh6ifiich ;p
Wainich entay? Bamirrich o akh6ifiich ;p
To Moron;
Lol, I'm in the middle of noweher! ;p
Lol, I'm in the middle of noweher! ;p
From Moron;
Describe the place ..
Describe the place ..
I describe it, it turns out that the place is not very vague, He showed up about 10 minutes later ,, He opened my door and stood really close with his hands on my seet, close to my behind! Which sort of freaked me out!
Yousif; I missed you!
Ruba; So did I
Ruba; So did I
Yousif; Let's not fight again!
Ruba; baby we weren't fighting ..
Ruba; baby we weren't fighting ..
I jupmed out of my seet and stood next to him, really really close, elly if he stepped one more step our feet would touch ,, Lemme tell you what I was wearing, I was wearing this cute oversized black shirt with black leggings, I had my hair down, So basically I wasn't dressed up for him! It's usually what I wear for uni ,,
I was trying to fix my hair with both hands, The wind was bothering me by blowing my hair across my vision and block my vision from seeing Yousify ,, He then grabbed both my hands, and slowly lowered tham to his waste, and made me wrap my hands around him ,, He placed both his hands on my jaw ,, I couldn't look him in the eye, I was too embarrassed, I was too shy, I've never been this close ,,
Yousif; Look at me ,,
Ruba; I can't
Ruba; I can't
I kept curling his tshirt, to avoid the embarrassment ,,
Yousif; look at me!
I slowly raised my eye, from his tshirt, to the center of his chest, to his neck, to his chin, to his lips, to his mustash, to his pointy nose, and finally to his eyes, I stared at both of them, both were filled with love and care!
Yousif; Limeeny!
I thought we were already hugging, lol, But I got closer, and fully wrapped my arms around him, and so did he. I then shed a tear (Chinha wayid daloo3a o wayid tabchyy? Wala 3adyy in her situation? ;p)
Yousif; Baby I won't let you get away this time! This is the third time! Cham marra agoul lich ma itkharbeen balayzy? Kil marra agoul lich bitwadeenha ma9bagha b3dain taksireen kha6ry! Hal marra la2 tara ;p
Ruba; Hehehe ,,
Ruba; Hehehe ,,
He was about to pull away when I grabbed him and wouldn't let him ,,
Ruba; Bardaana!
He ran his hands across me, And I felt comfortable and calm, I totally forgot we were in the street. It didn't matter! As long as I was in his arms ,,
Ruba; 7abeeby we're in the street, I didn't notice!
Yousif; *chuckles* yallah namshy?
Ruba; just one more minute
Yousif; *chuckles* yallah namshy?
Ruba; just one more minute
We hugged for a while longer, and then let go ,, I felt as if I was reborn!
He drove while I stared at him, as he bit his lips trying to think .. I loved how his eyes would quickly move from the side mirror to the rare view mirror, He kept his forcus on driving, And I loved the way he drove! The way he turns the spining wheel,,After the long road we finally made our destination ,,
Tadrooon wain?
Tadroon wain?
Tadroon meta ra7 it3arfoon?
Next post :D Shireera 9aa7? :p
7abeebyy shireer my stalker :p LOOL! Lazgaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 9a7 7awoor? :p LOOL xD
Bye:D (6);;*************
7abeebyy shireer my stalker :p LOOL! Lazgaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 9a7 7awoor? :p LOOL xD
Bye:D (6);;*************
Thursday, June 3, 2010
The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-23
Finallyyyyyy! El7imdillah I was doing alotta studying! o 6ala3 enna my schedule el7imdillah rahy! I have alotta time! ,, Just wish me luck;** .. Fa hal post ana katbita awal whenever I took a break or before I went to bed, 3ashankom bss ;*** I guess it's long ,, Well according to the time I had to write it is ,, here goes ;***
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Previously...
I found my way out and waited for him there, near his car,, 1 minute, 2 minutes, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10! I got a sunburn and he still wasn't there, I've had it 6 minutes later and called him ,, No answer! I called again, still no answer! What is her doing up there I thought,
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I got up again and found him just sitting there in the mini gallery and smoking ,,
Ruba; Hellooo?!
He looked at me with a sided smile ,,
Ruba; shfeeek?
Yousif; Abeech itshofeen shayy ,,
Ruba; Shnu?
He pulled me to the first photo ,, He mentioned a name and date ..
Yousif; look closely!
I did! Ma fahamt shnu yabyy!
Ruba; she's pretty?
Yousif; look again!
Ruba; She has a mole on her neck?
Yousif; No! Look at me!
I looked at him in the photo, Nothing seemed catchyy ! .. I just didn't get it!
Ruba; You had a dirty beard back then?
Yousif; look at my eyes!
Ruba; shfeehum?
Yousif; where are they glued upon?
Just before I could answer, he tightened his grip on my wrist and moved to the other photo ,,
Yousif; What about this one?
To the next one
Yousif; What about this one?
And to the next one
Yousif; what about this one?
And to mine ,,
Yousif; what do you see here? Where are my eyes glued upon?
Ruba; *low shallow voice*on my eyes...
Yousif; and what about the others?
Ruba; *low shallow voice*they were looking elsewhere
Yousif; And what does that mean?
Ruba; that ..
Yousif; I love you!
My eyes closed, and it was like, the first time I hear someone who's angry with me say it! It felt strong, It felt meaningful ..
Yousif; I was just trying to make you feel the way I felt when I read the note!
How did he know it was me? haha! Who am I kidding?! Of course it was me!!
Ruba; Ba --
Yousif; also knowing!!! That you're totally over s3ood ,, I'm also over these!
Ruba; *sigh*
I don't wanna sound selfish and say "He said he would take me out to make me feel better and now he's making me more miserable" But it was totally the wrong thing to do at the wrong time! During all my problems that I'm facing! He still has to remind me of S3ood! And throw it in my face when I'm 2 inched away from breaking down? Saying he loves me was the sweetest. But he made me feel guilty! Everytime I remember s3ood, it's like ,, You know when you recall your childhood, And there would always be a memory of a wonderful doll, or some sweet sweet candy that your parents wouldn't allow you to get, only because it's best for you not to? Well s3ood was like that! Only I didn't allow myself! Eye was the one who said it's over! Eye was the one who broke up with him! ,, Sure I had my regrets at first, But then Yousif came into my life, and made it worth it! But everytime he mentions his name, everytime he mentions something about his uni! Every memory pops in my mind again and I can't help it!
Yousif; I'm welling to put them all behind me if you do so too
Ruba; I already did!
Yousif; Then why are you tearing up? Because you're remembering the things that happened!? Because you heard his name!? Because you're wondering what if I stayed with him!!? Riiigght?
I had no idea, I didn't feel like I was tearing up! Wasn't I over s3ood?
Ruba; yousif I.. I .. I didn't know! ,, I didn't feel .. I don't know!
Yousif; you don't know?
Ruba; uhh .. umm
I had no stee3aab left!
Yousif; I'm asking you a question and you don't know?!! .... I'm asking you are you tearing up because you still love him?
Ruba; No!
Yousif; are you tearing up because you're not over him?
Ruba; No!
Yousif; then why are you?!
A fantastic idea came to my brain after that blank minute ..
Ruba; I know ,, my contacts are hurting!
Yousif; shocking new for you honey, you don't wear contacts!
Or maybe a dumb idea!
Ruba; yousif I don't know why! But I know I'm over him!
Yousif; over who?
Ruba; him!
Yousif; who?
I knew he knew! I knew he was not stupid! He wanted me to day his name, even though he knew it would hurt!
Ruba; *silent sigh* S3ood! *low voice*
Yousif; Who?
Ruba; UGGGHHH! S3OOODDD!!!! I'M OVER S3OOOD OKAAY?!!!
I couldn't hold my tears no longer! I swept and he didn't hold me! He didn't even look at me! ,, I was crying alone in the same room with him ,,
Ruba; can you take me home now? please?
He grabbed my hand and dragged me to his car, and so we went to the co-op and seperated there. Not a word.
I drove back hom, And found Khalid arguing with dad. I didn't bother interfering and defend Khalid of course! I had my own problems and I was going through a rough time! I couldn't help but hear a few things ,,
Khalid; bs yuba may9eer! Mamdaak!
Father; Ya3ny ishtabeenyy asawyy? Akhaleeha hnak ib rou7ha?
Khalid; o khair ya 6air!? ka min gablik ma kanat ib rou7ha! Mu Qa9ib elsalfa!!
Father; la Qa9ib!
Khalid; Shil sibab! Laish chithyy mitmassik feeha o tharooryyy itrou7 laha?
I stopped on the 7th step of the stairs! I wanted to hear the rest! I wanted to know whyy!?
Father; l2anyy a7ibha!
*AWKWARD LONG SILENCE*
I froze, What did he just say? He LOVES her? E7ibha?! He loves another woman who's not my mom! He loves a stranger? He loves a woman I've never even met? He loves a woman whom I don't even know her name?! Who is she? Mnu ehya 3ashan chithyy tiyee faj2a o let's my dad fall in love with her? Mnu hathyy? I felt jealous! I felt malicious! For the first time in my life, I'm jealous of a woman who doesn't have her eye on my boyfriend! This time, her eyes were on my dad! Is it normal to feel jealous for your own dad?
I could hear Khalid stepping out of the chair and coming towards the stairs, That's when I continued climbing as if nothing happened and hoped he wouldn't see me when he reaches the stairs! You know my luck! Unlucky! All the time! Yep he cought me!
Khalid; min meta entay hnyy?
I stopped and closed my eyes shut really tight! At some point I thought it was just a nightmare and that I was going to wake up right now! And I would be back to my normal happy life!
I opened my eyes, And I was still in the same place! Unlucky!
Ruba; not long
Khalid; enzain emshay dary!
Ruba; actually long enough! I heard him!
Khalid; come to my room!
I didn't want to! I wanted to go to my room and cry my eyes out! But I had to follow him coz I didn't want him to get angry and then my day gets better =)
We got in his room, he sat me on the bed, he grabbed a chair and sat there, facing me.
Khalid; We have to prepare!
Ruba; Huh?
Khalid; He's never gonna be here! And we're gonna have to take care of ourseleves alone!
Ruba; I can take care of myself!
Khalid; And when I get married?
Ruba; I'll manage!
He gazed at the floor and went through deep thinking.
Khalid; Ok, here's the deal! Ana ma ra7 arta7! Ana akh6ib "her" o itkoun khi6ba 6iweela 3ala ma entay ittizawijain!
*BIIIIZZPPPPP* HOLD UP! Now if I don't get married ,, He won't?!! Fe position akhas min chithyyy? Ya3nyy I can decide whether they get married now? Or three years from now? Or not even at all!!??
Ruba; No! Khalid enta ma lik sheghil feeny! Enta ma tadryy allah shnu katiblyy! Get married malik sheghil feeny! Wallah I can take care of myself I'm not a kid! Plus dad said you're gonna live here, so it won't be a problem!
Khalid; La ruba, ma ra7 arta7! Entay ekhtyy! You're my duty now! Dad thinks we're old enough to take care of ourselves, but we can't! He thinks we don't need him any more! But we do! He has got it messed up and I don't want to do the same! Ruba please la itnaQsheenyy ib hal mawthoo3! Min elyoum o rayi7 kilmityy elly tamshyy, o I'm getting married after you do!
Ruba; Bu ..
Khalid; Oboi shakla rasim ib yahjir, and our granparents don't seem to mind! Since they agreed to his marriage! But I'll be here all the time, under every circumstance, no matter what! Forget him!
Forget him? HIM HIM? I went off track as he said "him"! Him! Him! Him! I knew he meant dad! But ,, "Him"! Akh 3ala him!
Khalid; a7acheech ana!
Ruba; .. eeh! Khala9 khalid la itsheel ham! You're too young for this!
Khalid; We both are! But we can't change anything, so we might as well fight and stand tall!
Ruba; emm
"Him" "Him" "Him"
Khalid; Ekhtyyy Qawiya 9a7?
Ruba; Emm!
Khalid; Shnu emm!? Goulaayyy EEEHHHH!
Ruba; Eh!
Khalid; EEHH!
Ruba; EEEHH!
Khalid; 3afya! Now don't worry about me! ,, Take of yourself and I will take care of you!Everyrthing will soon get better inshallah!
Ruba; Inshallah!
I dismissed myself and went to my room! I didn't cry ,, I was in moments of hopelessness and disgrace! I felt pity towards myself! Look at how my life turned out! I only had two things I love, And the third I wasn't sure! Khalid and Rinad <3,>
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Previously...
I found my way out and waited for him there, near his car,, 1 minute, 2 minutes, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10! I got a sunburn and he still wasn't there, I've had it 6 minutes later and called him ,, No answer! I called again, still no answer! What is her doing up there I thought,
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I got up again and found him just sitting there in the mini gallery and smoking ,,Ruba; Hellooo?!
He looked at me with a sided smile ,,
Ruba; shfeeek?
Yousif; Abeech itshofeen shayy ,,
Ruba; Shnu?
He pulled me to the first photo ,, He mentioned a name and date ..
Yousif; look closely!
I did! Ma fahamt shnu yabyy!
Ruba; she's pretty?
Yousif; look again!
Ruba; She has a mole on her neck?
Yousif; No! Look at me!
I looked at him in the photo, Nothing seemed catchyy ! .. I just didn't get it!
Ruba; You had a dirty beard back then?
Yousif; look at my eyes!
Ruba; shfeehum?
Yousif; where are they glued upon?
Just before I could answer, he tightened his grip on my wrist and moved to the other photo ,,
Yousif; What about this one?
To the next one
Yousif; What about this one?
And to the next one
Yousif; what about this one?
And to mine ,,
Yousif; what do you see here? Where are my eyes glued upon?
Ruba; *low shallow voice*on my eyes...
Yousif; and what about the others?
Ruba; *low shallow voice*they were looking elsewhere
Yousif; And what does that mean?
Ruba; that ..
Yousif; I love you!
My eyes closed, and it was like, the first time I hear someone who's angry with me say it! It felt strong, It felt meaningful ..
Yousif; I was just trying to make you feel the way I felt when I read the note!
How did he know it was me? haha! Who am I kidding?! Of course it was me!!
Ruba; Ba --
Yousif; also knowing!!! That you're totally over s3ood ,, I'm also over these!
Ruba; *sigh*
I don't wanna sound selfish and say "He said he would take me out to make me feel better and now he's making me more miserable" But it was totally the wrong thing to do at the wrong time! During all my problems that I'm facing! He still has to remind me of S3ood! And throw it in my face when I'm 2 inched away from breaking down? Saying he loves me was the sweetest. But he made me feel guilty! Everytime I remember s3ood, it's like ,, You know when you recall your childhood, And there would always be a memory of a wonderful doll, or some sweet sweet candy that your parents wouldn't allow you to get, only because it's best for you not to? Well s3ood was like that! Only I didn't allow myself! Eye was the one who said it's over! Eye was the one who broke up with him! ,, Sure I had my regrets at first, But then Yousif came into my life, and made it worth it! But everytime he mentions his name, everytime he mentions something about his uni! Every memory pops in my mind again and I can't help it!
Yousif; I'm welling to put them all behind me if you do so too
Ruba; I already did!
Yousif; Then why are you tearing up? Because you're remembering the things that happened!? Because you heard his name!? Because you're wondering what if I stayed with him!!? Riiigght?
I had no idea, I didn't feel like I was tearing up! Wasn't I over s3ood?
Ruba; yousif I.. I .. I didn't know! ,, I didn't feel .. I don't know!
Yousif; you don't know?
Ruba; uhh .. umm
I had no stee3aab left!
Yousif; I'm asking you a question and you don't know?!! .... I'm asking you are you tearing up because you still love him?
Ruba; No!
Yousif; are you tearing up because you're not over him?
Ruba; No!
Yousif; then why are you?!
A fantastic idea came to my brain after that blank minute ..
Ruba; I know ,, my contacts are hurting!
Yousif; shocking new for you honey, you don't wear contacts!
Or maybe a dumb idea!
Ruba; yousif I don't know why! But I know I'm over him!
Yousif; over who?
Ruba; him!
Yousif; who?
I knew he knew! I knew he was not stupid! He wanted me to day his name, even though he knew it would hurt!
Ruba; *silent sigh* S3ood! *low voice*
Yousif; Who?
Ruba; UGGGHHH! S3OOODDD!!!! I'M OVER S3OOOD OKAAY?!!!
I couldn't hold my tears no longer! I swept and he didn't hold me! He didn't even look at me! ,, I was crying alone in the same room with him ,,
Ruba; can you take me home now? please?
He grabbed my hand and dragged me to his car, and so we went to the co-op and seperated there. Not a word.
I drove back hom, And found Khalid arguing with dad. I didn't bother interfering and defend Khalid of course! I had my own problems and I was going through a rough time! I couldn't help but hear a few things ,,
Khalid; bs yuba may9eer! Mamdaak!
Father; Ya3ny ishtabeenyy asawyy? Akhaleeha hnak ib rou7ha?
Khalid; o khair ya 6air!? ka min gablik ma kanat ib rou7ha! Mu Qa9ib elsalfa!!
Father; la Qa9ib!
Khalid; Shil sibab! Laish chithyy mitmassik feeha o tharooryyy itrou7 laha?
I stopped on the 7th step of the stairs! I wanted to hear the rest! I wanted to know whyy!?
Father; l2anyy a7ibha!
*AWKWARD LONG SILENCE*
I froze, What did he just say? He LOVES her? E7ibha?! He loves another woman who's not my mom! He loves a stranger? He loves a woman I've never even met? He loves a woman whom I don't even know her name?! Who is she? Mnu ehya 3ashan chithyy tiyee faj2a o let's my dad fall in love with her? Mnu hathyy? I felt jealous! I felt malicious! For the first time in my life, I'm jealous of a woman who doesn't have her eye on my boyfriend! This time, her eyes were on my dad! Is it normal to feel jealous for your own dad?
I could hear Khalid stepping out of the chair and coming towards the stairs, That's when I continued climbing as if nothing happened and hoped he wouldn't see me when he reaches the stairs! You know my luck! Unlucky! All the time! Yep he cought me!
Khalid; min meta entay hnyy?
I stopped and closed my eyes shut really tight! At some point I thought it was just a nightmare and that I was going to wake up right now! And I would be back to my normal happy life!
I opened my eyes, And I was still in the same place! Unlucky!
Ruba; not long
Khalid; enzain emshay dary!
Ruba; actually long enough! I heard him!
Khalid; come to my room!
I didn't want to! I wanted to go to my room and cry my eyes out! But I had to follow him coz I didn't want him to get angry and then my day gets better =)
We got in his room, he sat me on the bed, he grabbed a chair and sat there, facing me.
Khalid; We have to prepare!
Ruba; Huh?
Khalid; He's never gonna be here! And we're gonna have to take care of ourseleves alone!
Ruba; I can take care of myself!
Khalid; And when I get married?
Ruba; I'll manage!
He gazed at the floor and went through deep thinking.
Khalid; Ok, here's the deal! Ana ma ra7 arta7! Ana akh6ib "her" o itkoun khi6ba 6iweela 3ala ma entay ittizawijain!
*BIIIIZZPPPPP* HOLD UP! Now if I don't get married ,, He won't?!! Fe position akhas min chithyyy? Ya3nyy I can decide whether they get married now? Or three years from now? Or not even at all!!??
Ruba; No! Khalid enta ma lik sheghil feeny! Enta ma tadryy allah shnu katiblyy! Get married malik sheghil feeny! Wallah I can take care of myself I'm not a kid! Plus dad said you're gonna live here, so it won't be a problem!
Khalid; La ruba, ma ra7 arta7! Entay ekhtyy! You're my duty now! Dad thinks we're old enough to take care of ourselves, but we can't! He thinks we don't need him any more! But we do! He has got it messed up and I don't want to do the same! Ruba please la itnaQsheenyy ib hal mawthoo3! Min elyoum o rayi7 kilmityy elly tamshyy, o I'm getting married after you do!
Ruba; Bu ..
Khalid; Oboi shakla rasim ib yahjir, and our granparents don't seem to mind! Since they agreed to his marriage! But I'll be here all the time, under every circumstance, no matter what! Forget him!
Forget him? HIM HIM? I went off track as he said "him"! Him! Him! Him! I knew he meant dad! But ,, "Him"! Akh 3ala him!
Khalid; a7acheech ana!
Ruba; .. eeh! Khala9 khalid la itsheel ham! You're too young for this!
Khalid; We both are! But we can't change anything, so we might as well fight and stand tall!
Ruba; emm
"Him" "Him" "Him"
Khalid; Ekhtyyy Qawiya 9a7?
Ruba; Emm!
Khalid; Shnu emm!? Goulaayyy EEEHHHH!
Ruba; Eh!
Khalid; EEHH!
Ruba; EEEHH!
Khalid; 3afya! Now don't worry about me! ,, Take of yourself and I will take care of you!Everyrthing will soon get better inshallah!
Ruba; Inshallah!
I dismissed myself and went to my room! I didn't cry ,, I was in moments of hopelessness and disgrace! I felt pity towards myself! Look at how my life turned out! I only had two things I love, And the third I wasn't sure! Khalid and Rinad <3,>
Out of hopelessness and sadness, I decided to sleep and hoped not to wake up! I had no reason to wake up! (You may have noticed enna whenever she feels sad she goes to bed, Some people do that to avoide sadness, But tara it doesn't work, You never wake up feeling fresh or happy! You're just posponing the sadness for a few hours later! Which is baaad :p! Don't do it wallah :p! Ana min elnou3 elly etha thag khilgy adish el7amaam atsabba7 :p! Weird huh? Elly sa3aat ekoun 7ail thayig khilgy adish atsabba7 a6la3 atnashaf o arid atsaba7 marra thanya xD LOOL! Wallah it's soo funny days later :p ,, 3adyy 3adyy ;p )
I woke up at 2 am ,, I woke up feeling so thirsty, I looked around my room for a bottle, But I didn't find it. which I thought was weird because I always have at least two bottles in my mini fridge, So I had to run downstairs, I grabbed my phone on my way down along with my pink flip flops ,, "Chakchakt" bil phone on my way down, and came to find a msg from yousif
From Moron;
I know I haven't made it better for you, Sorry, Let's make it up tomorrow;*
I know I haven't made it better for you, Sorry, Let's make it up tomorrow;*
I got the water and got back to my room, and overheard my brother talking on the phone, like the usual, walking around in the living room ,,
Khalid; 7abeebtyy mayseer tishireen ,, Hehehe ,, adryy adryy la 3ady I manage ,, Baitna 9akhaaa ma ittakhayilain killa chithyy ,, eeh enshallah bachir natrisa 3yaal! ,, hehehe fidait elly yisti7oun wallah! ,,
I smiled at his sweet love talk, and went back to my room. And found the courage to reply to yousif ,,
To Moron;
I'll see enshallah I'll make it;*
I'll see enshallah I'll make it;*
A minute later
From Moron;
ok 7abeebty, shimga3dich lay hal 7azza?
From Moron;
ok 7abeebty, shimga3dich lay hal 7azza?
I was already buzzed off ,, I replied the next morning as I was getting ready for uni
To Moron;
Sorry I fell asleep, I was thirsty fa ga3adt min elnoum ,,
Sorry I fell asleep, I was thirsty fa ga3adt min elnoum ,,
A minute later
From Moron;
Ah 9a7 elnoum 7ayaty entay, ish9ar 3ala elyoum?
From Moron;
Ah 9a7 elnoum 7ayaty entay, ish9ar 3ala elyoum?
To Moron;
Oooh! I totally forgot I was half asleep when I read your msg, I didn't ask khalid, or dad, whatever ..
Oooh! I totally forgot I was half asleep when I read your msg, I didn't ask khalid, or dad, whatever ..
From Moron;
Ask him over the phone ,,
Ask him over the phone ,,
I was in the cafe at that time, and guess who came and sat to the table a few steps away?
Guess,
Guess, Guess!
Chinnaaa...?
Chinnaaa...?
BASMA!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Shockingly (Random)
Fe galby shay bagoulah..
w Aby tisma3ny lil aakhir..
Ana kil la7tha lik oulah..
Ta3ab galby o oho 9abir..
Aby atgarrab ana eldinyaak..
o it9eer 3younik aw6anyy..
o a3eesh a7la el3omir wiyaak..
o ansa bjambik a7zaanyy..
Ya kil mnaaay ,, o hana dinyaay ..
A7ibik min gabl ma3rif ma3anyy el7ub o elgheera..
7ananik sir 7ubby lik..
7ananik ma aby ghairah..
Min awal ma tilaagaina..
o galby 9ar fee edainik..
Nisait el3alam o jeetiik..
Adawir 7ilmy fe 3ainik..
Aby at'harrab min ashjanyy..
o a3eesh ib gorbik azmanyy..
o kil ma yintihyy 3omryy..
Bi7obbik yinwilid thanyy..
Bagadim lak 3a6aaya el7ub..
7aneeny, lahfityy, sneenyy..
Ekhith a9ghar hadaya elwiid..
Ekhith 3ainy, ekhith 3ainy..
Ya Kil Mnaay, o Hana Dinyaaay!! ..
3ajeeba lighniya 9a7? 3ajeeba elkalimaat 9aa7? Esh7alaat'ha 9a7?
Guess what?
I never felt anything like this before. Yes, I've never been in love! Here's Why:
1) My parents trust me with everything, And I don't wanna disappoint them. Yes I have siblings who are in love. Bs mo ana! Not Me! I would never do it!
2) I'm too fragile, And too sensitive for a relationship! If my heart broke, It could never unbreak!
3) I wouldn't be able to focus on my studies if I were in love! If I have a crush I get bad grades and day dream during classes! Etha love 9ijyy shi9eer feny!?
4) Guys who are actually worthy are very hard to find.
5) They always say "Your first love is the hardest to forget" Well guess what? I don't wanna forget! I want my first love to be my last love! But how can I have that, if I'm not sure my first love is planning to marry me? Marrying another guy, who's not my first love would literally kill me! It's too risky! There are girls who were lucky mashallah, and they're first love married them! Bs how can I know enna I will be like that? It's way too risky!
6) I don't know how it works! I just can't understand how people do it! They would say "it's simple, you just know the guy, and you both fall in love" IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE!!!!
7) What would I gain if I were in a relationship? It'll make me happy for one day, And then sad the next. And then happy the day after that! It will make my mood jump to everything which is so confusing and discomforting!
8) I love independence! I'm like "Independent obsessed"! I don't even let the maids help me! I never let anyone help me! I love doing things on my own. And I love being able to do it alone! I hate people interfering and try to "help" me! I hate it! It's bad I know!
9) I don't like the thought of "Someone" making me happy! I am happy! And I don't need other people to control my happiness, or my mood! I am happy no matter what! Why would I be unhappy if he didn't call, or if he didn't ask about me? Why should I let "Him" control my happiness?!!!?
10) True, pure love is something else! If we love each other, we would know the best for each other, And would want it for one another. And by that we wouldn't have a relationship, both of us would know it's wrong! I would want the best for him, And he would want the best for me! He wouldn't want me to fail my parent's trust because he "LOVES" me! He wouldn't want me to be unhappy if he was gone because he "LOVES" me! I wouldn't want him to talk to me while he should be studying because I "LOVE" him! I wouldn't him not to travel and stay with me because I "LOVE" him!
There you go,, 10 good reasons! I respect people people who are in love and have a relationship! Maybe they're different! Maybe they can handle love! I CAN'T! I chicken out! I'm too weak! I admit it! For the rest allah ywafigkom, I'm not against the idea. I'm just against it for me. I would love to know what love feels like! I would love to be loved! I would love to love! But I can't ;(!
w Aby tisma3ny lil aakhir..
Ana kil la7tha lik oulah..
Ta3ab galby o oho 9abir..
Aby atgarrab ana eldinyaak..
o it9eer 3younik aw6anyy..
o a3eesh a7la el3omir wiyaak..
o ansa bjambik a7zaanyy..
Ya kil mnaaay ,, o hana dinyaay ..
A7ibik min gabl ma3rif ma3anyy el7ub o elgheera..
7ananik sir 7ubby lik..
7ananik ma aby ghairah..
Min awal ma tilaagaina..
o galby 9ar fee edainik..
Nisait el3alam o jeetiik..
Adawir 7ilmy fe 3ainik..
Aby at'harrab min ashjanyy..
o a3eesh ib gorbik azmanyy..
o kil ma yintihyy 3omryy..
Bi7obbik yinwilid thanyy..
Bagadim lak 3a6aaya el7ub..
7aneeny, lahfityy, sneenyy..
Ekhith a9ghar hadaya elwiid..
Ekhith 3ainy, ekhith 3ainy..
Ya Kil Mnaay, o Hana Dinyaaay!! ..
3ajeeba lighniya 9a7? 3ajeeba elkalimaat 9aa7? Esh7alaat'ha 9a7?
Guess what?
I never felt anything like this before. Yes, I've never been in love! Here's Why:
1) My parents trust me with everything, And I don't wanna disappoint them. Yes I have siblings who are in love. Bs mo ana! Not Me! I would never do it!
2) I'm too fragile, And too sensitive for a relationship! If my heart broke, It could never unbreak!
3) I wouldn't be able to focus on my studies if I were in love! If I have a crush I get bad grades and day dream during classes! Etha love 9ijyy shi9eer feny!?
4) Guys who are actually worthy are very hard to find.
5) They always say "Your first love is the hardest to forget" Well guess what? I don't wanna forget! I want my first love to be my last love! But how can I have that, if I'm not sure my first love is planning to marry me? Marrying another guy, who's not my first love would literally kill me! It's too risky! There are girls who were lucky mashallah, and they're first love married them! Bs how can I know enna I will be like that? It's way too risky!
6) I don't know how it works! I just can't understand how people do it! They would say "it's simple, you just know the guy, and you both fall in love" IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE!!!!
7) What would I gain if I were in a relationship? It'll make me happy for one day, And then sad the next. And then happy the day after that! It will make my mood jump to everything which is so confusing and discomforting!
8) I love independence! I'm like "Independent obsessed"! I don't even let the maids help me! I never let anyone help me! I love doing things on my own. And I love being able to do it alone! I hate people interfering and try to "help" me! I hate it! It's bad I know!
9) I don't like the thought of "Someone" making me happy! I am happy! And I don't need other people to control my happiness, or my mood! I am happy no matter what! Why would I be unhappy if he didn't call, or if he didn't ask about me? Why should I let "Him" control my happiness?!!!?
10) True, pure love is something else! If we love each other, we would know the best for each other, And would want it for one another. And by that we wouldn't have a relationship, both of us would know it's wrong! I would want the best for him, And he would want the best for me! He wouldn't want me to fail my parent's trust because he "LOVES" me! He wouldn't want me to be unhappy if he was gone because he "LOVES" me! I wouldn't want him to talk to me while he should be studying because I "LOVE" him! I wouldn't him not to travel and stay with me because I "LOVE" him!
There you go,, 10 good reasons! I respect people people who are in love and have a relationship! Maybe they're different! Maybe they can handle love! I CAN'T! I chicken out! I'm too weak! I admit it! For the rest allah ywafigkom, I'm not against the idea. I'm just against it for me. I would love to know what love feels like! I would love to be loved! I would love to love! But I can't ;(!
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