Shockingly (Random)

Fe galby shay bagoulah..
w Aby tisma3ny lil aakhir..
Ana kil la7tha lik oulah..
Ta3ab galby o oho 9abir..
Aby atgarrab ana eldinyaak..
o it9eer 3younik aw6anyy..
o a3eesh a7la el3omir wiyaak..
o ansa bjambik a7zaanyy..
Ya kil mnaaay ,, o hana dinyaay ..
A7ibik min gabl ma3rif ma3anyy el7ub o elgheera..
7ananik sir 7ubby lik..
7ananik ma aby ghairah..
Min awal ma tilaagaina..
o galby 9ar fee edainik..
Nisait el3alam o jeetiik..
Adawir 7ilmy fe 3ainik..
Aby at'harrab min ashjanyy..
o a3eesh ib gorbik azmanyy..
o kil ma yintihyy 3omryy..
Bi7obbik yinwilid thanyy..
Bagadim lak 3a6aaya el7ub..
7aneeny, lahfityy, sneenyy..
Ekhith a9ghar hadaya elwiid..
Ekhith 3ainy, ekhith 3ainy..
Ya Kil Mnaay, o Hana Dinyaaay!! ..



3ajeeba lighniya 9a7? 3ajeeba elkalimaat 9aa7? Esh7alaat'ha 9a7?

Guess what?

I never felt anything like this before. Yes, I've never been in love! Here's Why:

1) My parents trust me with everything, And I don't wanna disappoint them. Yes I have siblings who are in love. Bs mo ana! Not Me! I would never do it!
2) I'm too fragile, And too sensitive for a relationship! If my heart broke, It could never unbreak!
3) I wouldn't be able to focus on my studies if I were in love! If I have a crush I get bad grades and day dream during classes! Etha love 9ijyy shi9eer feny!?
4) Guys who are actually worthy are very hard to find.
5) They always say "Your first love is the hardest to forget" Well guess what? I don't wanna forget! I want my first love to be my last love! But how can I have that, if I'm not sure my first love is planning to marry me? Marrying another guy, who's not my first love would literally kill me! It's too risky! There are girls who were lucky mashallah, and they're first love married them! Bs how can I know enna I will be like that? It's way too risky!
6) I don't know how it works! I just can't understand how people do it! They would say "it's simple, you just know the guy, and you both fall in love" IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE!!!!
7) What would I gain if I were in a relationship? It'll make me happy for one day, And then sad the next. And then happy the day after that! It will make my mood jump to everything which is so confusing and discomforting!
8) I love independence! I'm like "Independent obsessed"! I don't even let the maids help me! I never let anyone help me! I love doing things on my own. And I love being able to do it alone! I hate people interfering and try to "help" me! I hate it! It's bad I know!
9) I don't like the thought of "Someone" making me happy! I am happy! And I don't need other people to control my happiness, or my mood! I am happy no matter what! Why would I be unhappy if he didn't call, or if he didn't ask about me? Why should I let "Him" control my happiness?!!!?
10) True, pure love is something else! If we love each other, we would know the best for each other, And would want it for one another. And by that we wouldn't have a relationship, both of us would know it's wrong! I would want the best for him, And he would want the best for me! He wouldn't want me to fail my parent's trust because he "LOVES" me! He wouldn't want me to be unhappy if he was gone because he "LOVES" me! I wouldn't want him to talk to me while he should be studying because I "LOVE" him! I wouldn't him not to travel and stay with me because I "LOVE" him!

There you go,, 10 good reasons! I respect people people who are in love and have a relationship! Maybe they're different! Maybe they can handle love! I CAN'T! I chicken out! I'm too weak! I admit it! For the rest allah ywafigkom, I'm not against the idea. I'm just against it for me. I would love to know what love feels like! I would love to be loved! I would love to love! But I can't ;(!