The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-9

Previously...

From yousif;
Wainich min ghair shar? Ma sima3na 9outich elyoum?

Ugh! I reprogrammed his number into "moron" ,, then switched off my phone, and slept!

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2 DAYS LATER;

I went off to college, wearing the simplest thing I found, light blue pants and a white tshirt, I drove my range rover to college, I found my friends in the coffee shop ..

Ruba; hey, quick kisses, I'm late for class
Rinad + basma; *blow kisses*

I held my mug, and I was walking quickly to the class .. elQa3a was kind of empty, coz hal maada ma7ad yabeha! Bs ana makhthat'ha 3ashan itrafi3 mu3adily, I saw this girl! THE GIRL! You know the one at the parttyy?! She was playing with her hair, and chatting with her friends who were gathered around her. I burned at that moment. And figured I should sit some place far far away. The only place available was beside a bunch of dudes who were laughing. Whatever! I sat kind of next to them. They froze and stopped laughing! Shnu awal mara itshofoon bint? … I was paying attention to the doctor. I was a good girl, trying to avoid the girl, and also trying to avoid the guys. 3ogob ma khali9at elmu7athara, I was going to the door, and so was the girl, our eyes met! And yes I wanted to kill her! She had this huge smile that said "I love s3ood" I know that smile! I had it for a year! And now she stole it from me!!!! .. I walked forward, controlling my temper, I found basma sitting at the coffee shop, alone, reading a book ..

Ruba; hey nerd! Are you always at the coffee shop?

Basma put her book down

Basma; haha, shiftay?

Ana ga3adt at2afaf! The girl was standing in the way, talking to some guy. And she still has that smile! I wanna rip it off of her face! ..

Basma; shfech?

She looked back and forth, at me and the girl.

Basma; hey I've seen that girl before.. *trying to think*
Ruba; oh yeah! We saw her at the party
Basma; ohh! Definitely makes sence.
Ruba; *angry*
Basma; shfeech?
Ruba; that girl! *clenching teeth*
Basma; shfeha?
Ruba; hathy 7abeebat s3ood!
Basma; *Gasp* 9iijj?
Ruba; normally I wouldn't say the F word!
Basma; whoa! Chill!
Ruba; *mumbling*

She put her hand on my shoulder, then I started to cry! … I want him back! He's mine!

Basma; hey..
Ruba; basma shnu hatha? *gasp* ana a7ibah, o ohwa yadryy ib hal shay *gasp* I can't live without him wallah! I literally can't live without him! *gasp*

I couldn't take it any more! I got up and ran to my car, and drove off! .. I went to his university .. I parked there .. I really didn't know what I was doing?! Why am I here?! I just needed a last look at him! I'll see him if I'm lucky, I waited and waited. And yes, he did come out, he was talking to his friend on his way to the car. Tana7t ib wayh elwalad! He's perfect! He was once mine! .. his friend went back to the university,,s3ood continued walking, and grabbed his phone, he looked up at me. my mouth was open! I closed it quickly and held the steering wheel. I looked at it, and didn't make a move, until I heard a knock on my window! I looked up! Damn it, it was him! ,, I slowly opened the window..

S3ood; what brings you here?
Ruba; umm .. uh,, I have .. a friend, who's expecting me to pick her up .. yeah!

He knew I was lying, so he simply smiled. Ugh! I miss that smile! I looked at him with puppy eyes. And I hesitated if to smile or not. I closed the window and reversed .. what the hell was I thinking? I'm seriously damaged! He ate my heart;* ,, I love him! Ugh! He's too busy loving that girl ;@!! .. I switched on my phone, 11 MissU's .. 3 texts! .. 8 MissU's from "moron" ,, 3 MissU's From basma,,

From Moron;
Wainich?

From Moron;
Call me when you open your phone

From basma;
Ya 7mara! Wallah bathbi7iich! Ana barou7 your house!!

Wai3 itwahagt ib yousif now! Shifikny minna el7een? Ma 9adag 3ala allah git lah a7ibah!? .. ya waily min bsaim .. I went home, and her car was parked out side .. when I entered I found her sitting on the dining room, chit chatting with khalid. She turned and saw me ..

Basma; kahyy!
Ruba; kany!
Khalid; hahaha
Basma; entay laish chithyy?!
Ruba; laish shnu b3d? .. bsaim wallah sorry I just needed air
Khalid; laish ohwa ish9ayir?

And I gave basma the stare! Ya3nyy chithyy wari6atny, now I have to make up a story!

Ruba; I was bil mo7athara, b3dain faj2a 6ala3t!
Khalid; ana ishgayil lich?!*Angry*
Ruba; waaiih!
Khalid; kaifiich hatha mostaQbilich mu mostaQbily!
Ruba; enzain!

Basma looked back and forth among us..

Ruba; wayyy, a7is ib theeja, emshay basoom ni6la3 ensawyy ay shay!
Basma; eeh yallah emshay
Ruba; bye khalood
Khalid; bye, I hope you'll feel better. La it6awloon
Ruba; bin6awil!
Khalid; laish?
Ruba; 3nad feek bs!
Khalid; hahaa,,yallah 7i6ay balich
Ruba; ok .. bye

I sat on the passenger seat, and put my hand on my hand and leaned it against the door.. basma started the engine, and relocated the rear view mirror .. she drove off ..

Basma; wain tabeen enrou7?
Ruba; madryy
Basma; tabeen nakhith ranood?
Ruba; yeah ok
Basma; wait lemme call her
Ruba; k

She dialed her number ..

Basma; hii ,, ranood ana o ruba binrou7 entimasha tiyeen? .. ya 7mara laish? .. fine fine! Khal yinfi3iich chalbiich! .. o salamat I guess ;p .. ok bye .. I love you too ,, you9al ,, bye
Ruba; shetgoul?
Basma; hmph! Her little puppy is sick, o she has to take care of him, o itsalim 3alaich itgoul sorry she couldn't make it.
Ruba; oh 3adyy ..
Basma; so missy? Wain binrou7?
Ruba; madryy
Basma; I'm driving in circles tara!
Ruba; madryy bsaim, just pick any place that's quiet..
Basma; the beach?
Ruba; ok

We went to the beach, we sat on a bench, and we were talking normally ..

Basma; … ambaih itkhayilay it3arfeen shnu ana tijamadt ib mokanyy!!
Ruba; haha .. *fakes laughter*
Basma; afa! Lahadarja salfity sakheefa? *jokes*
Ruba; no no. t2! Wai3 basoom I want to live my life normally! I'm trying!
Basma; aww 7ayatyy! Is there any way I could help?
Ruba; just knowing that you're there beside me helps ,, wallah
Basma; 7abeebtyy, a7ibich wallah;*
Ruba; ana akthar

I held her hand and looked away, I was about to cry, o I didn't want that attention, the attention that's "aww, why are you crying" and blah blah blah! I really want to live my life normally without s3ood! I can do that! Right? .. so after a while, we got bored so we went back home .. when I was about to sleep ,, yousif called a couple of times, but I ignored, and then he wouldn't stop calling!!! .. so I picked up

Ruba; na3am?
Yousif; laish elnafsiya?
Ruba; maku shay, khair?
Yousif; if this is a bad time I'll call later
Ruba; no it's not, goul?
Yousif; ok!,,umm,,shbitsaween bachir?
Ruba; ma 3indy shay, laish?
Yousif; maybe a3zimich 3al 3asha?
Ruba; umm

Many thoughts came to my mind at that moment. I know it's wrong, I know I'm not in love with him, I know this is just some kind of revenge 7ag s3ood. I know THIS IS WRONG! But I was so fed up, and I needed to live my life! ..

Ruba; ok
Yousif; okay?? .. *low voice* YES!!!
Ruba; aha! I said ok!
Yousif; ok ok, la it3a9been!
Ruba; haha *bil Qa9ib*
Yousif; Nino elba7ar, ok?
Ruba; fine
Yousif; 8?
Ruba; 7
Yousif; ok, see you there
Ruba; bye

I'm really nafsiya with him. I hate the guy! What am I supposed to do? .. I kept it as a secret, coz I know what my friends would think or say..

NEXT DAY;

I wore whatever. I didn't care! But since it's nino fa ma baghait wayid ahalig, I wore a black dress, and mini cardigan. Black also, my hair was down but I put it on the side, make up was very simple. I parked outside, and wanted to put lipgloss, as I was searching for it, someone knocked on my window! Galby 6a7 ib ba6ny! I was so scared, I gasped and put my hand on my chest. When I looked!! It was yousif!! ,, I opened the window ..

Ruba; khara3tnyyyyyy!!
Yousif; haha, asif
Ruba; ishyaybik?
Yousif; wanted to tell you, you don't need anything, you're perfect as you are.

I faked a smile, and got out of the car, and we walked in the restaurant .. we held the menus when we sat down .. I was searching for something that would catch my eye, yousif was staring at me, I saw that from the conrer of my eye.. it bothered me! so I put the menu down ..

Ruba; am I some kind of show?
Yousif; shnu?
Ruba; ugh! whatever!

I held the menu back and searched again, ba6 chabdy 9ara7a! waii3! We ordered,,and as we were waiting for the order .. I was 7a6a reel 3ala reel o shaking my foot coz I was nervous! ..

Yousif; shfeech?
Ruba; mafeeny shay ..
Yousif; ma tabeen ensoulif?
Ruba; ent soulif
Yousif; hmmm ,, let's see ,, oh yeah ,,

He was talking, and talking. I was simply looking at him, my arms were crossed, I didn't really listen to a word he was saying, I was thinking of s3ood the whole time… yousif suddenly stopped talking ..

Yousif; ………
Ruba; ……..
Yousif; laish chithy itkhizeenyy chinich bit6igeny?
Ruba; ha..? wha..? haha! La2 la2, sorry sara7t shway, kammmil ..

Yousif looked confused, ok I admit, even though he's a jackass, he doesn't deserve this! ..

Ruba; I'm sorry
Yousif; don't be .. I get it, we'll take it slow, no talking ;p

A sided smile came upon my face.

Yousif; literally!
Ruba; What?

He motioned that he's not going to talk!

Ruba; you gotta be kidding me!

And he hit me softly on my hand, and motion that I shouldn't talk! .. when we got the order,, I didn't touch my food, so he pointed at my food and pointed at his mouth while his mouth was filled with food! Meaning I should eat ..

Ruba; eh bakil b3d shway bs..

His eyes popped out! "Bassich la itta7achain" .. it was kind of weird in a funny way .. how am I supposed to shut up? I needed napkins. And he insisted I don't talk!

Ruba; ok I quit! Let's talk!
Yousif; haha, I do this all the time?

And haven't people killed you?

Yousif; so talk ..
Ruba; there isn't much to say ..

He looked at me waiting for something ..

Ruba; ok! ,, fine! Let's seee .. what do you wanna hear?
Yousif; talk about your personality ..
Ruba; well, I'm calm, when I compare myself with my friends, I'm cheerful, or was, I don't know..umm..I'm a a fast learner, I find it easy to communicate with others. I put myself in their shoes..

Wai3 this is really silly!

Yousif; mhmm ..?

I don't wanna talk any more!!!!

Ruba; what about you?

Perfect! Turn the conversation to him, o aftak ana ;)

Yousif; I'm always misunderstood, I'm very patient, I like animals, I like reading, lots of things really..

ZERO INTEREST!!!!

Ruba; aha, nice .. listen I have to go now ha?
Yousif; bismillah!
Ruba; yeah, my brother hates it when I'm late!
Yousif; tawa 8 ella!
Ruba; yeah 3ala ma ou9al and that ..
Yousif; ok, khala9 ok, adfa3 o namshyy

Wai3 b3d yaby ewa9ilny el-car!?

Ruba; umm,,ok!

He payed, and he walked me to my car, and as I was reaching for my door, he put his hand on the door!

Ruba; what?
Yousif; a7ibich

Does he?

Ruba; me too

Yeah sure!!! In your dreams! UGH!! .. he moved a few steps backwards as I reversed .. I felt like such a bad person! Maybe he does love me? o ana I'm playing with his feelings!? I went to bed a sad evil person that night. I really felt bad!

NEXT DAY;

I woke up, reaching for my phone, found 2 msgs…

From Baba;
7abeebty ruba deri balich 3ala dirastich, kilha cham shahar enshallah warid, aby ashouf shahadtich kilha A! take care of yourself

From yousif;
Morning ;D

I didn't want to reply on either of them! .. Coz za3lana 3ala my dad! Shnu hatha kilha cham shahar?! Don't forget tara we need you, ya3ny you're our father! 9ij enna we're grownups, o we can manage, but that doesn't mean ennik takhith ra7tik!! ;s! o yousif maly khelga! ..

IN COLLEGE;

I had a lecture with rinad, I was taking notes ..

Rinad; pst
Ruba; ha?
Rinad; aby aghazlich
Ruba; haha, 9ij fathya!
Rinad; hach raQmy

She gave me this tiny note that had her number in it with a kiss

Ruba; hahahaha, ranood yal khibla!! Wallah maynoona!
Rinad; call me babe *wink*

I couldn't help but laugh my ass out! 9ij maynoona! .. I receieved a text from her minutes later.. ";*" .. ";$" .. "I'm gonna walk my dog today, wanna come?" .. "yeah" .. "cool, khanyeeb bsaim b3d" .. "ok, yaay wanasa" ..

AT THE END OF THE DAY;

We saw basma in the café writing something..

Rinad; BOH!
Basma; *Gasp* ya 7mara!

And she hit her ;p yahalo

Rinad; haha, shiftay wayhich?
Basma; eeh ish7alata, a7la min wayhich

Kamat 3alaiha! Seriously:P? wallah yahal!

Rinad; sim3ay yal yahil :p ..
Basma; *interrupts* 6a3 min yit7achaa *shocked*
Rinad; hahaa, listen!!! Binrou7 enmashyy nikey, ta3alay ..
Basma; allaah wanasa! Ok bayii, meta?
Rinad; umm ,, madryy, elmagharb?
Basma; yeah ok

LATER;

I was studying on my desk. Ga3 a3abil bil awraag! There were lots and I got so confused! Until I received a text from rinad "yallah badlay" .. abeeha min allah ana! I got up, wore my orangish pink juicy training, nikey shoes ;p ,, and waited for rinad to pick me up. I heard noisy horns. So I got down, I knew it was rinad. My brother saw me…

Khalid; mnu el7aywan hatha?
Ruba; heeyyy!! Ya shagoul! Hathy rifeejty!
Khalid; hahha! Sorry sorry madryy, hahaa
Ruba; enzain chub :p, yalah bye
Khalid; wain bitro7oon?
Ruba; ishtabyy?
Khalid; yimkin ayii
Ruba; ligafaaaaaaaaaa *jokes*
Khalid; 3naad feech bayii enzain?
Ruba; khaloooood *dala3*
Khalid; el7een khalood haa? Tawa malgoof!
Ruba; khalood!!
Khalid; wain bitro7oon?
Ruba; ifff! Binrou7 enmashy chalbha

Lal7een el7abeeba et6ig hirnaat!

Khalid; aby ayii
Ruba; ifff khwailiiid! *angry*
Khalid; goulay 7ag rifeejtich itrou7, o e7na eb nil7ag'ha!
Ruba; yal maleeQ!
Khalid; haha..

I called rinad

Rinad; zara3teenyyyy! Ya3ny chithyy?
Ruba; iff siktay khalood okhoi biyee! Egoul entay rou7ay o e7na ib nil7egich!
Rinad; ha?
Ruba; adry adry! Ma 3alaih yallah..okhoi o ligaftah
Rinad; haha, 3ady it's fine ;p .. wanasa a9lan(6)! ;p
Ruba; haha, yallah 7abeebty sorry ha;*
Rinad; don't worry

I sat down waiting for khalood to finish dressing. He wore grey sports pants, o an orange tshirt

Ruba; tara bard!
Khalid; 3ady
Ruba; kaifik

We got into his car, Touareg, I probably didn't mention that khalid is older than me, he's s3ood's age, 22. he turned on the radio, and we drove all the way to mamsha elsira .. basma was parked waiting for us. The four of us were walking, and a half counting the dog ;p .. kanaw gam esolfoon o chithyy ..

From Moron;
Wainich?

To Moron;
Bil mamsha

From Moron;
Enzain laish ma itrideen 3ala msgaty?

To Moron;
Ma wi9alny shay

From Moron;
Aha mashy, enzain aby ashoufich

To Moron;
I'm with my brother

From Moron;
3ady bs bayi ashoufich wamshy

I ignored. Maly khelga! .. as we were walking, there were a bunch of guys walking a dog as well. And nikey fitha7na! he's in love with their female doggy!

Rinad; ambaih! Nikey chub 3aiib!! Down boy!!

We were all laughing insanely,,until he slipped out of her hands, and went to the female dog and shesma! (btw hal salfa 9ij 9arat with me and my friends, you won't believe el-fashlaaaa!!) .. the guys were laughing their guts out! And rinad was too embarrassed to go over there and get her dog back. O ma laha wayh itgoul 7ag my brother! It was really embarrassing! That's why the guys got him off of her and handed the dog to rinad, 6ab3an her face was like a tomato! 9iij efashil! ..

Rinad; *whispers to ruba* way ruba enga9 wayhyyy
Ruba; 3ady 3ady..tikbireen o tinsain ;p
Rinad; ya 7mara

She hit me on my shoulder..I turned my head to the left, and I saw yousif in his car, looking at me! ishdaraah enna ana hny!?

Ruba; umm, guys, ana ta3abt bag3ad shwaya ok? I'll catch up with you later
Khalid; ok
Ruba; bye

I sat on a bench, waited for them to fade..when they did, I went to his car, he opened the window for me

Ruba; are you out of your mind?*angry* I'm with my brother!! Tadryy etha shafik I would be dead?!
Yousif; actually you wouldn't! 7ata lw shafny? Ishda3wa he knows who I am!
Ruba; ugh! yousiif stop stalking me! you're freaking me out!
Yousif; I wanted to see you! A7is min ziman mu shayfiich!
Ruba; ok yousif! You can see me! bs 3ad mu chithyy!
Yousif; I can see you?
Ruba; eeh
Yousif; if you promise enna we will see each other later on, I will drive off, if you don't bag3ad hnyy lain tamshoon o bal7egich elbait b3d!

7aywaan

Ruba; fine!
Yousif; promise
Ruba; I promise! Ugh! now go!
Yousif; *smile* mwah! A7ibich!
Ruba; yeah me too

This dude is insane! I walked faster so I can reach my friends and my brother…

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The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-8

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Previously...

I guess I will never forget s3ood, and I won't be able to love someone other than him. That's why I'm going to be single forever! My first love, my last love, killed me and brought me back to life, then killed me again for good;*

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You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could've been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that!?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you , Coz I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I will be there at the end of the day
I don't wanna be without you baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say,
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way
I don't want a broken heart
And I don't wanna play the broeken-hearted girl
Something that I feel I need to say
But up til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around,
But still I wanna put this out
You say you got the most respect for me,
But sometimes I feel like you're not deserving me
And still, you're in my heart, you're the only one
And yes there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
Coz I've been afraid that you would walk away!...

FEW DAYS LATER;

I was sitting in my room, studying, in other reality words I was staring at the book and thinking of killing the auther! .. my phone rang.. it was basma ,,

Ruba; hey
Basma; hey ya .. listen up! There's this party coming up! My cousin e3zimatny galat ly 3izmay your friends, and you're my "friends" ..
Ruba; allaah! Souds like fun! I'll see..
Basma; what do you mean "you'll see" little missy!?

I felt like basma had put her hand on her waist! The sound of her voice said that!

Ruba; haha, well I'm studying! I'm being such a nerd lately! Since you know exams are coming and all ..
Basma; listen punk! You and rinad are coming! It's on Thursday! I'll send you the address!
Ruba; bu…

She hung up! 9ij 7aywana :P! .. I received the address from basoom, "I just deleted it young lady :D" I replied .. e7garatnyy :p! she knows I didn't! Maybe I'll go .. ugh! I needed to take a break .. I ran downstairs for the kitchen .. my brother was sitting in the living room ,, he was on the phone, and I over heard a few things ..

Khalid; la laaa.. ana? Afaa! ,, wallah a7ibich .. haha! La itgoleeen! ,,

A7IBICH!? Chinny kibast 3ala okhoi ekalim :p? I didn't really care .. but when he saw me ,, he cleared his throat and talked in a serious tone.

Khalid; eh ra7 tiyee eldowaniya elyoum? ,, haha, la tith7ak 3alay!

Ok okhoi 9aida =) .. seriously :P? 7asbalah ana gou6yy ma afhaam? I was climbing the stairs

Khalid; enzain fahood akalmik b3dain ok? Yallah bye! .. rwaib!
Ruba; *stops climbing* hala?
Khalid; ta3alay shway
Ruba; *runs down stairs* khair?
Khalid; khair eb wayhich, ta3alay gi3day khan soulif!

Okaayy!? WEIRD!

Ruba; ga3adna! Goul …
Khalid; shlounich!
Ruba; zaina!?
Khalid; Hehe, ruba 7abeebtyy ,, ishsima3tay?
Ruba; umm!! *ticks finger against lips* Let's seee .. "la itgoleeen" o "a7ibich" :p?
Khalid; ohhhhhhh! Hehe *angelic* .. she's just a friend!
Ruba; khalood ;p! don't worry! I won't tell any one! And I know the difference between right and wrong.
Khalid; 3afya 3ala ekhtyy elsha6oora!
Ruba; eehh! El7een sha6oora!
Khalid; hehe *angelic*

Gimt from the sofa ..

Ruba; yallah excuse me barou7 adris! O la tashghelik hathy min dirastik!
Khalid; esimhaa mu hathyy

Then I sat down again with eyes as wide as they coud be ..

Ruba; what's her name?
Khalid; agoul?
Ruba; eeh eeh goul!
Khalid; la2! "agoul" as tach3eema tharba!
Ruba; ya enta yabo eltharabaa!
Khalid; haha, yallah rou7aay dirsaayy

Ugh! 7asafa I wanted juicy details ;p ..

Thursday;

I got a phone call from rinad…

Rinad; aloo? Heeyy entaayy bitro7een elparty?
Ruba; ummmmm
Rinad; eeh eeh! Please say eeh!
Ruba; eeh ;p
Rinad; wallah?
Ruba; yeah!
Rinad; yaay! I'll pick you up ok? Ana el7een babadil!
Ruba; ok.

The party we were going to, was like any other typical Kuwaiti girls party, bait wa7da, sirdaab, dj o indouur indoour nargii9 nargii9 lain enQashyy min elta3ab! O then comes the dinner buffet that's upsaits .. I wore a cocktail short dress, it had two colors, you see the chest part was silver, and the rest was black. It had this curve by the hips that made me look like I have an ass. Which is good, coz I don't have one! .. I had my bangs, my hair was down, and for the make up, well ,, black eye liner, mascara, and a red lipstick. I don't really like the full make up thing! I always like my make up to be simple and neat. I wore tiny silver earings, a swarovski silver necklace, micheal kors silver watch. And ugh! The shoes! Were black high heels. Not to brang, but I rocked! .. we got to the place, the basement was pretty amazing. They had lots of guests..I met basma's cousin, badriya. She was very friendly and nice, I danced a little, but then I got tired, grabbed a water bottle, and leaned over some sofa that had lots of girls sitting on it..one of the girls was holding her mobile and gasping of happiness..

Happy girl; omg omg! Look at him isn't he perfect?

I figured it was a picture she was all jumpy about, she also looks like someone from my university..

Happy girl's friend; lemme see! Awwww!! He's so cute! Mashallah! Allah ehaneech feeh
Happy Girl; 7ayatyy! 3ad it9adgeen we broke up for about a year, but now we're back on!
Happy girl's friend; cool! What's his name?
Happy girl; s3ood el-flany

WTF!? Ana 3a9art the bottle min kethir ma kint em3a9ba o maska nafsy! They kept talking but it's like I couldn't hear anything! His name kept replaying in my head! I peeked and saw his picture! Yes he is perfect! But he's my perfect! My s3ood! Mine! .. basoom noticed something's wrong with me!

Basma; hey? Are you having fun?
Ruba; *swallows* yeah
Basma; then why aren't you dancing? *dances*
Ruba; ta3abt! Listen bsaim! I have to go

I didn't bother to listen to what she has to say, I just left! .. youm wi9alt baitna, I noticed that my brother's car is not at the parking space, he's out! Ya3ny ana ib rou7yy bil bait! Ugh! I got in, and up to my room! Sat on my desk and thought "hatha min 9ijah?" .. "is he over me that fast?" .. "what does he see in her?" .. "this is all my fault" .. "doesn't he love me? I'm still in love with him" .. "that bitch"!! I really hated myself at that moment! I let s3ood go, ME! I DID! And now that he moved on, of course I was getting back to him at some point, I just wanted him to learn a lesson. S3ood is mine forever! Chinna I'm the bad guy here? Well I don't care! He's my s3ood! MINE! I want him back!! So I dialed his number .. hesitated whether I should call him or not! .. then decided not to! .. as much as he hurt me I will hurt him! Yeah! I'll call yousif! He loves me and s3ood is so deadly jealous of him! ..

Yousif; Alo!?
Ruba; hi
Yousif; hi?
Ruba; shlounik?
Yousif; ummm,, tamaaam!??!??
Ruba; 3araftny? Ana ruba
Yousif; eh akeed 3araftich
Ruba; hehe, listen yousif, you said you love me right?
Yousif; is this a trick question?
Ruba; no! answer me, yes or no?
Yousif; yes?
Ruba; do you still love me?
Yousif; why? What difference is it gonna make!?
Ruba; I think I love you too!

What the hell did I just say!??

Yousif; *chokes* WHAT?
Ruba; *Kalam sayi7* yeah yeah I know you might think it's "bullshit" but it's true!
Yousif; haha, so you copied me?
Ruba; yeah, I figured I'm in love with you, s3ood is no good for me!

Ugh! I LOVE S3OOOD WALLAAAHH :'(

Yousif; mhmm! ..
Ruba; shfeek?
Yousif; I've waited for you to say that since forever!
Ruba; haha, well I just did!

And I hung up!! Seriously ruba? Seriously? What the hell did you just do?! You don't even know the boy and you told him you love him!?? S3OOOD LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DOO!! Ballah hathyy shaghlaa? I never do that! I never imagined I would do such thing! Ugghhh!!!!! Resentment just ruined my whole life! .. I received a text from yousif a few minutes later. 6ab3an I programmed his phone number into my mobile…

From yousif;
Well ruba, I've imagined how we would be if we ever became a thing, and this is not it ;p ,, we got off on the wrong foot. But still there are more days to come, o enshallah I'll like what we might become.

To yousif;
;*

I didn't really know what to say! I do NOT love him! It's going to be hard to fake it!

NEXT DAY;

I woke up from the voice of my sms ringtone..

From basma;
Ya 7mara ya ruba! Goumay ana o ranood binrou7 elmukan liflany. Binzifich zaf 3ala elly ams! I don't want to shock you when I scream at you ;p

She knows what happened last night?! Haa?! .. I dressed up real quik, white sporty pants, pink tshirt, and a green scarf .. and off on the road .. and to the place .. a café ..

Ruba; shfeech?
Basma; entay shfech? Do you wanna tell me what that was all about?
Rinad; tik tok missy!

KABSA!

Ruba; well .. I was a little desperate..and I couldn't really help my fingers from dialing his number .. and I just .. I lost control!
Basma; what the hell are you talking about?

Ok a3teriif ennyy ebgara! How in hell would she know I called yousiif?!! She's talking about me leaving the party all of a sudden! BONE HEAD!!!!! Kint mitwahga, I didn't know what to say!

Ruba; what the hell are you talking about?
Basma; did you just repeat what I said?
Ruba; did you just repeat what I said?
Basma; cut it off! Rwaib! What's going on?
Rinad; yeah? Who's number have you dialed?

It's official .. I'm pretty much probably, possibly, most likely dead!

Ruba; ugh!! Fine fine! I'll say it! I wanted revenge! I was so mad at s3ood because he's dating someone else already! It's been weeks o hal 7aywan is over me?!! so I called yousif and told him I love him! *Said it in one breath + covering face with hand*
Basma + Rinad; *GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSPP*
Basma; are you out of your freakin mind!!?? *shocked*
Ruba; look, I know! Wallah adry enny 7mara! Bs I want to do it! S3ood deserves it!
Rinad; don't act like that rwaib!! You're better than this!!
Ruba; actually rinad, I'm not! I'm worse than s3ood ok? If he's with someone else, then so am I!
Basma; ok clearly you're still in love with s3ood! Bs rwaib this isn't the way out! This isn't the way for you to move on!!
Ruba; embala! I'll be happy with yousif! He'll make me forget about s3ood!
Rinad; would he now?
Ruba; yes! I'll love him!
Rinad; you already do! Remember you said that to him yesterday?
Ruba; haha! Well yeah!
Basma; what about yousif?
Ruba; what about him?
Basma; isn't it kind of risky playing with his feelings?
Ruba; ugh! That bastard doesn't even love me, he lied to me, I lied back! That's the way life goes!
Basma; umm ,, I don't know ruba,, maybe this isn't such a good idea!
Ruba; I think it's a great idea!
Basma; did you at least think about it?
Ruba; no!
Basma; please think about it before you go to bed tonight, ok? Do it for me! please! I don't want you to be another spite victim!

I just nodded! I was really upset! O I didn't wanna dump all my troubles out on my friends, b3dain I have bigger problems! Elly feeny emkafeeny! Plus I need them on my side and I can't do it without them! ..

LATER THAT NIGHT;

So yeah, I was thinking, I did was I was asked. Do I really wanna do this? No I don't! I know I still love s3ood! But I can't believe he's with someone else now? Ma3Qoola?! That fast? Ugh laish chithy esawyy fenyy?!? Ugh! S3ood! S3ood! S3ood!! So I decided to stop what I was doing, flirting with yousif! I can't believe I told him I love him, I hope he didn't buy that! .. I received a text a few minutes later..

From yousif;
Wainich min ghair shar? Ma sima3na 9outich elyoum?

Ugh! I reprogrammed his number into "moron" ,, then switched off my phone, and slept!

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-7

Previously...

Shoufaaww el9idfaa elwaQ7aa!! The four of us were standing in the middle of the way! And guess who cam around?! Yep .. S3OOD =)! He saw me, he smiled and came forward, until he noticed that I'm standing with two guys! Oh and yeah! One of them is YOUSIF!! That's when he froze! And had this look on his face that said "Entay shnuu?"! Ana hny itwahagt!...

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Shagouuul!! naQazt rinad!..

Rinad; shfeech?
Ruba; rinad!! Look into my eyes!!!

She looked into my eyes looking all confused! 3younyy kanat emghoorga! Eshdarany what's going on through s3ood'd head?!! Laish chithy e9eer feenyy! I really hope rinad could read my eyes!

Rinad; shfeech?

Damn it! She can't!!

Ruba; go walk your dog!
Rinad; ohh! Ok? Fech shay?
Ruba; *holding tears* no!
Rinad; are you sure?
Ruba; yes now go! *angry*
Rinad; okay!?? ..

She went and walked with salim, and I could hear him ..

Salim; shfeha rifejtich?
Rinad; madry! Faj2a 3a9ibat!

Ah rinad wallah entay ma tadreen ish9ayir feenyy!

Yousif; ha….
Ruba; *interrupts* DON'T! EVEN! THINK! ABOUT! IT!

And I walked up to s3ood!

S3ood; hahah! Seriously!?!! Ruba!!! Abyyy aQteliiiich!
Ruba; s3ood! Esmaa3!
S3ood; la asmaa3 wala shay!..

He was walking away! AGAIN!

Ruba; remember what happened last time? Shloun thalamtnyy o 6ala3t enta elghal6an? O yeet 3ala nafsyy o sama7tiik! Even though you really hurt me!

He was pretty far! I didn't know if he could hear me! I just wanted to spit it out! Because I've held it for so long!

Ruba; … if this happens again s3ood! I won't forgive you! Because it kills me that you don't trust me!

He stopped ..

S3ood; and it kills me to even THINK you're involved with yousif!

He got a few steps closer, and so did I ..

Ruba; but I'm not! S3ood I'm telling you! I'm not! Yousiif is a person I don't even know! He's the kind of person I see out in the street that I don't even want to know! I have zero interest in who he is!
S3ood; ta3al enta ta3al!

Shfeh? He was looking at something that's behind me, I turned around, and yes! Again! It was yousif! .. he looked disappointed!.. in me I guess?! Wai3 ishtaby?

S3ood; fahimny ishtaby?
Yousif; khair okhoi? Ana ishdarany enha hny?
S3ood; shouf la tig3ad tista3bii6!

S3ood pulled yousif from his tshirt! O s3ood looked really angry! .. I didn't want it to end like the last time! You all remember!! Ugh! So I had to step in and separate them!

Ruba; hey hey!!
S3ood; la la khaleenyy ana a3almaah!

I kind of like his mad jealousy! Ah he's so hot when he's angry ;p! mu waktaahh rubaa!! Focuuss!!

Yousif; laa!?
Ruba; ok! Chuuub! Both of you!! .. let me talk!!

They both zipped it! Surprisingly!

Ruba; wow! .. ok! Listen! My friend rinad has a boyfriend! Her boyfriend is this man's friend *points at yousif* .. ok? Ana madry enna ohwa hny! I just wanted to support my friend! She asked me to come with her to pick up the dog that her boyfriend bought her!

Then I took a deep breath, and walked away! Ya3ny seriously? Doesn't he know that this hurts me?! as much as I wanted to walk away and leave him behind, I wanted to take one last look at him! But I didn't! …

Dashait el-chalet looking very upset! .. yasmeena was watching tv, and basma was doing something in the tiny kitchen .. I just walked upstairs .. entered my room .. and cried myself to sleep ..

NEXT MORNING;

I woke up feeling a giant weight on my head! Ugh! A headache in other words! That's what happens when you cry yourself to sleep! .. I got up .. and into the bathroom ,, I sat on the toilet for 15 minutes! Not that I was doing anything, I was just so tired! Went by the sink, washed my face, and stared at my face against the mirror! What am I without s3ood? Ugh!! I hate that I love him! This is my last morning in the chalet! And I get to spend it crying over s3ood! I went down stairs, the lights were out, no one was awake! It was way too early! Dawn! I looked outside the sliding door .. and there was this amazing sunrise!! S3ood! S3ood! S3ood! ,, ifff! I took a hold of an apple from the fridge, grabbed the remote, and turned the tv on. I wasn't really watching anything! I just needed some sound that might comfort me! s3ood! S3ood! S3ood! …

9ali7; *itching his eye* shfeech?

I wiped my tears quickly..

Ruba; mafeeny shay!
9ali7; can you turn it down please?
Ruba; yeah sure.

I tunred the tv off, and went upstairs to my room..9ali7 was standing in front of the stairs ..

9ali7; I only said turn it down … I'm sorry!

7ayaty maskeen 7asbalah it'thayagt! He doesn't know enna I want to cry alone! So I ran downstairs .. coz kisar kha6ry .. and I gave him a hug! I never thought I would ever EVER hug 9ali7! ..

Ruba; don't mind me, I'm just a little tired!
9ali7; oh, are you okay?
Ruba; I will be! *fake smile*

Boy I really hate this! .. ugh! I needed fresh air! Aby ashim hawa!

Ruba; barou7 atmasha shway..
9ali7; hal 7aza?
Ruba; eh 3ady, 9ib7!
9ali7; if it makes you feel better, ok

I just left the chalet, and walked constantly..I had no idea where I was going .. I just walked! And found a nice isolated bench! I sat on it ,, took deep breaths .. and thought of what to do! I mean I want s3ood! I love s3ood! But he doesn't trust me! it won't work that way! He has to trust me! .. I settled down after a while and got back to the chalet house .. poor 9ali7 was sitting in the living room waiting for me ..

9ali7; ahlan!
Ruba; hi ..

I sat next to him ..

9ali7; *yawn* shnu tabeen itarayigain?
Ruba; madry ,, mu mishtahya shay!
9ali7; may9er, la eg3idaw rifejatich shawraw ba3ath shnu tab takloon

Shawraw? Wain ga3deen?

Ruba; yeah ok ..

The tv was on, 9ali7 was into the series, I was just staring at him.

9ali7; shfech?
Ruba; madryy ,, I thought wrong about you, I feel guilty!
9ali7; laish? What did you think?
Ruba; you would probably hate me!
9ali7; la2! Bs what did you think?

Umm! That you're an annoying little kid who wants to know everything about everyone with every little tiny detail?

Ruba; let's just saayy .. you proved me wrong! And I like who I see now!
9ali7; *smile* thanks
Ruba; no problem.

After a while, rinad came down ..

Rinad; ya 7mara wainich? I was freaked youm gimt o ma ligaitich!! Dawartiich bil 7amaam eb ghorfat bsaim ma ligaitich! Wallah I was so scared!
Ruba; well I'm here .. *tiny smile* don't worry...
Rinad; uh! Ams youm radait min … *noticed 9ali7 in the room* shesma! Ligaitich nayma! Baghair aga3dich bs gilt 7aram..
Ruba; eh thanks for not waking me
Rinad; sure ..

She wasn't really looking at me as we were talking, she was going through the small kitchen we had. Looking for something..

Rinad; where's the serials?
Ruba; near the microwave ..

She took it, and came sat down next to me,,

Rinad; hey! Shfeech?
Ruba; madryy
Rinad; Hmm..
9ali7; ana asta2thin.

He's sweet! Wallah! .. after he left …

Rinad; tell me!

I didn't really know what to say .. I just side hugged her, and ched a tear or two ..

Rinad; 7abeebty entay, la tabcheen *sad tone*

It was silent for a while, and then I told her everything!

Rinad; ohhh! 7ayatyyy! I'm so sorry! This is all my fault!
Ruba; la don't say that! It's not!
Rinad; la embala it is! I'll make it up to you!
Ruba; ranood la2! I'm just upset that s3ood doesn't trust me!
Rinad; oh! Ok ruba I don't mean to be mean! But he's madry shloun! He's the bad guy here!
Ruba; I know!! Bs rinad I really can't live without him!
Rinad; you can!
Ruba; ugh! It'll be really hard!
Rinad; don't worry! We're in this together!
Ruba; so you really think I should break up with him?
Rinad; ummm ,, if he doesn't trust you..? yeah
Ruba; yeah! .. *deep thinking*
Rinad; hey this is the last day ,, don't spend it being sad!
Ruba; ranood what else am I supposed to do?
Rinad; hmm ..

Madryy!! This was a bad time for me! I didn't know what to do! All I wanted is s3ood! I want him to trust me! I want to be with him! .. later that day .. I told basoom ,, she suggested I tell him how I feel! But what good will come from that? Madryy madryy! .. yasmeena, rinad, and 9aloo7 were outside on the beach. They were having fun with the new puppy "Nikey". Basoom was sitting with me, just sitting. No talking. And then …

Ruba; I miss him
Basma; call him! Go talk to him!
Ruba; should I?
Basma; yeah!
Ruba; umm ,, ok. Let me go bring my mobile.

I remembered that I didn't check on my mobile! Killish! Wala yeet 9ouba! I found it under my pillow! 6 msgs, and 15 missed calls!! All the missed calls were from s3ood! The msgs …

From s3ood;
I'm so sorry, wallah asef! I know I hurt you. I'm sorry

From s3ood;
Call me when you read this

From s3ood;
Ruba please call me, we need to talk! I'm worried about you!

From s3ood;
7abeebty ana shasawy bidounich 3almeeny! Please call me!!

From s3ood;
A7ibich

From 998xxxxx;
Ana asif 3ally 9ar! Killish ma kint abeeh e9eer. O allah ewafgich! O haman ana asef enny dazait lich msg, bs baghait ahawin 3alaich! O agoul lich allah ewafgich ma3a s3ood, o if you need any help don't hesitate to ask me. take care

Ugghhh!!! Shnu hathaa!!!!! clearlyy the last msg is from yousif, min 7achya ebayin. Mnuuu egoul ennyy I'm not confused! 7araam sa3oodyy feels guilty! Way ya rabby shasawy! Nizalt ta7at o ga3adt yam basoom, o warait'ha el-msgs!

Basma; awwwwww! Ok truth be told, both of them are sweet! Bs s3ood ana 7aQda 3alaih 9ara7a!
Ruba; mu kithryy! .. so what should I do?
Basma; like I said, call s3ood! Tell him how you feel!
Ruba; Madryyyy!
Basma; call him!

WAII3! MABYYY AKALMAAAHHH!!!! I HATE HIM ENZAIN!? I HATE HIM!

Basma; 3a6eenyy!

She stole my mobile, dialed his number, o 3a6atny el-phone youm rad…

S3ood; AKHEERAANN!? TADREEN ANA AMS MA NIMT! MASIK TELEPHONEY NA6RIICH ITDIGEEN 3ALAAYY! LAISH CHITHY ITSAWEEN FEENYYY!? HAA? ANA NISHAF DAMMY 3ASHANICH O ENTAY WALA EM3ABRATNYY! SHOUFAY RUBAA! MU ITSAWEEN FEENYY CHITHY MARA THANYA! WALLAH BAGHAIT AYEE SHALAIHKOM!*ANGRY*...
Ruba; …….
S3ood; ma it7achain!!?*angry*
Ruba; it kills me to be with you. And it kills me to leave you. S3ood shasawyy feek?
S3ood; ishga3 itgoleen?!
Ruba; maku marra thanya s3ood! Now I get to say "it's over"
S3ood; HAAAAA?!!!
Ruba; it's over!
Basma; *eyes popped out*
S3ood; min 9ijich ruba?
Ruba; you don't trust me, and you find it very hard to trust me. and I'm gonna make it easy for you, you don't have to!
S3ood; ruba I trust you!
Ruba; yeah sure! That's why you clench your teeth whenever you see yousif! That's why you thought I was with yousif! Because you "trust me"
S3ood; Ruba!!
Ruba; s3ood!! Bs khala9! Ta3abtny ma3ak! Ya3ny ma tadryy enyy a7is bil ehaana lama itshiik feenyy? With your FRIEND!!! Tadryy hathyy ishkobirha? .. khala9 s3ood! Khala9! La itgoul ay shay! Bs!

I hung up! 6ab3aan basma wayihhaaa galab alwaan!

Basma; entay yanaitay?
Ruba; bsaim tikfain! Wallah he deserves it!

We didn't talk much after that. I ran outside to 9aloo7 and the rest ..

Ruba; let's unpack! We're going home!
Rinad; so soon?
Ruba; yeah!

I looked like a person who doesn't wanna talk! So nobody argued with me. as we were leaving the chalet house. I saw s3ood waiting on a bench outside! I looked at him and continued walking! Ya3ny seriously? Ishtaby you show up el7een!?

FEW WEEKS LATER;

I was getting better .. I kept ignoring s3ood! Sure he showed up in my college a few times, but I acted as if he didn't exist! I had to change my number. Start a new life without s3ood! I vanished everything that would remind me of him. And about the necklace .. I had to take it off and put in a box that I hid in a drawer. I didn't really want to throw it.

IN COLLEGE;

Basma; waii3 ambaih bada3t bil emti7aan!
Rinad; haha! Tikfain entay meta ma bada3tay!?
Basma; t2! Waayyy my dad promised me a new car if I get good marks!
Rinad; la7ga 3al sayaraa!
Ruba; iff! I'm hungry.. emshaw entaghada!
Rinad; ok yallah. Wain?
Ruba; madryy ..
Basma; ooh oooh I know!
Rinad + ruba; wain?
Basma; it's a surprise. Ta3alaw my car, o you'll see when we get there!

We got in the car. I was sitting in the front passenger seet. Ranood was at the back, texting somebody, I'm guessing salim! .. we arrived at this amazing hotel!! Simply amazing! It was like you're on an island (6ab3an I'm making this up bs chithy khan7iis enna fe fanadiQ chithy bil Kuwait ok:P?) .. there was a restaurant..where the waiters were dressed in beij and Turquoise .. a waitress passed by holding a roud tray with an amazing juice with an umbrella that would make your stomach make noices! .. and there was an beautiful tiny waterfall ,, it gurgled amazingly .. and there was a tiny bridge right in the middle.. rinad hit basma softly ..

Rinad; why didn't you ever bring us here?

And then a cute hot waiter came by ..

Hot waiter; oh we just opened up ma'am!
Rinad; ohh! Well lemme tell you! Amazing job! This like heaven next door!
Hot waiter; *giggles* thank you ma'am, would you like to have a seat?
Basma; yeah .. non smoking please
Hot waiter; sure ma'am ,, table for three?
Basma; yes ..
Hot waiter; ok we have three tables available ,, the one nearby the waterfall , and the one near the lobby, and the one near the bridge ..

His accent mu 9ij! I've talked to a million philipene's before, but this one tops them all! Haha, I laughed a little inside.

Basma; we'll have the one near the waterfall.
Hot waiter; ok ma'am ,,

We sat. we ordered.. and we were talking while we waited for the order ..

Rinad; so? Rwaib! When are you coming back to the old you?

I was trying to look distracted by playing with the table cover .. and I did lots of things that didn't make sence!

Ruba; what old me? I'm still the same! *chuckles sarcastically*
Basma; the old you who doesn't play with tables and messes around with the salt and the ketchup to avoid looking into our eyes and tell us what you're thinking?!!

I put my hands down! And rolled my eyes!

Rinad; we're your best friends! Since when we don't tell each other every single detail?! All I ever heard from you the past weeks is "I'm fine don't worry"!

Is this some kind of therapy?

Basma; so spill!
Ruba; I have nothing to say! Like..I mean!..

They looked at me with sad eyes! But I don't want their sympathy!

Ruba; there's a time in your life! That all of us go through some time! .. and I'm going through that!
Basma; well ,, just remember that we love you! Ok? We don’t mean to put you under pressure! But we just really like to help, o take your time, bs please la it3aQbeen nafsich ok?

And she held her mobile trying to make herself look normal! I can tell she was really bothered for me! .. ugh! You guys are perfect! Bs shagouuuull!!

Ruba; I love you guys wallah! .. and .. *shakes head* s3ood! I miss him like hell! LIKE HELL! And I forgot what my life was like before s3ood! So I can go back and live it like the way I did before! This is really hard for me! I never thought there would come a day where "Eye" (Note; Eye means "I" I wanted to make it boldy because it's a big deal, bs it wouldn't show, so I wrote "eye" boldy) break up with s3ood! I thought he might dump me! but I never thought by any chance that I would! NEVER!
Rinad; well .. don't you wanna talk to him?
Ruba; LA2! Akhaf I soften..
Basma; hmmm .. what are you planning for?
Ruba; well I don't have a plan!
Basma; but you wanna be happy?
Ruba; yeah
Basma; without s3ood?
Ruba; mhmm ..
Basma; what are these cards for?

And she got out a bunch of credit cards, you know the ones that make your pupil turn into the dollar sign! Yeah! That!

Rinad; ooooooooooooohhh!
Basma; oh yeah! You're eyes ain't lying to ya!
Ruba; you really think shopping will help?
Basma; oh yeah! I read an article about it!
Rinad; cool!
Basma; so as soon as we're finished eating in this amazing restaurant, off to raya!
Ruba; raya?
Basma; oh yeah! The article said "pricey" ..
Rinad; tadreen ennich 7mara?
Basma; *sudden bursting laugh* laish?
Rinad; A) my mom will kill me. B) tha7ketich itfashil we're in an elegant place! Behave *jokes*
Basma; haha, remind me again! How many times have your mother killed you?
Rinad; a thousand?
Basma; and you're still alive aren't you?
Rinad; *thinks for a while* alright I'm in!

Basma looked at me waiting for my approval ..

Ruba; I'm so in! .. I haven't spent money in ages!

My friends laughed, and for the first time for a long time I laughed with them. It didn't last long, but I laughed.

We went shopping, I baught lots of things I don't need! I bought 'em just for my pleasure! .. ugh you won't believe how shoes could make my day! I bought like a dozen of 'em! .. I bought lots of things really .. I can't really mention! .. we sat at the coffee shop after we finished shopping, or after we assumed we finished shopping.

Basma; I want a moca
Rinad; espresso
Ruba; I quit coffee
Basma; *Long gasp*
Ruba; whaat? *giggles*
Basma; I'll gasp again if you would giggle!
Ruba; *giggles* stop that!
Basma; aahhh rwaiib I miss you!

And she gave me a hug!

Rinad; heyy! O ana bint elba6a elsoudaa?
Basma; ugh

She simply pulled ranood and we group hugged!..

Ruba; omg look at that guy over there! He's so effin hot!
Rinad + basma; *Gasp*
Basma; that lady is back on the game! O elsaan 6iweel ba3aad *shocked*
Ruba; hahaha! .. bsaim awal ma inriid elbait! I want you to hug the person who wrote the article about shopping! And tell him my dear friend ruba is so greatful and wants to marry you if you're single!

They cracked up!

Ruba; oh no forget I said that, I don't wanna get married, I'm better off single ;p

And they laughed again. I admit I had a great time. There were a few moments where I remembered s3ood, caused by seeing someone who looks like him. Or picking an outfit that has his favorite color. O going through men's clothes and wonder what he would look like in them. So I guess I will never forget s3ood, and I won't be able to love someone other than him. That's why I'm going to be single forever! My first love, my last love, killed me and brought me back to life, then killed me again for good;*