So Sorry

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Wallah I'm sooo 7addy sorry! My laptop eb ghaybooba ;'(! My parents emsafreen o 7altyy 7aala! I know enna a lot of you are waiting for the next post! o I know enna a lot of yuo stopped checking my blog because it's been a long time since I posted! Ma 3alaaih ma 3alaaiih! I SWEAAARRR enna when my laptop erid bil salama,,I will write the LONGESSTTTTT POST EVEERRRRRRR!!! Sam7oooooonyyyyyyyyyyyyy;;****

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-13

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Previously...

I looked at the photos again. I felt malicious. I didn't know why! .. yousif stood next to me and stared at them as well ..

Yousif; you don't like them?I stared at him as he was staring at the stupid photos!

I stared at him as he was staring at the stupid photos!

Ruba; no

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I left the room. And again, I was lost, it was very dark .. I walked a few steps with my hands on both sides making sure I don't bump into anything .. I heard him leave the room ..

Yousif; *shouts* RUBA?
Ruba; kanyy
Yousif; allah yhadaach bs!

He was scared for me, which was very cute! He turned on the lights ..

Yousif; lahadaraja you're jealous?
Ruba; Me?! jealous?! Hah-hum- (some sort of 6naza laughter) no!
Yousif; hehe, contradiction is cute!
Ruba; ugh! would you shut up and drive me to an amazing breakfast? I'm starving!
Yousif; ok ..

As much as I hated the idea of the photos hanging. I hated that I might be hanged someday! But the good part is that he used film, so that I won't be photoshoped or something .. any way, we drove off to a hotel, akhaf agoul el-esim yi6la3 da3aya ;p ,, ok I'll say it :p Crowne Plaza .. we had the buffet ,, and it was simply amazing .. I was tabbing the napkin against my lips ..

Ruba; emm emm emm! Latheeeth! Kramk allah
Yousif; 3alaich bil 3afya ..
Ruba; what are you doing for the weekend?
Yousif; umm ,, madryy wallah ,, elrabi3 biro7oon a cruise around..
Ruba; allah sounds like fun
Yousif; eeh, 3ad lal7een ma Qarart arou7 wala ma arou7 ..
Ruba; laiishh!? Rou777 ambaih 7adda wanasa! Lw ana minnik 7ad ommy arou7!
Yousif; yeah maybe I might.
Ruba; mhmm
Yousif; saraina?
Ruba; saraina..

He dropped me off at my uni, it was weekend that day ,, I went back home, stayed in my room 3ashan astaw3ib shilly 9ar! And wonder why the pictures bothered me! and wonder why I felt safe in his arms. And wonder why I even let him take photos of me, I could've said no! but I didn't! why!? .. but most of all .. I didn't know why I had to call him!!..

Yousif; alo?
Ruba; hi
Yousif; ahlain?
Ruba; radait elbait?
Yousif; eh, bakhith aghrathy w arou7 elshalaih ..
Ruba; mhmm ,, have fun ..
Yousif; enshallah ,, entay wi9altay?
Ruba; eeh ..
Yousif; any plans?
Ruba; la wallah .. bitrou7 the cruise?
Yousif; eeh, my friends hnak na6reenyy
Ruba; ah ok,, ok go have fun!

I hung up. I'm so stupid! Laish dagait 3alaiihh!??! Few seconds later ..

From Moron;
I'll miss you;* ,, if you need anything text me;*

To Moron;
Enshallah;*

This isn't good! I feel like I'm falling for him. I let him control me. I find it really hard to tell him no! .. any way .. I had to call both rinad and basma to tell them what happened ..

Basma; *gaassppp* khibla entaayyy!!?? 9iiij maynoona!!

Rinad; khoush khoouushh!! Ashwa film not memory card!

That’s what they told me! ,, maybe it was a bad idea. But there's something that tells me enna yousif wouldn't do anything bad. He's not that evil, madryy .. only time will tell.

DAYS LATER;

*Moron Calling*

Ruba; alo?
Yousif; yah hala
Ruba; hala feek ..
Yousif; shlounich shakhbarich?
Ruba; good, you?
Yousif; el7imdillah .. listen .. emshay ni6la3
Ruba; ok wain?
Yousif; nitmasha 3al ba7ar!?
Ruba; ok meta?
Yousif; el7een!
Ruba; NOW?!
Yousif; eeh eeh hahah

It was 7 am! This dude is such a morning person <3>


Ruba; enta shimga3dik hal 7aza?
Yousif; a7ib elba7ar el9ib7


Ahh <3>


Ruba; I see .. enzain yousif?
Yousif; hala?
Ruba; la…


I was interrupted by .. guess who!? Guess who was walking by with a girl in his shloulders?! Guess!!!! YEP! S3OOD =) when I finally start living my life! He shows up! O laaaa! He shows up with a girl!! Yousif; kamlay? Yousif noticed that I was staring at something far away, so he turned around and saw him. Them I mean! Then he tunred again to face me ..


Yousif; shnu ya3ny?! O khair ya 6air!
Ruba; ma..madryy ..


Nazalt rasy! O I could tell that yousif was very upset o masik nafsah! .. s3ood walked past us, he eyed me with a smirk. I ignored and looked at yousif ..


Ruba; not like I care!


I said that as tears were forming in my eyes. But hiding them from yousif ..


Ruba; I got someone better now! Right?
Yousif; *chuckles* yeah ..
Ruba; yousif ..
Yousif; 3younah?
Ruba; I'm yours


What did I just say?


Yousif; shnu?
Ruba; I'm yours. All yours. Yours only.
Yousif; you're mine?
Ruba; yes
Yousif; o ana killy lich.


I rested my head on his shoulder as the tear found it's way out of my eye, and dropped on his shirt. S3ood is now completely satisfied that I cheated. Which I didn't! but he got over me so fast, so why can't I? right? So I thought the best thing to do, is be with yousif! ,, I was falling for him, he's crazy about me, makes a perfect match! .. After a few moments of silence ..


Yousif; shfeech 7abeebty?


I'm now 7abeebtah <3


Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; shfeech?
Ruba; aby elkilma elthanya!
Yousif; *whispers* 7abeebty!

Aahh <3!!!!


Ruba; mafeeny shay as long as you're here!
Yousif; ruba?
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; 7abeebty?
Ruba; 3youn ruba?
Yousif; it7ibeenyy?
Ruba; eeh
Yousif; akeed?
Ruba; akeedaiin!
Yousif; bs ana amout feech ,, shil 7al?
Ruba; *giggles*
Yousif; fidait'ha;*
Ruba; esmilla 3alaik 7abeeby


Awal marra agoul "7abeeby" and mean it! With yousif though ..


Yousif; 7abeebich?
Ruba; min 9ij!
Yousif; wayyy!
Ruba; yousif?
Yousif; 3youn ahala!
Ruba; ma ra7 itkhaleenyy?
Yousif; la2! Ma 3aash min ekhaleech!
Ruba; enzain tathiQ feny yousif?
Yousif; akeed athiQ feech! Laish ma athiQ feech?
Ruba; etha shiftny akalim rifeejik ,, ra7 itshik feenyy?
Yousif; la ruba ana a3arfich 3adil. Ra7 aghaar akeed! Bs ma ra7 ashik fech
Ruba; ashwa


He put his arms around me, and sort of hugged me tight. I felt .. what's the right word? … Home! I felt like right there is where I belong, and where I'll stay for the rest of my life. I know I've hurt him, but he has forgiven me. he's a good man.


Ruba; yousif?
Yousif; 3younah?
Ruba; shayil eb galbik shay?
Yousif; … la2
Ruba; yousif ana asfa I really felt sorry! 9iij 9ij! Ya3ny ldarajat enna I would do anything so the past would be erased! ..


he simply kissed my forehead ..

Yousif; *whispers* khala9, mu entay el7een malty?
Ruba; eeh
Yousif; that's all I need


I dug my head deeper. And felt like crying, madry laish .. I shed a few tears ,, and yousif noticed ..


Yousif; hey heeyy! Shnu hathaaa! Tabcheeen ruba?!


He released his arms, and looked at his shirt! ..


Yousif; you're not getting away with this, you're gonna pay for the laundry


He joked trying to make me smile, which worked..I smiled..


Yousif; ashouf! Wa 7alaat elwayh o ohwa mibtesim;*
Ruba; hehe *shy*
Yousif; ruba!!
Ruba; hm?
Yousif; A7IBICH!


Ahhh <3


Ruba; enzain ..


His eyes popped out .. then I giggled ..


Ruba; ehehe, haman ana..


I found it hard to tell him "a7ibik" somehow,,it needs time..


LATER THAT DAY;


Rinad called me ..


Rinad; alo!
Ruba; ahlan!
Rinad; rwaib! Aku gathering ib baitna! Yallah emshay o bring the purple sweater you have ..
Ruba; ha?! Mnu biyee?
Rinad; everybody from uni, except for the guys ;(
Ruba; hahaha, ok what time?
Rinad; umm,, 5, 6 hal 7aza!
Ruba; ok, I'll be there ..
Rinad; don't forget the purple sweater!!!
Ruba; enzain ..


When she called me it was already 4;30 ,, so I took a shower and dressed up. Libast dark skinny jeans with a short sleeve patterned blue shirt. Grey cross bag, grey flats, and good to go. Ooooppss! Almost forgot the purple sweater she wanted. I called yousif as I was driving ..

Ruba; alo 7ayaty tara ana baroou7 bait rinad
Yousif; ok, have fun, shil 6ary?
Ruba; gathering, chithy girl's 3aba6..
Yousif; ahaa, 7arakaat (remember 7ara7aat :p? always.be? :p)
Ruba; hehe ,, yallah 7ayatyy I'll talk to you lama arid elbait ok?
Yousif; allah wiyach, mwah
Ruba; mwah enta ;p
Yousif; madry laish 7asait'ha ehana ;p
Ruba; hahahah .. no no! wallah Qa9dy shareef :p
Yousif; hahaha,,ok ashwa ;p
Ruba; yallah 7abeeby bye;*
Yousif; bye;*


RINAD'S HOUSE;


It was a bit crowded. I found my way on a couch with basma, rinad maskeena she was so busy talking to the maids and telling them what to do, I didn't even know the reason for the gathering ,, but I just wanted to have fun .. I told basma everything! Aahhh I was falling in love. After a while .. I saw "the girl" remember her? S3ood's gf?! Yeah HER! I went closer to rinad ..


Ruba; 3izamteeha?


I pointed with my eye on "the girl"


Rinad; huh .. eehh ..
Ruba; why would you?
Rinad; aren't you like over s3ood, and don't care any more!
Ruba; embala! Bs laish ta3zimeenha!!!
Rinad; madryy ruba, it's 3adyy


She said that while she was busy arranging some forks and shit. I was sort of upset! Shnu hatha? Laish ta3zimha? Ok 7atta lw I'm over s3ood, which I am! Laish ta3zimha?! I hate it when friends don't understand why I'm angry! I sat next to basma again, and rested my chin on the palm of my hand,


Basma; shfech?
Ruba; rinad e3zimat hathy


I eyed "her" ,, basma looked at her, then back at me ..

Basma; 7ilfay?
Ruba; wallah!
Basma; 3ady bil 6agaag! You don't care about s3ood, don't you?
Ruba; ok I don't care about him! Bs laiish ta3zimhaa! She knows well shnu 9aar!
Basma; 3adyy rwaib, don't mind it
Ruba; wai3!


Bainy o bain nafsy I thought what rinad did was weird! Ya3ny seriously? Laish ta3zimha?! Ugh! it was dinner time a while after that, we ate dinner. I eyed the girl wayiid! Kil shway akhizha ashoufha shetsawyy,, she's always giggling and texting "somebody" uugghhh! It bothered meeeee!!!

The Rhythm Of My Heartbeat-12

Previously...

I stayed silent, he seemed angry, o 9ara7a kint khayfa! .. then he just walked away! Dropped his cigar on the floor. And walked away! ..

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DAYS LATER;

Ahh! I felt bad for the longest time. I miss s3ood. I miss yousif. I feel angry towards s3ood. I feel sympathetic towards yousif! .. sometimes I would text yousif saying sorry, but he never replied. It drove me nuts. But I never had the urge to call. And s3ood! There wouldn't be a day that passes by without thinking about him! ..

(I heard this song once on the radio, it couldn't help buts stick in my head, here goes…
7abeeby el-awalany 9a3b ef youm yirga3ly tany
Bs mahma kan naseena ma eb ninsaash
Da el-fora2 adarak na9eebak
Laih ya alby elly yiseebak yib2a 6oul 3omry 7abeebak bs laih?!
Momkin ansa esmy, ansa elnas, ansa a3eesh
Ba awal marra a7ib..ma ib titniseesh

This is my actual first time to like an Egyptian song! I hope you liked it;*)

Truth be told. I don't blame yousif. I did him wrong. And I deserve what's happening to me ..

IN COLLEGE;

Basma ana I were sitting at the café, she was focused on something to do with studying .. and I was eating a fruit salad ..

Basma; if q to the sixth power equals to the square roof of p!? waii3 shnu hathaa!!

She tends to think out loud, I don't mind. I actually enjoy it .. basma couldn't "function" any more, she threw her hands up, and gave up ..

Basma; I give up! Hawant maby atkharaj! Ok?!! Bashteghiil zabaala!! Okayyy?!*angry*
Ruba; haha! Basoooom chill! Ask mbarak, he's helpful and friendly ..

Mbarak is this friendly nerd, he seems to help everyone around, he's Mr.Perfect ..

Basma; waiih maly khelg! B3dain b3dain ..
Ruba; oki doki

She stole my fork and started to eat my fruit salad

(Again, they're always joking, non of the conversation below is seious)

Ruba; ya 7mara!
Basma; I'm dying here!
Ruba; oh yeah!
Basma; wayyy 9ij I'm so stressed out! I hate uni!
Ruba; ma 3alaih, kilha cham sina..
Basma; humph! Ma 3alaina .. shlouniich ma3a shesma?
Ruba; what?
Basma; e7im?
Ruba; who?

I really had no one at that time..

Basma; yousif?
Ruba; ugh siktaayy! Ever since the "chili's" day we haven't spoken..

Of course I told them about it. I promised not to keep a secret;*

Basma; oh .. can I be frank?
Ruba; sure..
Basma; madryy laish a7is yousiif is … *sar7ana 3alam thany thinking* .. what's the right word?

Amazing? Maskeen? Mathloom?

Ruba; you tell me..
Basma; yeah!! Mathloom! ,, I feel like he's a good guy who doesn't act like it! But why doesn't he act like a good guy? Laish chithy ya3ny?
Ruba; madryy ..

I put my elbow on the table and started thinking …

Basma; howb! La itro7een b3eed! What are you thinking about?
Ruba; the feelings that I'm feeling … are … strange!
Basma; what are they?
Ruba; I remember we used to call each other daily. Musta7eel emir youm ma7ad emkalim elthany..it was like he was like .. a human diary! You know what I mean!? I told him everything! And I was his human diary too .. I kind of miss him
Basma; aww .. is he aware of that?
Ruba; no ..
Basma; what are you waiting for? *eyes popped out*
Ruba; la fashlaaa

I turned my head to the other direction showing that I'm so against the idea .. I felt basma steal my mobile from my pocket ..

Ruba; ya 7maaraaaaaa
Basma; shesma!?
Ruba; basoooom! Fashlaaa
Basma; what's his name?!
Ruba; moron!
Basma; what? Hahahahahahhaahah! You seriously hate the guy!
Ruba; laaa I don't! I ..

Like him? Madryy what I feel towards him. But it's definitely not hate ;) .. good thing basma didn't pay attention when I said "I .. "

Basma; kahooo, I'll text him .. *vocalizing while typing* II MIIISSSS YOOUUU!
Ruba; mnu gaa9 3alaich gayiiil lich 9outiich 7ilw!

She handed me the phone while ..

Basma; you're gonna thank me one day for this!
Ruba; ugh! bsaaiimm! Besides .. he never replied on my messeges, so I won't feel embarrassed not like he's going to reply ..

I said as I rested, since I was sitting on the edge of my seet; fighting with bsaaiim elkhebla!

*MSG RINGTONE*

Basma + Ruba; *GAASSPPP*

We stuck to each other's shoulders with the mobile in the middle, secretly hoping it's from yousif! And guess what!?? It was!!!

From Moron;
I've heard that before

I looked at basma with sad eyes ..

Ruba; look what you did!
Basma; 3a6eenyy 3a6eenyyy ana a3arf atfaham ma3ah!
Ruba; basooom ;(
Basma; what's the worst thing that could happen?

Not like he's my bf, the worst thing happened already, not like he's going to leave me?! we're not even together..

Ruba; ok go ahead!

I was a little excited, honestly .. basma grabbed my phone, thought for a sec ..

Basma; *says while typing* I mean it this time

From Moron;
Why should I believe you?

Basma; waaiihh tara hatha dalloouuu33 ;p
Ruba; chub 3ad!
Basma; oowwbb! Ma tirthaaiin 3alaaiihh?

EEHH MA ARTHAAA! ;p

Ruba; laa! Bs shnu daloou3?! Chub chub kitbaay kitbaayy
Basma; hahaa! Ma tirthain 3alaih! Kaak yal 9aida!

I hit her on her shoulder

Ruba; ma7ad 9aida ghairiich! Chub!
Basma; enzain enzain! *singing* ma tirthaa 3alaaiihh! 3ashaww ;p
Ruba; *gives the look* eb tiktibeen wala shloun?!
Basma; shloun!
Ruba; bsaaaiiiiiimmmm!!!
Basma; *ib kil borood* 3youb bsaim?
Ruba; slaima it9ikiich yallah kitbay!
Basma; enzain enzaiin!;p

To Moron;
If I was gonna continue lying, I wouldn't have told you I lied! Now would I? ;)

Ruba; 7mara! It souds a whole lot worse when you say it!
Basma; correction!! Write it*
Ruba; say it, write it, same thing!
Basma; laaaaaaa22!
Ruba; ok ok! You're right I'm wrong! You win, I lose!
Basma; ya 7ilwiich winti makhthatny 3ala gad 3aglyy!
Ruba; hahahah ..

From Moron;
I don't know ..

To Moron;
Fyi .. I'm not ruba, I'm her friend, elyoum et7al6imat 3ala rasyy she's like "I miss yousif" and she was too embarrassed to tell you. Fa I figured I should do that :D!

As I read the msg before she sends it, I gasped a very long gasp! I was literally "akhmi6" the mobile from basma. O we looked like 9 year old's! and she eventually won and clicked "send"!! aaahhhh;O! I covered my face with my hand! As if everybody knew what I just did!

Ruba; ya 7maaaraaaaa!!
Basma; you'll thank me one day!
Ruba; bsaaiim!;(

She was laughing, honestly, I was happy she did it, but I was a bit anxious. Lemme rephrase that! I WAS ANXIOUS WAYIID! .. my mobile didn't make a sound after that msg! I don't know what happened!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS MAN?! After a while rinad came out of the lecture, and we chatted a bit at the café, of course I told her everything! ..

Rinad; maybe he IS mentally ill?!
Basma; hahah
Ruba; Noo;/! Akeed 9ar shay! Shil salfa? I'm kind of worried..
Basma; oh yeah I forgot to mention tara ruba "ma tirtha 3alaih"! *wink*
Ruba; ya 7maaara wallah maybe something happened to him!

I said that shway dala3! Because I was really frightened! .. any way .. we talked and talked. Actually, they did. I just listened and wodered of what's happening to him at that moment! I drove back home, and was dressing up for my nap. Ensida7t, 7a6ait mobiley on the sidebed table..

*MSG RINGTONE*

Ok! I hope it's from yousif! Yep you heard right! I HOPE IT'S FROM YOUSIF!

From Moron;
Is this ruba? Or her friend?

To Moron;
Ruba

Seconds later …

*Moron Calling* …

Goosebumps, butterflies in my tummy, my heart was racing, everything all at the same time! What is it? What's happening to me?!

Ruba; … alo?
Yousif; ahlan ..
Ruba; …….
Yousif; …….

Embarrassing wouldn't cut it! Awkward wouldn't cut it! Ma2adryyy! I felt like I wanted to die just to NOT be in that situation! It took a few second for him to speak up ..

Yousif; is it true?

I knew right away what he was after .. "do you really miss me?"

Ruba; *clears throat* y..yeah ..
Yousif; *sigh*
Ruba; shfeek?

Then he went on and on of all things that I did wrong! We blah blah blah'ed a lot .. until he asked a question that made me freeze. He was confused, bs mu kithry ana ..

Yousif; what now?

What now? WHAT NOW?! Really?! What now?

Ruba; I don't know …
Yousif; shnu elly baina?

Shnu elly baina?!

Ruba; ma2adryy ..
Yousif; shnu lazim ensawyy?

SHNU LAZIM ENSAWYY!

Ruba; ma2adryy
Yousif; *sigh* ,, mashyy ,, khala9 ana akhaleech el7een ..

How long for?

Ruba; mhmm
Yousif; yallah bye
Ruba; bye

Madry shloun gilt "bye"! aahhh! I couldn't nap! Killa min his last words "khala9 ana akhaleech el7een" I didn't know what meant …



















UNTIL…




























I WAS FINALLY RELIEVED THE NEXT DAY….


























From Moron;
Morning ..

Aaaaaaahhhh!!!

To Moron;
Morning to you too

From Moron;
Are you busy today?

To Moron;
Umm,,no,,why?

From Moron;
Well, I miss you as well. And I'd like to see you?

WAAYYYYY;*

To Moron;
Ok .. where?

From Moron;
Friday's

S3ood's fave restaurant

To Moron;
Umm ,, ishrayik ghairah?

From Moron;
Ok .. wain? You pick

To Moron;
Wasabi

From Moron;
Sure, 7?

To Moron;
Ok

The talking was kind of cold. I don't blame him, he has all the right to be cold .. I wore a girly navy blue dress, it was baggy at the top, but was a little tight at the bottom .. not so tight though, just tighter than baggy (you get it right?;*)

AT WASABI;

I got in, picked a table; yousif didn't arrive yet .. it took him 10 minutes to arrive, he was wearing a blue and orange tshirt, with jeans. He had his wallet and mobile in hand. And I couldn't my eyes to zoom in into his wrist watch which was burberry. He has a great taste..

Yousif; *clears throat* ahlan

He wasn't smilling! Elnafsiyaa tharba 3al 3alyy!! (Emthagil nafsah)

Ruba; hey ..
Yousif; excuse me .. *calling out for a waiter* .. we want the menu please

Polite ..

Ruba; ehh?
Yousif; eeh .. *receives menu* thank you..

And he was flipping through the menu searching for something to eat, while I was just staring at him ..

Yousif; have you decided?

He said that without even looking at me. he was too busy picking what he was going to have..

Ruba; la2..

I held the menu and searched .. we ordered .. while we were waiting ,, yousif was kind of busy with his mobile .. I waited for a few minutes. Atlafat, al3ab eb my nails, checking on my look with the mini mirror I had in my purse. Still busy! ..

Ruba; e7iimm

Still busy!

Ruba; when are you gonna be done?
Yousif; hmm?
Ruba; from your mobile?
Yousif; eh wait

That's what I've been doing for the last century!!

Ruba; ok

I said in an upset tone! Ya3ny enta taby itshofny 3ashan you check on your phone and completely ignore me? .. then he finally put his mobile on the table, and looked at me while his hand was placed on his chin.

Yousif; ehh?
Ruba; eehh
Yousif; shlounich?
Ruba; zaina
Yousif; shakhbarich?
Ruba; zaina
Yousif; good.
Ruba; enta shlounik?
Yousif; zain
Ruba; shakhbarik?
Yousif; zain

Ok el-convo was copy-paste!! Wai3! It was kind of awkward

Yousif; laish itQaldeen?

He joked trying to break the ice

Ruba; madryy ;p

He smiled! FINALLY! Ishda3waa yubaa gaa6 elthegiiil ;p!? he has a beautiful smile, Hollywood smile <3 his teeth were white, and each tooth was long in length, all at the same level, if you see them you might think he had sharpened them. But he didn't, they're natural!

Ruba; can I tell you something?
Yousif; sure ..
Ruba; awal ,, youm we used to talk ,, you have no idea how much that was the highlight of my day. It would always make me feel better. But yet I felt guilty ,, you really made it a whole lot better for me! wallah! And I'm so sorry I lied to you, I promise you it will never happen again!
Yousif; the past is in the past .. let's just leave it there?

He said that with a one sided smile .. 7araaam! <33

Ruba; *smiles* ok ..

Seconds later we were back to "normal" , you may not know what I mean by "normal". Definition; when yousif tells me about his friends, and gets all mad like the way he was when the situation happened, and then apologizes that he was angry while I had nothing to do with it. Normal when he would tell a joke and laugh at himself. Normal when he would chuckle on any funny voice that I pronounce. Normal that he stares at me with a smile when I talk. Normal that he clenches his teeth everytime he spots a guy who's staring at me. normal that he would text me while we're actually talking to each other face to face. That's his "Normal"! .. we had a lot to cover since we haven't spoken for a long time. It was 10;10 ,, I just realized I almost spent three hours in the same place, with the same person, and the smile never vanished from my face <3 ..

Ruba; *gasp* ambaih yousif it's 10!
Yousif; 3adyy
Ruba; la la! Khalood nou3a e7atyy,,

I got up, and almost left before I heard him ..

Yousif; ta3alay!! Awa9lich elcar!
Ruba; ok

I said with the widest smile!

Yousif; yallah ..

He grabbed his wallet and mobile quickly .. he walked me to my car, opened the door for me as I entered. And rested his elbows on my window opening,, I had to tease!!

Ruba; excuse me sir. Your elbows are bothering my car
Yousif; hahah .. mashyy

He removed his elbows, as I drove a few inches forward ..

Ruba; bye ..
Yousif; bye

When I gone off to bed that night. I was surprisingly happy, yet confused and shocked. Happy because he has finally talked to me, confused because I don't know why he did, and I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, shocked because if I were in his shoes I wouldn't listen to me (ruba) ..!

NEXT MORNING;

*msg ringtone*

I reached my mobile with one eye closer and the other open, I just woke up and couldn't help but reach for my mobile with secret hopes that it was from yousif..

From Moron;
Morning

To Moron;
Morning

From Moron;
3asa ma ga3adtich?

It was 6:00 am SHARP!!!

To Moron;
La, killa agoum hal 7aza ana

Yeah right!

From Moron;
I like that..have you eaten breakfast?

To Moron;
No

From Moron;
Emshay enraygich, I have a surprise for you ;)

To Moron;
What is it?

From Moron;
Can't tell you. That's why it's called a "surprise"!

To Moron;
Ok

I washed up, and prayed fayir since I was ages late! Jumped in my fresh yellow juicy training! Such a morning outfit! Pony tail, and didn't grab a purse! Finall touches here and there, and texted yousif ..

To Moron;
Wain?

From Moron;
Meet me at you uni, I'll drive you to the place

Wala mara rikabt with yousif the same car! Chinna it's fashla o too soon? .. my reply didn't intdicate any of what I said ..

To Moron;
Ok now barou7 ..

I drove my Range Rover, parked at my uni. And texted him …

To Moron;
I'm there ..

5 minutes later, he parked on the right side of my car .. and waved for me to come to his care! This was kinda hard! ..I froze, khift of what might happen .. but I got out of my car, and enetered his. Lemme tell you! The scent!! Itsayiii7 eldinya o ma feeha! It was a mix of lots of things. I loved it until yousif lit a cigar! Bad habbit! He wasn't driving, he just sat there ,, enhaling the cigar ..

Ruba; so wain binrou7?
Yousif; agoul lich surprise itgoleen wain *teases*
Ruba; ummm..

We were parked there for about 5 minutes or even more .. without saying a word ..

Ruba; are we going there any time soon?
Yousif; lama akhali9 zigara ..
Ruba; ok ..

But he took one after the other, so we wouldn't really finish ..

Ruba; enzain can't you smoke and drive at the same time?
Yousif; ma feech 9abir!?
Ruba; honestly, no!

Yousif was a bit … what's the right word? .. rude? Aggressive? Something in between those two .. a few minutes later he finally drove off ..and I got anxious .. I was looking around trying to find a trace of what we were going, but nothing. Streets are streets ya3ny how can you tell? … he parked in front of this HUGE building, and I couldn't guess, coz there was nothing written except the name of the man that owns the building. And it's a name I've never heard before, the first name yeah sure, it was common. But the last name was a mystery ..

Yousif; yallah ..

He got out of the car, and opened the door for me. he's very moody. One minute he would be rude and cold, the next he's a gentleman!!?

Ruba; thanks ..

I got out of the car as he held my hand and lead me to the elevator .. up to the 7th floor .. ok! I was mu khayfa!!! Zain ma sawait'ha 3ala rou7yy!

Yousif; fahamtay wain?
Ruba; la2?!

Unfortunately there weren't a lot of people when we left the elevator, but a Philippine maid had passed by us .. and seemed to greet yousif ..

Philippine; hi sir. I haven't seen you in long time
Yousif; yeah, I've been busy .. plus I wasn't really in the mood of coming here!

Question, where is HERE?!

Philippine; ohhh!

She inappropriately put her hand on his shoulder with sad eyes that say "I miss you" ..

Yousif; excuse me Linda …

HOLD UP!! Linda? He knows her name?!

Yousif; … I have a girl with me, ok?

She gave me this stare! 6ala3atny min foug o ta7at as I rolled my eyes and gave her my back! 3aiib shloun it6ali3ny cihthy? .. yousif just grabbed my hand, and took me into "Some place" ..

Ruba; yousif where are we?

He was busy looking for something .. lemme describe the place for you, dark, dark, dark, and dark! There were a few lights here and there. And by the silence you could tell that it was empty! ..

Ruba; yousif!

I grabbed my phone and used the light of it .. yousif was right in front of me ..

Ruba; yuma!
Yousif; shfech khayfa?
Ruba; la2!!

7ad ommy mayta khouf!

Yousif; go over there ..
Ruba; reminder; I can't SEE anything, what makes you think I can see where your hand is pointing at.
Yousif; oh, with time your eyes will adjust to the dark

Seriously!? Shil salfa?!!! BAGHAAITT AMOUUUT!!

Yousif; come I'll take you ..

He grabbed my wrist, to a place that … well .. just mysterious! .. he sat me on a chair .. or a bench, it had no back.

Yousif; ha? Fahamtay wain?
Ruba; no!

He opened the lights with a remote he had. I figured he was looking for THAT a while ago .. the lights weren't much though, shwaya bs .. and I still didn't get it!

Ruba; what is it?
Yousif; it's a studio .. my studio!

I looked around, and then everything made sence ..

Ruba; ohhhh!
Yousif; yes ;p .. would you mind if I take a few pictures?

Why would he wanna take pictures?!

Ruba; what for?
Yousif; so I can frame them *chuckles*
Ruba; ok but why?
Yousif; you have a perfect face..perfect tones..the space between your two eye brows are perfect. your eye lashes ,, are thick and curly ,, your lips ..

I tunred my heard the second he said "lips"!! ..

Yousif; look at me ..

Mabyyyyyyy! I'm scared! .. but I looked at him …

Yousif; are perfect pink, you don't need lipstick..

I wasn't making any eye contact! I was scared to death!

Yousif; and most of all! .. your jaw!! .. I love that jaw!

Next thing I know he held it!!!???!!! WHAT THE HELL?!

Ruba; yousif!!
Yousif; hmm?

He seemed to look at my jaw with discreet scrutiny! ..

Ruba; can we skip this and do to the shooting?

I didn't want to shoot, just anything to keep him away from my jaw ..! .. he went a few steps back.. and held his camera

Ruba; you never told me you were a photographer..
Yousif; I'm not. It's like my side hobby kind of thing ..
Ruba; oh..

He was inserting a film ..

Yousif; yeah my dad got me this studio as a gift for my graduation ..
Ruba; that's nice ..
Yousif; sit up straight, Don't try to pose, I'll talk to you, and I'll shoot your reactions ..

Weird. Very very weird..

Ruba; ok! ..

He started shooting ..

Yousif; how was your day..
Ruba; *Smiles* good
Yousif; you can't say good it didn't even start yet *jokes*
Ruba; *giggles* that's right ..
Yousif; la itkhafeen binraygich after the shooting ..
Ruba; yeah please, my stomach maskeen
Yousif; etnakteen b3d? ;p
Ruba; haha
Yousif; oooh sorry I forgot to tell you, tara the studio hasn't been used in ages, fa when you see rats don't be surprised..
Ruba; *shocked* Whaaattt!??!!
Yousif; hahahaha, that was a joke, I just wanted the scared shocked look ..
Ruba; ywaiisiiiiiiiffff *dala3* khara3tny wallah baghait anii6 *puppy eyes*
Yousif; this is going so well you're making all the right emotions ;p
Ruba; aren't you kind of using me here?
Yousif; well .. yes!
Ruba; haha, aby e6egiik!
Yousif; haha .. go ahead ..
Ruba; hehe *shy* I was just kidding ..

Then we were silent, and all I heard was the shutter .. I played with my nails a bit, stared at the place, shutter, shutter, shutter .. why is he doing this any way!?

Yousif; ruba?
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; do you still love s3ood?

He slapped me again for the third time! I FROZE!

Yousif; hmm?
Ruba; I can't do this ..

I got off the chair, and honestly didn't know where I was headed, I just wanted to leave. But he held my arm, his arms were toned, stong, and manly. Which I couldn't really escape ..

Yousif; sit down, I'll change the question ..

I sat again..

Yousif; *clears throat* do you love me?

I just stared at another black spot. I didn't know what to say ..

Yousif; perfect!
Ruba; hmm?
Yousif; I wanted that reaction! .. I know you don't love me..

He looked up at me with a fake smile .. it was very awkward! ..

Yousif; I'll set the timer. And we'll shoot together ok?

I've never done anything like this before. It was very weird yet thrilling.

Ruba; ok

He set the timer, walked up to me and stood behind me .. I was sitting on the chair, he was a few inches on the back.. he weirdly whispered in my ear ..

Yousif; if you rest your head on my chest it will make a great shot ..
Ruba; umm .. I suppose I can do that ..

As I did that, he place both hands on my shoulders .. I just smiled and waited for the shutter! ..

*Chik* <-- 9out el-shutter :p

Yousif; ok, emshay en7amith'hum
Ruba; you only took on photo of us ..
Yousif; you want more?
Ruba; madryy .. you took like a hundered photos of me!?
Yousif; ok

He set the timer again .. and ran to me and told me to stand up, when I did, he kicked the chair on to the ground. And asked me to wrap my arms around his abs, or waist, whatever you wanna call it ;p! and act like I'm crying ..?! well! I didn't really want to do that. But I had no time to think,,so I did was I was told, and he placed his hand on my head and pulled it towards his shoulder .. as if he's trying to "comfort me" .. I thought it was nice but inappropriate. But I liked it. I honestly didn't care! ..

*Chik*

You see after the shooting, the flash stops then it gets really really dark for a few seconds. In those few seconds ,, I stared at his direction, and when the lights were on, he was staring at my direction as well,, We kept staring at each other .. it got awkward ..

Ruba; ayyy the flash e3awiir el3aiin!
Yousif; eeh, maykhalif, it'll go after a few minutes.. emshay en7amith'hum ..
Ruba; okay .. eehh! Which reminds me! why do you use film? Why not memory cards?! Aren't they easier?
Yousif; they are. But film is much better in results, plus I don't like my photos to be in a computer screen. I like them enlarged and framed.

Impressive

Ruba; I see

We got into this red weird looking room .. as he did the business. I was looking at photos that we hanging by a thread. Lemme tell you THEY WERE GOOD! Not good! AMAZING!

Ruba; wow yousif! This is very impressive!
Yousif; haha, I sure appreciate that..

He seemed busy, so I just took another look at the photos .. we stayed there for a while, it got kind of boring..

Yousif; done .. you can see them later ..
Ruba; ok ..
Yousif; come here, let me show you the mini gallery I have ..
Ruba; ok ..

He took me by the hand, and led me to the "mini gallery" .. I saw many beautiful photos, enlarged and framed. But something caught my eyes. Pictures of him,,with girls one girl at each photo!! I nimbled towards the photos!! .. I looked closely, the poses were all showing that he's been with then. Or maybe just acting?! I don't know! .. 4 photos, with 4 different girls ..

Ruba; umm ,, yousif? Who are these?
Yousif; former girlfriends ..
Ruba; why do you keep their pictures hanged?
Yousif; I don't know..they're too good to be in the dumpster ..

I looked at the photos again. I felt malicious. I didn't know why! .. yousif stoon next to me and stared at them as well ..

Yousif; you don't like them?

I stared at him as he was staring at the stupid photos!

Ruba; no

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This is very long, 3ashan ta2akhart 3alaikom;* ,, sorry eh?(A)